This song is by Angelfish the band Shirley Manson was in before she was asked to join Garbage saw them in 1994 opening from the band live and the next year I got to meet a young Shirley Manson as they started their Garbage North American tour in Dallas. This Scottish lady impressed me more than anything with this song because it was written from the perspective of a man getting his heart broken. People tend to only focus on the women and make men the villians and us the liars, the cheaters, and the ones who do all the wrong . Rachel lied to me, she played with my want and need to be a husband and father, she introduced me to her family and her child and let me want to love them all then abandoned me, then most of all she talked ill of my mother and of me and tried to pretend that I never existed. She deserves all that is going to be said about her and revealed and you cant fault me because this blog has been a testament of how much I loved her and tried to make peace with her. Its all in her court now.
Dear Readers, Rachel Myatt and Pastor Coleman Glenn,
I am nearing the end of this journey. My heart can no longer take this unrest. I am deeply saddend by the fact that Rachel would ever treat anyone so cruel and unkind and that a Pastor who had been through so much and had people be supportive and loving of him would be unloving, kind, and not understanding of what I had to go through. Rachel it makes me sad that you would sit up on the Pastor's counsel every week and not strive to be someone better. I have made a paper called the Peace River Tsunami that will detail the way you treated me and how Pastor Glenn treated me and reason why people should think before they go to your Church. You will not know where or how they will be sent but one just might be sent to your Church. If you truly wanted to end this both Rachel and Pastor Glenn would sit down and discuss the pros and cons of reconcilation and love over non forgiveness, grudges, and ill will. If I were looking for retribution for the harm Rachel caused I would have done something worst than let everyone know I love her. If she thinks that this doesnt affect her or that she can continue to hide from it then as I slowly fade away and when I pass she will realize the full impact in a couple of weeks. I reached out to you for love and you know the reason I am truly broken Rachel and Coleman? The true reason is not only did Rachel disrespect my mother she had a true friend who was willing to do anything for her unconditionally even if she didnt want to continue our romantic relationship if she had of told me the truth instead of lying then none of this would be happen. I love true, I love honest, and I love with all my heart and even when I have disagreements with those I love I never throw them by the wayside. I will tell you a quick story about someone who was cruel to me once and when I had enough I dismissed them but in time they apologized and are in my good graces.
When I was 29 I met this girl who went by the name Jonny she was 8 years younger than me at 21 but we developed a deep friendship. For awhile we were best friends. We did everything together. She came from a very troubled family and didnt always have money so I would do little things for her. I would take her to get her haircut, buy her clothes, take her to concerts and introduce her to music I loved and she loved and I was always there for her. There were many times in the middle of the morning like 12 am or 2 am she would call me crying or be on messenger and tell me she needed me so I would pull myself together and drive the hour it took to get to her and pic her up. I thought she would see how much I loved her in my kindness but she started doing something very peculiar. She started treating me very bad. She started putting me down, making fun of me, and belittling me. I couldnt understand it and for awhile I put up with it. At one time I had even wanted to date her because we had become so close but instead of date me she would go out with guys and then complain that they just used her for sex and here I was a great guy who took her out and believed in her and listened to her problems but I was taking abuse. One night we were coming back from my favorite bands concert and she started hurling all sorts of insults at me about my character and my demeanor. I didnt know what to do. I dropped her off at home and I never made contact with her again because I was treated so badly. I went to a club one night that she and I both frequented and she came up to me and gave me a hug. I pushed her away and said "Do I know you?" She walked away and was very hurt. I soon got an email telling me that she had moved to a different city and about the job that she had and how much she missed me. Later about a month later I heard from her again and what I got was an apology. It in effect said that she was sorry for treating me the way she did, she told me I was a great guy and that she really did want to date me and was sorry for pushing me away, and that she loved me and I was always good to her. I wanted to tell that story ladies and gentleman to show you that I can be truly cold and non responsive but even though I loved this lady I did not put up with her evil because all I did was treat her kind.
