I Truly Did Love You Rachel Myatt.

Dear Rachel, I truly did love you so I dedicate this song "Some Flowers Bloom Dead" by the Wallflowers the brainchild of Jakob Dylan, Bob Dylan's son and a someone who stands alone in his excellent song writing.    If you had of been patient and kind with me Rachel as I was with you, you would have known a love beyond compare.  Instead you trashed me, put me down, and you changed my life forever.  All you people in the Church of the New Jerusalem who chastized me for this blog and put me down never even tried to know the whole story.  You never knew how I loved Rachel enough to put up with her insults and her put downs and loved her unconditonally and now that I am fighting back and putting it out all out in the open you want to scream sinner and repent.  Im sorry I forgave Rachel a long time ago and I have reached out to her to end this.  It is up to her to have the courage to see that her actions did affect someone else and what she did is something that is going to have a lasting effect on lots of people when it is all said of done.  When you have been beat down and browbeat like I have you no longer fear anything so I am no longer holding back.  In the past couple of days I wrote some fierce blogs and I meant every word of it.  I  am sorry Rachel Myatt, The Myatt and Friesen families, and The Church of the New Jerusalem you cannot see the love in my heart and never did.  I will not apologize for my strong use of words,(I pray everyday that I can stop with the use of strong language to get my point across but I use it not for lack of intelligence but for emphasis on how cruel and how serious I am about how Rachel has been)  my campaign, nor exposing your hypocrisies to other people because all you do is point the finger at other religions to make yourself seem relevent and that is the way of someone who is insecure and feeling small and inadequate.  That is how Rachel always was. She had to make fun of others to facilitate for her low self esteem and her inadequacies in life.  As much as it pains me to hurt someone I truly love Rachel Myatt I am going to say what needs to be said and do what needs to be done and if that hurts you I apologize but you knew from the get go I was a strong willed man who kept having things thrown at me.  Instead of be there for me you tossed me aside and you have no integrity, patience, nor do you know what its like to lose a parent.  I pray you can be half as strong as I had to be when I lost my mother and I also wish your mother lives to be 80, 90, maybe 100 yrs old.  My mother died at 59 with no grandchildren but a lot of love and she had nothing but love around her and she praised Rachel and her family and only wanted me to love and be happy with them.   If you are sitting back judging me while reading this blog then maybe you need to look in the mirror.  I loved unconditionally and I was treated like crap and so now I am going to spread that love back across the world in the form of the truth and you cant stop that Rachel. You see there is one thing I have that you dont have that is I love myself even in my darkest hours I never give up on me and the people I love. You abandon people left and right and you dont even love yourself. When someone doesnt believe the way you do they are instantly evil or no good. What bigotry and close mindedness.  You shame your family, You shame your Religion, and most of all Rachel shame on you for doubting my love of you or telling me I didnt love God when all I did was put my faith in Him when loving you. I am sorry you are such a miserable person and you play with other peoples love.    God Bless ALL