All I Ever Wanted Was To Love You Rachel Myatt and Be Loved By You

Dear Rachel, I put the song "Want Everything" in its rock form in the last blog but I wanted to put this acoustic version out there for you.  I also put the Descendents "Pep Talk" because after all the abuse and hurt I had been through in my life I loved you and Jonathan. You abused me, treated me bad, and most of all laughed in my face when I truly needed love and support.  It is ok you are the one hiding, you are the one who cant show your face. I have already proven how beautiful and how strong I am. You and Jonathan were all I ever wanted I loved you with all my heart.  How you treated me and the things you said changed my life forever.  You have done harm to my love and you have severely and deeply changed my view of women.  I have never stopped loving you or praying about and for you and Jonathan and regardless of how much I lash out on here I do love you.  I guess you never looked into the severity or how deep the things you said and did at the time affected me but they were devastating and almost killed me, literally.  I believed in you and what little faith I still have in you as a person I am asking you and your family to see tonight.  In two days August 8th it will be 2yrs since my mother passed away.  She would have never wanted me to hate you, seek revenge, or hurt you and like my mother she never gave up on those who hurt her and who caused her pain.  I am my mothers son so if I have to continue writing this blog and going worldwide telling about how much I love you I will until you come back into my heart.  I love you Rachel Myatt, I love Jonathan.  I only want peace with you not all this confusion, hurt, and pain.  God Bless ALL