Dear New Church and Readers,
- The past couple of months have put me on the fence about what I should do and say in my newsletter but in my upcoming newsletter it is specifically addressed to people in North America both the U.S. and Canada and it touches on not only how Rachel treated me as a person due to the New Church theology but how that translates in moral and social terms. I got replies from many Pastors making excuses and trying to make me out for some villian for voicing my freedom of expression. First of all this is a true story it really happened and I not only came to you and have tried to make peace and amends with both Rachel and her family but I came with love to people in the New Church. I was your brother and when I needed you the most you made excuses and turned me away. When people are grieving they need support and I came to Rachel and the Myatt family at a time when I was down and out and at my lowest because I thought I would be loved there. For whatever reasons they couldnt see all the love I had in my heart for them and Rachel couldnt fathom that a guy could love her so much and want her with all his heart. I wanted her with all my heart because I had given my heart to God. Most of the other women who have treated me in a manner such as Rachel you know what we have all made peace and we are friends again. I never hold grudges but in Rachel's case I have been drawn to speak out against not only her but the Church of the New Jerusalem. I can pull up countless emails from New Church Pastors and Representatives saying that the kind of arrogance and prideful behavior that Rachel displayed has happened before. So let me ask you this New Church Clergy and Laity? If this is not an isolated incident and people are turned away because of your selfish and close minded attitide then maybe God is trying to tell you something. I am being used as an instrutment to show you the error of your ways. I am not claiming to be a prophet or anything that I am not. I am just a man who is going to show others about the fallacies and the cruel way I was treated and how I was given the runaround by people such as Pastor Glenn, Cooper, and others. I want Rachel and the Myatt family to know it was not alright what Rachel did and how she treated me and that what she said was damaging and life changing and if you have to hide and it has affected your livelihood then it is your own fault. You coddle Rachel and the fact is she needs to spend more time around adults to appreciate adult relationships and others outside of her family and you know this to be true. I was her friend she was my best friend, my confidant, and all the love I had for her was true and it was and still is of God. The past year has brought me great joy especially two days ago when I made peace with the only other woman I could say I loved as much as Rachel but this person after 15 yrs had the courage to come to me and say I am sorry and I did love you, and you meant a lot to me. She just at the time didnt know how to deal with someone with a love so true and strong. We were teens and early 20s. I expected Rachel to be more mature being mid 20s and already with a child and to have more responsibility and to tell the truth. The truth is I always gave Rachel and out. A lot of this stems not only from the fact that she made fun of me in my grief and cause me and my family considerable pain but it also comes from the fact that she did not have the courage to look me in the eyes and say that she did not want to be with me. I asked her and I would have been fine with it but instead like a coward she waited two days and did it like a text because she didnt want to be woman enough to look someone in the eyes and say No! I was bigger and better in that regards in that I was prepared for her to say No and I would have accepted it. What I cannot accept is not only did she build up false hope for a relationship, be intimate with me, and not be truthful with me but she slandered me and my family. I know way more about mentally ill people than she will ever know and I have never been on any medication nor have I been diagnosed with anything. I was simply trying to deal with grief and to love others at my time of mourning and she couldn't see that instead there was something wrong with me. I'd love to see her reaction when Jane Myatt her mother dies and then come laugh in her face because basically that is what she did to me. She tell me she loves me then kicks me in the head and laughs in my face. No one deserves that. So when you are judging me for writing this blog and for putting out my newsletter just remember not only did I come to Rachel and her family with love to try to resolve this but I came publically and privately to many New Church Clergy to try to make peace with you and get you to understand what I was feeling but you didnt truly listen. On your NewChurch.org page there is a page this week about this kind of behavior http://www.newchurch.org/connection/issues/living-authentically/see-no-evil.html Not only have I done and said things to hurt Rachel on this blog but I am truly sorry and remorseful but I dont regret it because some of them need to be said. During the course of our relationship all Rachel did was find flaws with me and all I did was accept her flaws and love her for what was inside. What kind of woman would want a man who doesnt love her whole soul and whole hearted. I loved Rachel from her crooked smile to ever strand of hair and I still do. I consider her my sister in Christ and my best friend and I have never give up on her. Make no mistake this blog and this worldwide campaign isnt to get revenge on Rachel it is to let her know that with God with strength from His Power and guidance we can do anything we put our mind too. What I want, what I pray for? Not only for Rachel and the Myatt family to reconcile and get in touch with me but for New Church Pastors and Clergy to pray with me and for me so we can be friends and coexist in Christ beautiful world. I will end this simply with I love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt with all my heart and being and Rachel if you can't see that you are hurting someone everyday you pretend like I am not there. If you want to use the tree in the forest or "Outta Sight, Out of Mind" excuse it is just not true I am alive, I am well, I love you and I would go to the ends of the earth and tell all about myself just to let you know that and that is exactly what I am doing.
God Bless ALL
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