First of all I want to say congratulations on your engagement Pastor Coleman Glenn of the Church of the New Jerusalem in Dawson Creek British Columbia. I wish you and Anne the best of times and a happy and healthy marriage. It is sad you didnt want anyone else to be happy and as a Pastor of a church discourage and make fun of my love for Rachel. I am going to point out that in this blog. First I will start out with this. Imagine how happy you felt Coleman when you first fell in love with her and then think about how I felt with Rachel. Think about how much older I am than you and how being a good Christian man how much more that meant to me and how having a person say they love you and want to be with you after all that time brought you a different place. See Coleman you are only 28 so you cant begin to fathom how I felt. Imagine during the course of you being in love with someone that your mother passed away and that love brought you strength and hope. Then imagine that person crushing your dreams, being untruthful, and leading you on. Imagine also the Pastor of her Church being you Coleman Glenn basically siding with her and putting Church doctrine and free will in front of God's love and truth, but yet you name your blog Good & Truth. Ladies and Gentleman here is a shot Coleman Glenn took at me in one of his sermons, he tried to mask it but here it is plain and simple about the situation between me and Rachel. Instead of believe that God could give someone so much love for a person and they would stand up all obstacles to love that person and believe in them through God he makes the case for seperation, for differences, and to try and make his point against me. It goes to show what an uncaring and insensitive Pastor he is and I am spreading this on my blog and my paper newsletter worldwide this week. Here is the poke at me and how much I truly loved Rachel and how he tried to justify I was wrong in my love. My whole retort here is if you cant love someone for their differences and they are too different than what you are used to then dont date them, make promises you cant keep, or play with their heart because all I wanted was marriage, a family, and a true Godly love with Rachel Myatt. This is from Coleman Glenn's sermon entitled "Waiting On The Lord" http://colemanglenn.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/sermon-waiting-on-the-lord/ For example: imagine a person who loves the Lord’s promise of true marriage love – that a man can leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two become one flesh (Genesis 2:24). He does what the Lord asks: prays for a true marriage, shuns lusts as sins against the Lord. But years of waiting turn into decades. And he feels lonely, and more and more hopeless. Things are getting worse, not better. The promise is not coming true. So he decides to settle – it doesn’t matter who it is, he just wants to be married. And so he marries a woman whom he does not love, who has completely different values from him, a completely different faith. And over time, the man finds that there is a deep seated coldness between him and his wife. He finds that in impatiently trying to get rid of his own loneliness, he’s become more lonely than he was before he was married – just as Saul lost the kingdom by desperately trying to hold onto it. Now think about it one moment dear readers. It was as if he were taking a shot at me because I was of a different faith than Rachel. I was open to worship with Rachel and they turned me away. Rachel was the one who had all the prejudices, insecurities, and misconceptions ; not me. I accepted her for all that she was her beauty, her child, her flaws, her strengths. What did she do in the end, she called me mentally ill when I was grieving, she put me down in many ways, she laughed at my pain and she never knew what I was going through because she has never lost a parent. She made excuses because I asked her what if her parents died or if Jonathan died and I told her I wouldnt abandon her or make fun of her or think of her ill I would have stuck by her side but apparently in the New Church you don't have integrity, loyatly, and lying is the lesser evil that is allowed. It seems that you embrace evil over the smallest amount of good and it leads to people being selfish. I want you to stop and think about that Coleman Glenn because this blog and my newsletter are going to touch on what you said and did towards me and I will include parts of your email and I will talk about your hypocrisy in not wanting me to be happy and making fun of me when I truly loved someone , something I would never do to you. I only wish you happiness. If you are man enough to answer this my email is always open but to tell you the truth its saddens me because you only ever saw Rachel's side. I had the weight of the world on my shoulder and what you said to me Coleman changed my life as much as what Rachel said and did to me. I wish you no ill will in your marriage but imagine how karma could change your life. What if something happened to Anne like a plane crash or car wreck and your happiness came to an end and instead of having people support you, you had people making fun of your grief, telling you didnt love God, or had people taunting their free will to treat your bad ? You wouldn't like it very much would you? Well that is how you made me feel. My life or love didnt matter to anyone or to God because I wasn't part of the New Church. I had no feelings, no love, no life despite even my atheist friends sending you letters about how much I loved God. They did that on their own cause they loved me not cause I asked them too but because they were upset someone who claimed to be a servant of God would be so crass and insensitive. That is the reason why people arent being drawn to Christianity and why they definetly will shy away from the New Church. So you have to ask youself this question Coleman? Are you and Rachel ready to have me make this into another issue or are you ready to realize that life is too short to not make peace, amends, and try to understand other people. I have written this blog for almost 2yrs in January. I have never given up on Rachel. Though I am critical of both you and her I have nothing but love for you both. If Rachel picked up the phone I would be in tears of joy and I would make peace with her and just go from there. It is amazing what could happen if we lay down our arms and open them to forgiveness, reconcilation, and make amends in Christ name. That is what I am about, I am not someone who lives my life for evil, revenge, or to hurt but I am also very strong willed and if you think that I am not printing up materials and voicing my opinion of how I was treated by the Church of the New Jerusalem and will not stand up to your clergy and laity I will. I am an "Army of Me" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adUd9izOcW0 and I wont back down. You will only have yourself and Rachel herself to blame for what I have to say because I reached out to you for love, peace, and goodness. If you want to make this a big issue within the Church of the New Jerusalem and me to bring this to a world outside of the New Church then that suits me fine I can do that. Like I said I dont threat I promise and do things peacefully. Protesting by letter and blog is within my confines of the law. So with that you can keep ignoring me as will Rachel and in the next couple of weeks this blog will morph into a worldwide paper campaign that will address your relationship and how you treated me in my also how Pastor Cooper doubted me or someone can be brave enough to end this with love preferably Rachel Myatt. Good Day and God Bless ALL
- Putting Your Life in Christ Hands.
