Dear Rachel, Pastor Coleman Glenn, The New Church of Canada, The Church of the New Jerusalem,
If you have taken the time to watch the video above and it doesnt bring tears to your eyes then you do not know the kind of forgiveness and love that I have been speaking about in my blogs. Rachel caused me the greatest hurt I have ever had in my life and for the better part of a year and a half I have tried to make peace with her. I love her and her son more than anyone else I have ever loved and she will never know how much. I spend countless nights praying that she will understand that and never have given up hope. When other people say I should let it go and walk away then they don't understand that when Christ puts a love in your heart this deep and powerful and this life changing you cannot just walk away from it. I read Pastor Glenn's essay the other day and in it he talks about people having revelations for their own selfish reasons. I do not have this love in my heart for selfish reasons Pastor Glenn and that is what I have tried to let you know. If I truly wanted revenge, retaliation, and to hurt Rachel I could have and could still do it quick and swiftly. Look at all the hate and hurt in the world and here I present something so beautiful. It is called Unconditional Love and True Forgiveness. That is the greatest gift we could have. Rachel and I spent all this time not talking to each other and because of her actions in one swift moment all the love, the friendship, and beauty of what we accomplished was lost. Why? Not because I was selfish I gave her my all. She made assumptions, put me down, said hurtful things and all I ever did was love her and believe in her. In man's worldview and thinking I should have done something to get revenge. If you honestly look at "The Letters To Rachel Campaign" It was never about hurting Rachel, sending out letters to belittle her, or defame her or her family. It was meant to show her that I am a man that loves her and Jonathan with all my heart and I would never leave or give up on either one of them. It was meant to show her what lengths I would go through to let her know that I love her. She constantly doubted my love, my abilities given to me by the Lord, and my faith. I have shown people that my faith is what defines me not what others say. The greatest example of my love is when two of my Atheist friends wrote Pastor Coleman Glenn. I have no idea what the wrote him but I know this they probably wrote about how much I love people and even those who treat me cruel I always try to make peace with. Growing up as a little boy in Texas was hard people here are very cruel I remember times when white people were cruel to me and called me Nigger for no reason at all because I was black. Though it was very hurtful I just did the best I could to be a person. I never define myself as black or any color I have always strived to be a person. I don't believe in any race except the human race. I just happened to be pigmentally blessed. I showed in loving Rachel that there was no countries borders, no color of skin, and none of my preconcieved notions as I had vowed to never enter into a relationship with a woman with children again. In the end I fell in love with both Rachel and Jonathan and she needs to know how much I love her. I want to dedicate a quick video to Rachel by one of my favorite bands called "Here's To The Meantime" by Grace Potter & the Nocturnals. I want you to listen to the words and it is about all the time you lose by not believing in yourself, holding grudges, and sitting around moping. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVd5Lwe5KPE I want the Church of the New Jerusalem that I had nothing but intentions of worshipping and being in unison with Rachel. I wanted her and Pastor Glenn to see at what a prime example of what love could of done when I needed them both to listen and be there. I was someone who had lost a parent and instead of Rachel keeping her promises and being there for me she abandoned me, cursed me, and treated me awful. They had a chance to witness their case for the Writings, Swedenborg, and the supposed love that espouses from the New Church teachings. Instead I was constantly told how I was wrong or that Rachel was right and I was wrong because of free will. What about my free will? What about choosing love over revenge, what about being kind instead of hateful, what about true forgiveness? These were all questions I tried to get the good Pastor Glenn to ponder. So at first it was all one sided. I wont go into all that because that is not the purpose of this blog. My point being is that I love you Rachel Myatt and I want peace with you and your family. I want to talk to you again. I want to laugh with you again. I want to have you in my life again. You and Jonathan mean something to me.. I want all my readers and Rachel and her familly to check back here on Valentines Day on February 14 and I will leave a detailed blog about how I am writing Rachel's Name Across the Sky! It will be that day when she truly knows how much she means to me. She will know my love transcends space and time and that what I profess and hold true is real and timeless. Rachel Myatt you are my best friend and I want you back in my life. I want to say a little prayer and tell you how much I love you today.
Our Father in The Heavens,
Father, Lord, God Jesus Christ on this day please let Your love flow endlessly to Rachel Myatt and the Myatt and Friesen families. Please let the Church of the New Jerusalem know that I love them all as my brothers and sisters in your name and that what I am doing is out of love, not out of hate, to hurt, but because You love me and You love Rachel and my promise was a covenant I made with You Oh Lord to never be broken to You or Rachel. I ask that Rachel find it in her heart soon to forgive and be forgiven through Your Guidance, Counsel, and Mercy. I ask that You help me to seek the way of good in letting Rachel know that I love her, In interacting and voicing my opinion to the New Church, and in loving my fellow brothers and sisters. I ask that you take all the feelings of hurt, despair, and betrayal that I feel toward Rachel and turn them into more love. I believe in Your Word Lord. I believe that with Your Hand anything is possible. I believe in the Love You gave me for Rachel, for her family, and all my brothers and sisters of the earth. I ask you hear my humble prayer as Father I know we are so small but our lives are important to You who loves each and everyone of us. I ask that You help anyone today that is hurting and needs your love, kindness, and mercy to recieve it. Blessed be You Word and all the good it brings.
Amen
Rachel I dont want to miss out on having you in my life. Think back to all the beauty of our friendship. Read your letters and emails that I sent you just think of all the wondeful things we gave to each other both spiritual, mental, and physical. My I love you's were always for real and I would never leave you and Jonathan or betray your heart for anyone else. Find it in your heart to know you deserve to be loved this much and that I do care for you. I will continue to go to the ends of the earth against any obstacle why? Because I believe in you Rachel Myatt. I love you and it is a love that is a part of me that I will not forsake. I miss you. You are my best friend.
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