Loving Rachel and The Myatt Family Radically : Against All Odds

Dear Rachel, Myatt and Friesen Families, Church and the New Jerusalem and my dear Readers,

 

I wanted to start this blog off by saying no matter how much they ignore me and try to act like I dont exist, I love Rachel and her family.  I dedicate this song to them today and I will give you insight on my love for them.  I used the song Virtuality by Canada's best band (besides Metric and D.O.A. and Black Mountain lol) Rush off their album Test for Echo.  This song is about the power of the internet, about finding love across the web and it is also about the power that the internet gives us to start things.  A lot of the people in the New Church are just blowing me off and think I am full of hot air but quietly I have sparked discussion and I have a lot of people interested in both New Church theology and why Rachel and her family would act such a way especially to someone who loved them so much and was grieving at the time.  To those of you who think I hate the New Church and am out to discredit them fine.  You haven't really read my blog or looked into what I am doing. I am pointing out hypocrisy when I criticize based on the fact that you treat others a certain way and you claim to live one way.  I was inspired to write this blog after watching this sermon by Chuck Blair because he is telling the real deal about accepting other and living how Jesus wants us too.  I have long been a fan of his delivery and if I was in his city probably join his Church and worship with the people there this can be found on NewChurch.org http://www.newchurch.org/activities/newchurchlive/archives/i-am-christian-unless/index.html  It is ok to differ with people and agree to not agree but we need to start loving people at face value no matter what their differences with us.  I want to say this to Rachel and her family today.  I love all of you with all my heart and I am going to go to extremes and do radical legal things to continue to show that love.  It is not some obsession with Rachel, it is not because I am some headcase it is because I truly love Rachel and any of my friends will tell you that if we had a fight and we didnt talk for awhile I would do extreme things to let them know I loved them and I always made peace with them.  I have even sacrificed my heart and swallowed all my pride so someone else could be happy.  When I was a younger man in high school I had loved this girl named Callie since 6th grade and we were in the 10th grade at the time.  I really wanted to ask her to homecoming but she blew me off for a football player named Kevin who was off and on dating my childhood friend Margo but they were broke up at the time (they are now married and still friends of mine)  So instead of thinking of my own happiness I went to Kevin and told him that Callie would really like to go to the dance with him and he ended up taken her.  My heart was broken,  I didnt get to go to the dance with anyone, but it taught me a valuable lesson.  I learned that I could put others first and be humble, kind, and selfless.  I love Rachel and Jonathan with all my heart and at the time I came in my life I wasnt thinking about how broken I was,  I was thinking about how much Rachel supposedly loved me, how I wanted to keep my promise to her, and how I wanted to keep my promise to my mom to love Rachel and just go be with her.  I could have moped and been wishy washy but I gave everyone all I had at the time and no one was really there for me.  I thought Rachel was there for me but apparently not.  I had never been treated so cruely and disrespectfully in my life so yes I wanted to die.  Did that make me mentally ill? No it mean that at my time of need I had no support,  I had people putting me down, and I felt like I should just lay down and give up.  I didnt though and two years later here I am still loving and reaching out to Rachel and her family.  I hope that you take the time to listen to the sermon that I have posted above and to analyze the words to the Rush song.  I love Rachel and her family and I want you all to know I love you, Jonathan, Jane, Howard, Sarah, Amanda, Jessica, Clayton, Rebecca and everyone in your fold.  I am not saying or doing this to hurt you I am doing this because you are not seeing the path God has put me on.  Listen to the part Rev Blair is talking about in his sermon about God working in all of us.  My friend and family they understand what I am doing with Rachel and maybe the people in the New Church dont but it is a radical love practiced by Jesus Christ and like He died for all of us, I would die for my beliefs and my love for him.  If you are mad at me I am sorry, if you want to sue me go ahead I already left Rachel and Jonathan about $50,000 worth of stuff in my will.  That is how much I love Rachel.  I am sorry that other men didnt love her completely and as fully as I did, I am sorry that because I was different someone made her feel ashamed of me or told her things that would make her think she should not be with me.  I loved you Rachel unconditionally, unabashedly, and with all my heart you and Jonathan.  If you cant find it in your heart to forgive me, reconcile with me, and be in my heart again I will forever be sad.  I love you sister and each day that goes by with you ignoring me there is a piece of me that is empty.  I pray that soon you will lay down the wall between us and I will hear your voice. Everyday I still look at my pictures of you and Jonathan and everyday I still love you two just as much. What would Jesus do and say if He were here today? He would probably reconcile and believe in love like I do because He is the reason I still believe in you Rachel Myatt. I am sorry if I have hurt you Sister in anyway and I ask your forgiveness and reconcilation. Rachel you are my best friend.  All the things we shared together all the secrets all this pain and public disclosure of myself to the world I did this because I love you and Jonathan not to hurt you and I truly on this day apologize to you.  I ask for God's for giveness,  I forgive myself, and I reach out to you to make peace with me. I miss your voice, your smile, and I miss having you in my life.  I will never stop loving you and I ask God today for the best way for me to continue this blog and my campaign without being hurtful.

2 Corinthians 5:17-19

¹⁷ Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:^[a] The old has gone, the new is here! ¹⁸ All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: ¹⁹ that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. God Bless ALL