Dear Readers, I am just going to say a couple words tonight and say a prayer. First of all I want to say I Love You Rachel Myatt and it has been almost 2 years and all the pain and hurt I still love you. Why cant you realize what God put us on this earth to do and that is to love. Everyday I have felt like a piece of me is dead because you insist that what you did , did not affect me or others or change my life it did and though it could have eaten me up to the point of hating you I dont. I dedicate this song "Rearviewmirror" by Pearl Jam to you. This song symbolizes that I have faith in God to make this right and how with Him we can do anything. I know through Him we can talk to each other and love each other again and I want to put all the negativity behind us. I want you to know you are loved by me and I will forgive you no matter what. You are my best friend please come back. I also want anyone who cares to listen to this sermon by Pastor Glenn Frazier in Austin about Humility and Shame. I never gave up on your Rachel Myatt and I am sorry if you and your family can't understand that. I was put down and hurt so much as a child and as a young adult I am so strong now because of God even in my darkest hours. It is because of God's love and strength. What Pastor Frazier said is representative of the love I have. We have hurt each other and I believe that no matter what we both can turn this around and all the pain can end. I put my faith in God and he alone. http://www.newchurchaudio.org/event/21211/popup.html I understand this all to well. I want to end this blog with a simple prayer.
- Our Heavenly Father, Please give me the humility, love, and kindness to continue to love Rachel. Please let her know I love her and Jonathan with all my heart. I know that the New Church thinks that I am against them but I have been trying to show them all along that I love them, all those who have hurt me or transgressed against me I forgive them. I love Rachel and Jonathan so much and each night she and others cant see the tears I still cry. I ask for your help tonight. I lay down my heart, my soul, and my spirit and I put it all in your hands. I love them and I ask for you to give me the guidance, the patience, and the serenity to deal with this situation with Rachel. I do not seek to hurt the New Church with my campaign but I know you love me Oh Lord and please show me the most effective way to show them how much I love Rachel and how I love people of all religions, creeds, colors, and backgrounds and am only reaching out for the New Church to do the same. Rachel if you see this prayer then know God is my everything and I would humiliate myself, I would walk the world alone, naked, and poor, to have your friendship and love back. That is how much I love you. God bless all
Amen
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