Psalm 55:12-14
12 If an enemy were insulting me, I could endure it; if a foe were rising against me, I could hide. 13 But it is you, a man like myself, my companion, my close friend, 14 with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship at the house of God, as we walked about among the worshipers.
- This is a response to Rev John Odhner's article in New Church Connection "Falsely Accused" http://www.newchurch.org/connection/issues/living-authentically/going-deeper.html I am going to just come out and say what I have to say piece by piece about this because the truth needs to be told about why my blog and newsletter ever came into existence. First of all I want to say to Odhner and other New Church Clergy. Rachel had no right ever to call me mentally ill and say anything ill toward my dead mother. Just because a person is grieving and not a hundred percent doesnt make it right and if she didnt want to be in a relationship with me not only did I do the noble thing and give her a way out but I was amicable about it. She chose to lie, she chose to be selfish and wait till a time where it was best for her where she didnt have to look me in the eye, she chose to open her mouth and say things that I should not have forgiven her for but I did. I have every right to feel the way I do and I have proof in the way she treated me of the Bigotry and the New Church theology being part of that Bigotry. I am sorry if it offends your Church and you think that you dont participate in bigotry on any level but you do. It is not a false accusation but an inconvienent truth. I came to the Church with nothing but love and I tried to keep these matters between Rachel and I and when I came to the Church I constantly got Reverend Coleman answering my replies. Pastor Cooper was too lofty and too high on his throne and felt that he knew everything about the situation and that it didnt really matter and I would just blow it off. Now look where things are. You have a campaign telling of how you acted and proof of how you acted. If you hadn't of been so arrogant Pastor Cooper and Pastor Glenn maybe I would have thought different but it was how you reacted not even caring that your doctrine led to the behavior that Rachel would use to put me down, lie, and slander me and when you just blew it off the blog stemmed from that. Rachel was so evil she even sent back a Christmas card that I had not addressed and she put the address on it and sent it back. See it is that kind of thing that made this blog and the truth not accusations come into existence. In fact I still have to Christmas card in my possession if anyone doesnt believe me. Yes I do have a lot of proof and I am not just making accusations about people I am putting the mirror to your doctrine and the way your members and your Clergy act. Rachel not only abandoned me, but she put down my faith, and declared me mentally ill to her family and that was very dishearting. Who is she someone who has no doctorate, or even college credit in studying anyone to discern that. How evil was that? Because she chose to lie to me about being in a relationship she didnt want to be in and I gave her an out she had to be cruel and say such things. All I ever did was love her and her little boy and had nothing but love for her and her family. My family had nothing but love for everyone in the Myatt fold and when my mom died they were more than happy to let me go and I was willing to give up everything to be with Rachel. I live in Texas in one of the most economically fruitful areas which thrives even in this economy. I was willing to give that up to devote my life to God, Rachel and Jonathan in Northern Canada and just put my faith in God. Also I want to point out that almost every one of the Pastors or Reverends that wanted to judge me was married or secretly holding out that they were courting someone but they wanted to judge me on happiness and how it was Rachels free will to treat me cruel. No one cared about my happiness or well being because I wasnt part of the New Church and Rachel even said that I wanted her to save me and that was just pious and evil and so that is why I had to take this thing public a year and a half ago. I have said things that I regret but I also want Rachel and her family to know that anything that you said about me to Rachel after I left such as suggest that I was mentally ill whoever said that is a cruel and evil person and I hope they are truly sorry. I loved all of you and it was one of the happiest times in my life being with Rachel and Jonathan. I was just a little shy and had been through so much and normally I am not so quiet but at the time after losing my mother I was and I didnt want to be showboated around though I wanted to meet all of Rachels family I really just wanted to bask in Rachel and Jonathans love and be with them. Maybe Rachel thought that being with me I would try to keep her away from her family because of that but it was quite the opposite. If they had of been patient instead of pass judgment they would have found just how much love I had for all of them. I am still very hurt and saddened by that because I opened up and just trusted them. For People such as Pastor Lumsden, Pastor Glenn, and others who want to judge me you just need to look in the mirror first and understand you put doctrine above loving your fellow man. Gods word not Swedenborg says to love your neighbor I never felt any of that. Rachel wasnt very humble and she seemed to care only about herself at all times and I am sorry that other men hurt her but I could send you all the love letters, cds, I gave her a promise ring, and I loved her and Jonathan more than a man could love his own flesh she was the best thing that ever happened and I still think the world of her. Reverend Odhner you talk about feeling a sense of love. Rachel was so hung out on her ex she talked about Jonathans dad so much she could see that God had a man in front of her that loved her and had done everything to be with her. She listened to her voices of doubt and doubted me constantly and even when she put me down I never gave up on her. I have proof of that too. In the end she constantly used the New Church doctrine to put me down and downplay my love of God and make her cruel treatment of me look justified. That is why I started this campaign and by next week lots of newsletters will be distributed because of Rachel's arrogance, pride, and selfishness. I am human and I have faults too but had the shoe been on the other foot and one of Rachels parents died and I would have quit my job and been there for her and never said any cruel thing about her faith, her love of God, or her family. Fact is I have nothing but love for her family and I want to say this to the Myatt family before I end this.
