Dear Readers,
Due to Complications with Blogger I could not finish part 2 of my blog about my campaign and will do so later tonight because of the amount of material that I have to download and pull out of emails. I wanted to just leave this short message for Coleman Glenn and his bride to be Anne. Coleman I loved Rachel with all my heart and I do not know if you can even fathom having someone act like they love you, be your best friend and closest ally then turn and stab you in the back when you needed them most. On top of that to lie and decieve people about you. I do not know what Rachel said to her family and I am still very hurt that anyone would say a grieving person was mentally ill. I live a very full life, I love, I am active in my community, I work out all the time, I am friendly. Most of all people in the community notice I am a Christian not that I am a certain type of Christian by denomination but that I just love God and I do it by example. If Rachel and her family had of taken the time to truly know me they would have seen all that I ever wanted to do was love Rachel and Jonathan and worship with them but I guess your little elite club in Dawson Creek was too redneck and too superior to include me. I have always been different, the black sheep, and against the grain. That is why I succeed and that is why if I say I am going to do something through God's love and His guidance it manifest itself. I left 5 songs today for you and Anne to ponder over these are 5 songs that I would use to describe my love for Rachel and how much I still do love her. Coleman I came to you as a spiritual leader because I loved Rachel and now what has become of this is so much greater. I realize what God let me suffer for and it is to open a whole lot of peoples eyes to what is happening in the New Church. My Christmas newsletter will be how Rachel and her family turned me away and how people made excuses for peace and how for the last 2 years and this year being the 3rd the only thing I asked for is for people to pray for peace between Rachel and I. I would love her to pick up the phone and to never have to print that newsletter and for us to be in each others lives again but it is what I must do. I wish you well Coleman and Anne in your engagement but I also want Coleman to know the damage that you as a Pastor laid the foundation for in my heart and that Rachel would rather be a bad witness for the New Church than to turn the bad into good and make peace with me.
I always knew what I wanted and it was never just to be married to someone as Coleman alluded to in one of his sermons. I love Rachel and Jonathan and they were what I wanted out of life. It was at a time where I had a choice of many different women and instead of the single woman who I could go out and do whatever I wanted with I chose the single mother who lived 2,000 miles away who I would have to give up my life in Texas for and become part of a childs life who wasnt mine. I also was interested in being a foster parent with Rachel so I want you to know there was so much love I had and so much people overlooked for misconception, being judgmental, and just plain selfishness. I knew what I wanted and it was always just to love Rachel and Jonathan.
God Bless ALL
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