Mark 10:27
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”
- Dear Readers,
I do not care what the Church of New Jerusalem thinks of me and my campaign. I care what God thinks and the love He has given to me. See I have learned one thing in being patient. If you wait long enough and put your faith in God and not man everything works itself out. In the past 2 yrs the two people who hurt me the most besides Rachel have come back to my good graces because they realized that my love for them was true. Even someone who said they hated me and never wanted to see me again because I never gave up on her and I told her ex husband to take her back because she cheated on me with him, we made peace and are friends. I am not doing what I am doing as a form of hate, vengence, or revenge towards Rachel Myatt, The Myatt and Friesen Familes, or the Church of the New Jerusalem. I am doing what I am doing because I love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt and I am going to set a fire to that love so great in a couple of weeks that Rachel will not be able to hide from it. When you truly have God in your life you do not have to hide from thing when you have done wrong. You just ask the Lord's forgiveness, you come to those you have wronged or been wronged by and you stand up to them. Some people are not confrontational but it is because they are full of fear. I love the people who can dish out things but they cant take it. Rachel got shamed because I made a spectacle of her but in the process I have divulged deep and personal things about myself all over the internet. You know why? I am not afraid, I have nothing to hide, and I put God first over anyone else. I am not her to be some selfish sycophant obsessed with my own desires and pleasures. The saddest thing about this situation with Rachel and I is that she was willing to trade love and true friendship for lies and deception. I believed in her and she decieved me when I told her to be honest with me. If she had of told me how she felt then we would be on speaking terms, we would be amicable but she planned to lie to me, abandon me, and never talk to me again after saying she loved me and wanted to be with me. Do you know the emotional damage that did to me especially at a time when my morale and my heart was already broken from my mom dying. She told me she would be there for me and support me and she tore me down and abused me. I have been hurt and had my heart broken before but no one ever lied to me and treated me with such disrespect or bigotry as Rachel did. There is an underlying reason I am doing this and first it is to let Rachel know that I am going on with life and I am determined to let everyone I can know how people in the New Church value other Christians. Two to let the New Church know that the reason why they will never catch on with a lot of people is because they are narrow minded when they claim to accept others, they are pushy instead of patient, and they spend so much time on Swedenborg's writings and less time examining and only using certain parts of the Bible. To me the Bible is sacred you can have all the supplemental readings for your faith you want but if you dont apply what is in the Bible and you make up your own cannon to go against things that are in the Bible it is false and not of God. I dont care if you think I am disrespecting your faith because you believe Swedenborg to be divine I am sorry but I feel that he was not of Divine Providence he just wanted to not follow the rules of the Old Church so he made up things so he could sin and justify his sinning and the Pastors and Clergy in the New Church have shown me that in their replies about free will. I understand God gave us free will but he alone gave us commandments and guidelines to follow not someone that was regarded by many as going crazy in his later age. I don't claim to be a scholar nor have a theology degree but because of the way the Church of the Jerusalem treated me I am going to start a Theology degree next summer and write a book on the fallacies of The Church of the New Jerusalem. You say that I am not loving when all I did was love you people. You talk about excepting people but you exclude people from your little club by arrogance, bigotry, and the inability to listen to others love of God. Rachel showed me a side of Christanity I have never see a selfish self serving side. I dated a Catholic girl for 2 years and not once did she hesitate to pray with me even thought we prayed different we respected our need to communicate with God and she was getting her Masters in Catholic theology she never held that over my head or treated me like I was less than a person. Rachel a high school graduate, foster mom, unwed mother with no secondary education judged me and I never acted higher, loftier, or like I was better than her. I accepted her for all that she was. I am really asking the Clergy to look and listen to what I am saying and you need to evaluate Pastor Coleman Glenns role as a Pastor as I will be dissecting his comments to the public as a basis for my campaign. Fact is you all could have come to me in peace and I said I would have settled this between us in private if Rachel had the courage to do so but she lacks the insight, the courage, and the humility to do that. I have determination, I have drive, I know what it is like to constantly be doubted and in the end become victorious because I put God first. Its not a gloating victory but it is an intellectual victory of the mind when you know you put God first instead of your own selfish desires and wants. You say you are of Good and Truth but there was someone holding their hand out to you for love and to love back at a time when their whole world was falling apart. I never made excuses for loving Rachel I just kept living even though my mother was gone I gave everyone at the time all I could I worked, I loved, I lived and to have someone tell me I didnt love God, to lie about loving me and wanting to be a relationship with me, and to use their faith to put down mine. There is no way it is going to go unnoticed. So in the end I am a fighter and Rachel will know because of her selfishness and her deception and only caring about herself this is decending in the Church of the New Jerusalem. She has the means to come to me and end all this but she wont because she is too full of pride. She talked bad and evil about me and then I told the truth where everyone could see it and now she is ashamed and doesnt want to be seen. She tried to sweep me under the rug and I came out in the open exposing her lies and telling everything because I wanted her to know that evil on the scale that she participate in does not go unnoticed. She could be a hero and show great humility, kindness, and grace by making peace with me but she wont because she is so selfish. I have nothing but love for her but our friendship, our love, and our closeness was all a joke to her, nothing but smoke and mirrors. Rachel Myatt you meant something to me and I was willing to give you and Jonathan all of me despite all odds. I still would if you were humble enough to make peace with me. The video above is from a movie about to come out called "Here Comes The Boom" I am inspired by movies like this because they are about determination. Never give up is how I live my life and I have learned this is true because all the people I love are coming back to me now. Rachel you are the last person that I am waiting for your return. You are the best friend who I dont want to live without and you are too blind to see that. So if I have to campaign and make a viral fool out of myself to show you I love you in the next coming months again I will. Once again for Christmas the only thing I ask is that people pray for me and that Rachel will make peace with me. That is how much I love you Rachel Myatt , no material things will ever mean as much as you and Jonathan do to me. I just wish you knew that.
God Bless ALL
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