So if Rachel thinks I am not going to infiltrate the world with my story and either Coleman Glenn or the General New Church thinks I am just going to lay down and let this go then they are sadly mistaken. If they truly want to show love and adhere to their doctrine then maybe Rachel will pick up the phone and talk to me if not then I have every right to tell my story. I have every right to show the pictures of she and I because they are my property and I will not hold back anything. I tried to keep this between Rachel and I and then she would rather be stubborn and pretend that I dont exist and then it spilled into the New Church world and now it is going to spread to the world. It is like the analogy of the tree falling in the forest. Does it make a sound? Out of sight out of mind doesnt mean that other person exist Rachel!! Yes it makes a sound just because we are not there to hear it it makes a sound and if Rachel Myatt thinks I am just being an armchair activist and not writing all these letters and sending out all these things then just ask all the Pastors and Revereneds I took the time to write. Ask Pastor Glenn about his personalized messages and letters. I am not kidding. This is not a joke and you have totally messsed with my heart, my love, and my well being and the worst thing of all Rachel is that you tried to pin me as being mentally ill to make up for your own selfish will and your inability to deal with the mess you made. FRACK YOU Rachel, FRACK YOU sorry Fellow Christians and other nice people that is the nicest way I can say it without being vulgar. I gave you true friendship, commitment, unconditional love, and I kept my promises to you. You lied, you slandered me, and you put down my love of God, my love of you, and you deeply scarred my family because not only did we lose my mom. Everyone was worried about losing me. For months I sat around and didnt eat. I could have done drugs, had wild sex, and been an alcoholic but I spent all my time praying, writing you letters Rachel, writing the Church letters, and Writing Pastor Glenn letters along with my friends. I put my faith in God not in men. So if you cant see how much I love you Rachel then you deserve everything I do. If it embarrasses you or makes you feel hurt or damages your reputation I DONT GIVE A FLIP ANYMORE. I tried to be kind, loving, and show you and Jonathan you meant the world to me and you ignored me so its time I set the world on fire and just give it to you. I am a peaceful fighter and as long as I have the printed world I can distribute and share my story and about how the New Church treated me. I am going to start a campaign so big that you wont know what hit you. My last sentence in this blog will be this today. If you read this Rachel contact me and I will let it all go. Make peace with me. If you are in the New Church and you know Rachel then encourage her to make peace with me. The choice is hers but in the end I have been abused, lied to, broken, and led down a path that I feel I need to let this go and that means letting everyone know what kind of snake, liar, and betrayer of friendship Rachel Myatt is. I will only use the truth her own words. You are killing all the good I have left in me for you Rachel Myatt. I challenge you to be loving, forgiving, and unkind because it will serve you better than what revenge, evil, and retaliation leads to!!!!!!
I Was Never Your Freaking Game, Not there to pass the time to make you feel good, I was your friend who loved you dearly and you pissed on that. So why should I care about what happens to you? Because unlike you I am not selfish and care about how my actions affect other people. So you will just have to suck it up and take is since you cant seem to pick up the phone and make peace with me you would rather me declare what you have done everywhere. Cool no sweat off my back and for all you people who say you love God and you follow Swedenborg exclusively instead of Jesus Christ here is a little bit of love on your free will parade. Yes God does give us that so I can choose to be evil and be a douche like Rachel Myatt or I can choose to love and do what is right one thing is for sure God always has a plan and Rachel chose where this one would go. I reached out for peace with her and so all that I have to say and do was because of her being non responsive so dont blame me she did it to herself. I tried to do the right thing. I was honest. She wasn't you turned your back on a true friend who loved you in the Lord so its all on your watch now little girl. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=On32tFn46X8
For all the lies, hate, and hurt and crap you inflicted on me screw you. You never deserved anyone as true as me. You never desevered a friend as honest, sincere, and loving as me, and you never deserved my love. You are a hateful, spiteful, racist, religious bigot and I am sorry I ever tried to make peace with you. All the New Church people who made excuses for me wanting peace over evil screw you all too you hypocrites. I had nothing but love for you all. You reap what you sow!!!!!
This is for you Rachel and the way you use people then run. I met this Canadian woman who is one of my heroines back years ago on tour with The Donnas and Bratmobile when she was in Tuuli she wrote one of my favorite songs and this is my kiss off to caring about you or your feelings. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHF7ZDt5EII
and the Tuuli version http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVJE4pa1NTQ&feature=related
Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Good Day
GOD BLESS ALL
GOD BLESS ALL
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