I Am Not Afraid: Why I have not distributed a lot of Newsletters.

Dear Readers, It has come to my attention that many people read this and think I am bluffing about the newsletters or the campaign.  They couldnt be farther from the truth.  Just because I haven't sent the ones out to the New Church does not mean I am not out there spreading the word.  I also want to point out that I really do love Rachel and I am waiting for her to end the silence and understand that I truly care about her and none of this is to hurt her. It is to show a doubting person that if you truly love someone that you will do whatever is necessary to show them that.  This is different from obsession, infatuation, or just being someone who harrasses others.  I do love Rachel Myatt with all my heart and the whole time I have written this blog it has supposed to be a tribute to that love.  It has become so much more.  By September 9th the day Rachel abandoned me there will be ample proof of my newsletter all over the place. I feel that God put me in a place to wait for Rachel to respond in the next week and a half before I put anymore out there and I feel someone will find it in their heart from the New Church to see the love I have for Rachel and things might be different.  Rachel Myatt I love you for all you are but most of all I love you because you are my sister in Christ.  I love God so therefore I love you and I put Him first in all of this.  This also is an attempt to let other Christians and people in the New Church to reflect that we are all trying to achieve a similar goal and that is to help guide as many people to Christ as possible.  I used the song "The Trees" by Rush which can be interpreted in many ways but the way I am using it here is that why would Children of God constantly bicker and worry about who is right and who is wrong when there are so many that are hurting and need to find their way to Him.  When we stand united even in our differences we are truly living God's Word.  I have very few earthly possessions left besides my car and clothing.  I left the majority of what is valuable to my friends and to Rachel and Jonathan in my will.  I am ready to give my heart to God fully now and I am not afraid.  New Church are you ready to make peace and love me like I love you? It is your free will. Tomorrow I will be attending one of the longest running U.S. Touring Festival that will be about 18 to 20,000 people in my area and I will be distributing my story and telling about the New Church to people. See if you can guess who the band is here is a hint LP lets just say they are huge. I can reach a lot of people.