What Rachel did to me was constantly judge me when all I ever did was love her an accept her. When she betrayed me the worst thing about it is she used all the differences that I had already shared and told her about. I never asked to be different, I desired to be loved just like everyone else. I have been hated for just the color of my skin, because I believe in Jesus Christ, and because of the way I talk. All I ever wanted was a family and to be loved. When I called Rachel out for being a bigot it was not on racial terms it is because she used the New Church and it teachings to judge me and exclude me from her life because something her family or someone said to her. She was never sure always doubting me and she even made the comment that didnt I think my love for her was a mistake. Its been two years and I still love her like the first day I realized I loved her. It was never a mistake. I am willing to die for my love of Christ and if trial or tribulation came this day I would lay down my life for that. I dont expect anyone in the New Church to understand that because you all think I am being extreme with the whole thing. What I do know is I have faith, integrity, and honesty and I would never not love someone because they were different. I would learn about them before I open my mouth and say such things. I will always put Christ commandment to love over any doctrine a man such as Swedenborg would write in a book because God comes first. Much like Evey learns her true strength when V puts her to the test in the above clip from the movie "V for Vendetta" I learned my strenght when Rachel said she loved me then abandoned me and put me down. In the movie V got revolutionary revenge through way of violence because of what was done to him Valerie and others. The Chancellor was a religious and power hungry zealot who had taken control and played on peoples fears and faith. Many religious leaders today play on the fears of others to make them think a certain way. Ask yourself Bishop Kline is that what you want when you exit the New Church to know that people in your fold hurt other people to stand up for what they believe in instead of love and communicate with others. Do you want to know that because of the way a couple of people in a Northern Canadian New Church acted that a revolution rose up against the New Church because they claimed to accept others but yet persecuted and blasphemed against others love of God and treated them badly even the ones who came to worship with you. This week my revolution truly begins and I don't apologize and I am no longer scared to do anything. I don't feel anymore because when I needed Rachel there for me she thought only of herself and was selfish and hateful toward me. Her family was part of that. I dont care how it affects them because I loved them and when I tried to make things right they ignored me. If being sued or thrown into a jail cell for expressing my feelings and telling truths about the New Church be my fate then so be it. Ive spent my whole life being judged and treated bad while loving others, being non judgmental, and giving my all. Christ wanted that way. Last of all the last 30 seconds of the video above when Valerie tells whoever reads the note how much she loves them no matter if she ever met them. That is how much I loved Rachel and even before I ever met her and it was 10 fold after. That is how much I love the strangers on the street that ask for help or the friend in need that I rarely see. That is how much I love the Catholic, or Mormon, or Muslim that I dont agree with in doctrine but they are my friend and my brother are sister and I will stop at nothing to love them. If a bullet came their way I know I would jump in front of it to save them even if they were my enemy because I am willing to die for what I believe in and that is Christ love of others. That is why I am free because I love you all, even if you hate me...........................
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