This song is called "Side" by the band Travis. I want you to take a listen to and read the lyrics. I put this song up for Pastor Glenn and any of the other New Church Pastors or members who read this. I also put it up so Rachel understands the deep philosophical understanding I have about the nature of life and how I accepted her faith but she couldn't accept mine. I only want peace with Rachel and the New Church and I will continue to be patient but virulent in my achieving that. I will face all obstacles, stones thrown, and road blocks because I really do Love Rachel Myatt.
Dear Readers I will start this blog today with a Scripture.
2 Corinthians 5:17-19
17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.
Everyday I am suprized at how many people read this but the one person who should be reading it may or may not be doing it. I just put it in God's hands. I am ready for this blog and campaign to end but it is still not time. I know that I am getting through to Rachel's good heart and she is realizing how much I love her. I believe in God and the love I saw in her when she was in my heart. She is still in my heart and has never left and I want her to know that not a day goes by I dont tell God how much I love her and Jonathan. I dont know what caused you to treat me the way you did and I don't know why you were cruel and unkind to someone who loves you so much only time will reveal all this. I do know I never give up on the people I truly love.
Rachel think about all the people you hurt with this, first me, then the Pastor, your family, your congregation. Think of how picking up the phone and making peace with me will not only show your true heart but it will put an end to the hurt between us. I know deep in my heart you love me and you have set back from months and even in my angriest blog you have seen how much I love you. It has never been about being angry my dear it has been about how much I love you and how you are ripping the very fabric and being of my love apart because you are the most special person I ever met. I am very sorry for everyone who has gotten involved in this by being guilty by association. I do not apologize for loving Rachel so much that I would put time and effort everydaya and bare my soul so that others know how much she means to me. My prayer for today is that you realize how precious life is and pick up the phone or email me and start the healing process. I am going to a funeral in a couple of hours and the person it is for is someone who lived a beautiful life, had a large family, and they lived well on to their 80s. That is all that I ever wanted Rachel but I didnt want it with just anyone. I wanted it with you Rachel Myatt. You my sister in Christ, You my best earthly friend. Its you and Jonathan that I love and I cannot deny that nor push it to the side. Think what you will of me but I love you two people with all my heart. I love your family too. I do not hate the New Church and I do not hate Pastor Glenn. In my heart I do not want to do or say anything more to hurt you but I need your help Rachel. I am asking God and you to help me. I am asking God to initiate the peace and reconcilation between us. I love you more than anyone and I dont know what else to do and the hurt and evil is beginning to win. I love you too much to want to go down this road. If you love me or have ever loved me please come back to my heart dear Rachel Myatt.
God Bless You ALL
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