Dear Rachel and Readers,
Today this blog is dedicated to My Mom who two days from today left this world on August 8th 2010, Rachel Myatt, and her immediate family the Myatts. The last time I got to talk to my mother while she was conscious was August 6th 2010 the last thing we talked about was loving Rachel and she blessed Rachel, Jonathan, and her family and she even gave me permission to go see them as I didn't want to leave until she died or they knew she was going to get better. It was her way of telling me she was going to die. Live your life, love, and be happy Byron. I did just that. I took one day off of work to grieve and went right back. I waited 3 weeks to go see Rachel so that I was at least 50% of what I could be but I gave Rachel all that I could at the time and when I needed love and encouragement she tore me down, insulted me, and abandoned me. I don't think Howard and Jane raised her to be like that and if either of them had problems with us being together then you truly didnt want to take the time to know me. Just know this. For the rest of my life your daughter Rachel, you Howard and Jane, and your family have left a hole in my heart and damage that can only be undone by peace between us. If you are the people you say you are in faith and in charity then be just that and make peace with me. I don't do this blog or this campaign to hurt people. I do it because I love Rachel and I wanted her to see that a man loves her so much that he would bare his soul and tell his story worldwide and that we are responsible for our actions. I have said things on here that could cost me a job someday but if it starts the healing process between Rachel and I and we make peace I will gladly take that chance because the material means nothing to me over love. I love you Rachel Myatt and if you want to do something beautiful then pick up the phone, write me a letter, or email me and lets end this. I will fly to Dawson Creek, Bryn Athyn, or anywhere and sit in a room full of anyone I have offended with my words, I will ask forgiveness, and also forgive my arms are wide open full of love yet Rachel you and the New Church ignore that love. It is a reflection on not just your character Rachel but the Church of the New Jerusalem in a whole. I used "One More Day" by Diamond Rio as a tribute to my mother and to you Rachel. I cant see my mother again in this mortal life Rachel but I can see and make peace with you. You are breaking my heart in ways you can never know. Do you know how much I truly love you. It has been 2yrs come Sept 9th and I still havent given up on you. I am dating and making friends but it is you I love and God would not let me be in this place if I didnt truly love you. I am not infatuated, obsessed, or need you in my life. I want you in my life because you were and are my best friend. I would and have tried to move mountains for you and even when I fall short and say things I may regret later fact is I love you and Jonathan with all my heart. Today I ask in Christ name that you read this or someone in your family reads this and we make peace. I love you Rachel Myatt I am ready for this to end.
God Bless ALL
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