I want to make one last point to you all about things Coleman said to me. He put down my saying that God had called me to love Rachel and I want to use music as an example of how Christ and how God can call you and since people in the Church of the New Jerusalem seem to denounce this for Free Will over God calling people much as Coleman Glenn did to me I want you and him to read this I shared a piece of this about a year ago but I never used this powerful letter. This is a letter from Jeremy Enigk who is the lead singer for Sunny Day Real Estate. At the time of this letter Sunny Day Real Estate disbanded because Enigk had found God and the rest of the band didnt want to move in the direction. They were on the verge of being what was called the next Nirvana who was on top of the world at that time and Jeremy left it all behind for Christ. When God calls us we as an indivual know. Coleman challenged my love for Rachel putting Rachel's free will over everything and not even acknowledging my will that I looked to God for. He tried to make excuses for everything I was saying when he never looked at the fact that I dropped everything to be with Rachel and Jonathan. I lost my mother, was willing to leave my family in the States and be with her and her family and I did it because of true love and nothing Rachel did or said to me was wrong in his eyes he and others just kept making excuses. I am still here loving Rachel because of God's will not Byron's will because my selfish will would have let me hate her and do vile things probably but instead he gave me this blog to express myself and the campaign. I want you to read this letter dear readers because what Enigk has to say about when you are called to Christ is true. Also read the part in read about making God in our image and that is what the Church of the New Jerusalem and Swedenborg's Writings do. I mean they try to use the Bible but in this they make God a Human God and make him how they want him and me I see God as superior to me and He is my Father and my Maker and at no time will I ever be on the same level as him. They make God as someone walking the Earth and so in this letter I have found the reason why I must call out Coleman Glenn and the Church of the New Jerusalem on their hypocrisy and it is that they do not live as they say. They claim to love others and accept others and be a New Christianity yet they fall into the same traps and are just as judgmental and biased if not more as the Old Church. The letter is as follows
To Seth and other readers. I'm sorry that you are disturbed about the rumor of us breaking up. It is amazing how fast these things travel. Now to begin with, I don't know where you got the idea that I am displeased with the new album. The album is not even finished yet, so how could I dislike it? In January I begin my vocals. Already I love the music alone. When I finish my vocals and the final mix is done, then a decision can be made of whether I like it or not. If I did not like the new album, that would be no reason for me to quit the band. When I look back at our last album Diary, I look at it as a diary of our emotions at the time it all went down. The same will be with the next album. It may not make me freak out in joy, it may not be to the best of our abilities, but it is who we were then. Yes sir I have given my life to Christ. For along time I dwelt on a lot of pain in my life. Pain that I had tried to get rid of in many different ways. I watched myself slowly shrivel up into a hopeless, bitter and lonely person. Well one thing led to another and I could not take it anymore so I took a shot on calling upon God. He answered me. My pain was gone. I was full of joy. I had hope again. All the hope that was squeezed out of me was replaced ten times. I had tried this in many different ways. None of them succeeded in saving me from hurt. Well , I was so full of joy that I wanted all of my friends to feel the way I did. So I told all of them, and of course they couldn't understand, since it was something that I had been going through myself. And also it is such a far thing to grasp, that it is easier to just blow it off. To give your life to Christ means to deny yourself, to completely live for him. Doing this will change your comfort zone that you had been trying to get since you can remember. You then are a new person desiring a whole different way then before. Most people definitely don't want their comfort changed, so they stay away from the idea of Jesus. The funny thing is, when you sincerely call upon him, though you let yourself go, He fills you with a joy and peace that far surpasses any joy, peace or comfort that you could possibly feel from earthly pleasures. Now, how this applies to the band breaking up. Well now that this has happened to me, Naturally I want to sing about it. I want it to be what sunny day real estate is about, so that others out there will hear. But there are mixed feelings about what we could do about me wanting to sing about Christ. One of the members doesn't mind me singing about Christ, another is very uncomfortable with the idea of singing about Jesus, and one didn't mind but now all of the sudden does. Well I understand where they are coming from because I was there. Jesus isn't anything that I want to compromise with for he is far more important then this music, financial security or popularity could ever be. So the idea of breaking up has been talked about. I have different intentions now. I want to take the band on a different path then they. It is no longer the financial