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For all those who threw stones at me and ridiculed me when all I did was love you

Dear Readers,
I love Rachel and Jonthan Myatt with all my heart but some people will never see the good love will do till its too late.  You hold a mirror up to people when they treat you bad and you give them a taste of their medicine and they get upset or make excuses.  All I ever wanted in this life was to be loved.  I never needed any money, material things, or much more than someone to love and cherish.  Rachel Myatt and her son were those people.  For whatever reason it happened she abandoned me when I needed a friend the most and my heart has been truly broken for a year and a half.  It was bad enough losing my mom just a couple of weeks before but to believe in someone so much and have them treat you so cruely and then all you want is peace and reconcilation with them in the end and they are non responsive. It kills your soul.  I was told I was mentally ill while I was grieving by Rachel and that I had all kinds of issues just so Rachel could justify her breaking my heart and it was mean, lies, and untrue. That killed my love and hurt more than anything. I tried to reach out to her with love and I reached out to the Church and though some of you were responsive it was a lot of people making up excuses for Rachel's behavior rather than seeing that my course of love was the one of Jesus and to forgive and move on.  I have lived the past year and a half with a hole in my heart so big that I am barely alive and I am sorry that no one listened. Rachel I never regret loving you, meeting you, and being with you I thought you were the coolest, most beautiful person on the world,  I dont know why I deserved to be lied to, ridiculed, and have stones thrown at me when all I did was love you and believe in you.  I thought in you I had a true friend but the pain has exceeded the amount that I can take and my heart has finally expired.  I am sorry for any inconvenience I have caused anyone by simply being alive and wanting to love and be human.  All I ever wanted was a family of my own and when someone plays with you the way I was played with then you may never recover.  I hope that you all find love and peace in your life and I wish I could have found it to.  I loved Rachel and Jonathan more than you can ever know and I can no longer take these tears of being hated, ignored, and treated like I don't exist.  Rachel you and Jonathan were truly loved by me and I hope when you get your Star gift you will know that you meant so much more to me than I could ever say.  I wish God had of heard my prayers but He never did.  I never wanted sympathy, I just wanted to be a person and not be judged all the time.  I just wanted to be loved.  Out of all the people I had ever loved Rachel you were my best friend..........

You will get your wish Rachel
You will get your wish Coleman Glenn
You will get your wish Church of The New Jerusalem
No one ever saw the love in my heart just their side of the story and how to make excuses so I will no longer be here to be ignored.
I came to you for love, for friendship, for family, and for worship and you turned me away when I needed you most and that will be how this story will end.  I am sorry for wanting to live a life better than one full of despair, hatred, and hurt and trying to reach out and love and connect with other people. 

Goodbye