Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will

Monday, February 6, 2012

What I Think of My Brothers and Sisters in The Church of the New Jerusalem

Dear Rachel and Readers,

Jesus said to love even those who persecute you.


Matthew 5:44
But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,

Matthew 5:11
“Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

I will just say this.  I have no animosity or hate for my brothers or sisters in the New Church.  All I ever wanted to do was learn with Rachel and be one with her. She chose to constantly judge me and Pastor Glenn's attitude was what helped in both me writing this blog and continuing it.  It is a message to both of them about how kindness and understanding goes a long way. Compassion and caring always wins over selfishness, piousness, and self assuredness.  I would never talk to Rachel or Pastor Glenn the way they did to me when I was grieving and even though I dont know Pastor Glenn personally I have always told him that I have the utmost respect for him and his faith it is he and Rachel who turned me away when I needed love, compassion, and understanding.  So I want to share with you something very personal that I shared with the Church of the New Jerusalem Dawson Creek.  I prayed about it and I wanted to give Rachel a birthday present back in January without her sending it back so I did but it was so much more than that and hopefully Pastor Glenn didnt throw it away because it was donation in honor of Rachel and the Ladies of the New Church of Dawson Creek.  For all those who read this and think I hate Rachel and want to seek revenge on the New Church and be evil to them it is the exact opposite.  I love them.  If Rachel wants to keep ignoring me and the true love I have for her then it is on her.  I have a heart full of love and I realized that it is my free will to hate her and seek revenge but it is God's will for me to keep loving her and to press on with this blog and other things.  I dont want to ramble on but I will just leave you with the letter I sent along with the donation and maybe you can form your opinion of how much loving others means to me. The Letter is as follows




Dear Dawson Creek New Church Ladies Group,
c/o Jane Myatt, Rachel Myatt, Bev Bourbeau

I wanted to take the time to make a donation to the fundraising efforts of  your group.  It is a blessing to Rachel Myatt for her 26th birthday as for a time in my life she was one my best and closest friends.   I always believed that one of the best gifts we could give is to be charitable to a cause that someone we love believes in.  I always believed in Rachel and her love for God and I hope my humble and small contribution to your Ladies Group will do some good.  I wanted to tell you all that even though I do not know you all I was blessed with meeting three wonderful women named Rachel Myatt, Jane Myatt, and Amanda Myatt.  Rachel is a very special and beautiful person and I hope the Lord God Jesus Christ continues to use her as an instrument of His will.  May you all find many blessings in life and may God be with your families and loved ones this day. I wanted to give of my heart to one of the people who means the most to me in this world. Most of all I wanted to give of myself like God commands even to strangers.  Rachel was my true friend.  God Bless All.




Romans 13:8
[ Love Fulfills the Law ] Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for whoever loves others has fulfilled the law.



With Love to My Sisters In Christ,
Byron


I have nothing but love in my heart for those who turned their back on me and hurt me.  Anyone can make fun of me on this blog, put me down, say I am obsessed, or its borderline crazy or whatever that is for someone who is not aware of the life I lead or how much I give of  myself to others around me.  I put faith in Rachel through Christ and I still do that.   So hopefully if I start giving people especially the Church of the New Jerusalem a deeper window into my heart maybe Rachel will understand how much she is loved and how everyday that passes we dont make peace and we arent friends and loving each other she is killing my heart and good will.

Rachel stop for a moment and think of all the cruel things I could have did. I could have photoshopped pictures of you and been cruel. I have your videos that you sent me yourself on my computer but not once did I use them against you.  I love you and Jonathan this has never been about making this a nightmare for you or hurting you. It is truly an act of love and if you cant see that for what it is then you truly are lost to me.


God Bless All

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