freedom that once controlled me, but it is to expose people to truth for their sake and especially Jesus' sake. But who knows what is going to happen in the future. Every time I make a plan it gets changed. The future is the future. I hope that we come to a decision about the band that everyone is happy with.Well my friend, you asked a couple questions and I gave you the whole story. Why give you the quick dumb version when you can get the story where it is. I'm going to say that there is more than what you see. I think most people believe that. Most people believe in some sort of God. Some create their own to their own comfort. Creating a mirror image of themselves, only calling it God. I must say that the true God is the one who is in the Bible, Jesus Christ. He is the only one whoever claimed to be God and on top of it all he rose from the dead. He has showed himself to me so clearly that I couldn't possibly believe otherwise. I would be a fool to say that he hasn't worked miracles in my life. When I didn't believe, there were no miracles. When I believed, the miracles still have not stopped. Call me crazy, for I'd rather be crazy and see what I've seen, then to ever go back to where I was. Now dear Seth, there is another reason that I write this letter. In it I hope you will let others who are interested read this letter to know where sunny day real estate and I stand, to clear up any confusion that is flying around. And especially to let you know of the intense change that Christ has put me through. I'm sure that you by now can see why. Maybe not through these words, but in the sincerity that I write this letter. I also intend for others to read this who are outside of your circle, Seth. These people would be, everyone in the band, and to all the people at Sub Pop. If my word is anything, this is the most sincere I have been in my life. Jesus Christ is Lord. There is a supreme truth to this world, and may your hearts search for it. Believe what you will. There is nothing more that I could do or say to show you. Believe me I have tried with many. Thanks for hearing me out.With love, -Jeremy Enigk
So my dear friends while Coleman Glenn tried in his emails to tell me and in his blog that people having a calling to God was wrong he was really pointing out that the New Church make God in their image through Swedenborg and while he may want to say I am putting words in his mouth here is the proof in his blog. "A Sense Of Calling"http://www.patheos.com/blogs/goodandtruth/2011/10/a-sense-of-calling/#comments where my comments were removed because he was offended they were on a personal level. I had a choice in loving Rachel, I could have been with the woman who I adored who didn't believe nor did she want anything to do with God or I was patient with Rachel who supposedly did love God who turned out to be judgmental, prejudiced and hateful toward me. Still to this day I put my faith in the Lord and believe in His Truths and I press on. Whether Rachel responds and if Coleman Glenn keeps ignoring the damage what he said has done in my life that is fine. I live on regardless and now I have a purpose in putting out in the open the fallacies in the New Church. I am not Anti New Church I am Anti Religious Bigotry, Hypocrisy, and Elitism and if they are going to act that way then because of the way I was treated by Rachel, Pastor Glenn, Cooper, and Lumsden then I have to speak on this and let others know. If they truly cared all of them would be reaching their hand out to me for peace and resolution I have even offered to fly out to their respective churches sit in a room and resolve this with them but they refuse so it am free to say and do what I need to and act on what needs to be done. It is a simple as that and I am sorry if it hurts anyone. Once again God Bless ALL
When God Called Jeremy back to Sunny Day Real Estate in 1998 this is the first song from "How It Feels To Be Something On" - Pillars- this is what being called to the Lord does it makes you stronger and gives you a better perspective on things.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHGEi3ov8Xw
This is the journey I was led to and because of members of the Church of the New Jerusalem's actions toward me especially people that I love this is where I am in life. If it offends people I am not sorry. It is happening for a reasaon and God, Jesus Christ means more to me than any of you or any material thing on this earth. All I ever wanted was love and Rachel used the tired old cliche that Jesus would love me because she didnt want to. How cruel and how cowardly. Yes Rachel Jesus does love me enough to give me the strength to do what I am doing and not because I hate you because I love you. So when my words hit your doorstep New Church and others hear of this you had a chance to change this but you stood by and ignored me and what I had to say. You felt that none of you had to make a change in my life, Rachel made me the problem when I did nothing but love her and accept her. You say you accept people New Church but I had a Pastor basically tell me that they wanted to keep certain people out of their organization to protect their culture. Is that what the Church of the New Jerusalem is about Bishop Kline? Is it about kicking people who are down, making fun of those who are different, and making God in our own image and own rules so that we can denounce others love of God? It sure has sounded like it to me so that is the message I share until someone proves me wrong.
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