- Dear Rachel and Myatt family,
- I had nothing but love for you all and I looked forward to having Rachel and Jonathan as my one and only. Rachel was the only woman I wanted to have kids with and I wanted to have all of you in my life and nothing would have stood in my way. Not time or distance and I thought I showed you that by even keeping my promise to Rachel even after my mother died. I am sorry if any of you thought I was mentally ill it was very hurtful and it almost killed me that you would say such a thing or if any of you encouraged Rachel to think that way. I grew up in a broken home and when I was 12 yrs old I decided the only thing I needed to be successful was to be loved by a good Christian woman and have a family. I love Rachel with all my heart and it is a true love and I dont care what any New Church pastor or any man says for that matter in trying to judge me. I would have never left Rachel and Jonathans side and I wanted to be a father figure and be there full time for Jonathan. When I left Dawson Creek I never wanted to love two people so much and get back to them but that was shattered. For the past two years my heart has been truly broken and I have never went into this blog to slander or hurt Rachels feelings. My youtube station was a tribute to Rachel to let her know how deeply she hurt me and that I love her beyond compare. I guess what I was trying to prove that my love for Rachel is infinite and that it spans all space and time and that I would do anything for her and Jonathan. You can make fun of me, call me extreme, intense, or obsessive but I know that I love Rachel Myatt. If she wants to set me free so I can love another maybe one day all she has to do is pick up the phone and make peace with me but truth be told I am in love with her and I always will be. God put me on this path for a reason and I dont care what Pastor Glenn or anyone else thinks I know what God has directed me too and my campaign that I lauched this week is a message of love to Rachel and the Myatt family and the New Church and it will be seen by 100s this week and 1000s in the weeks to come. If you truly want to end this with me then just email or pick up the phone or write me a letter. All the addresses and numbers Rachel had from the time we were together are still valid. I love you all Rachel and Family and if you want do something loving you can honor my mothers last words to me to love you all by making peace with me. Amanda, Jessica, Sarah, Clayton, Rebecca, let me ask you all this really quick you wouldnt have like it had Howard or Jane died that someone disrespect your Mother or Father as Rachel did my Mother or if I had of come on here saying ill things about your Grandfather when he passed. Think of that and how Rachel not only disrespected me, but your family, and the fact that I love her so much. Maybe then you will start to see it from my perspective a bit.
Love Byron, - So Pastor Odhner much like Joseph I was accused and treated a certain way for just loving Rachel. She took her anger out on me and was cruel, unkind, and unforgiving. I constantly forgave and I have never stopped loving her and no matter what you or anyone else things I know my path shines in the light. So when you finally get ahold of one of the Newsletters and see the campaign I am spreading I hope you take a moment to see how God is working in me. Christ ministry of Reconciliation and love is the only one I see. I love my sister Rachel and I want to be reunited with her. I love her with all my heart and I am willing to go to the ends of the earth to let her know that and no matter how silly and how extreme that sounds to you or any of your laity or Clergy I know that is what Jesus would want me to do. He would want me to not give up on her. I am not pointing out things in the New Church to be mean or to hate the New Church I am pointing out ways to change so that maybe more people will be reached by your message. I wanted to study with Rachel and be one with her and I was turned away not only by her and her family but the way that Pastor Glenn, Cooper, and others reacted. It was very hurtful and sad especially since you had a prime chance to show the good in your doctrine and message to a person who was grieving and welcome me with open arms but all I heard were reasons why I was too different to be loved by Rachel. I see a wall of division in the New Church that is not accepting of others though you claim to be. You want to be heard but you dont want to listen when people speak back. You want to dominate the conversation with your rhetoric and doctrine. When someone tells you something it goes in one ear and out the other and that is not how Christians are supposed to be. We are supposed to be subjective and objective and listen others. I want to end this blog to say that I love Rachel Myatt simply that I hope God Blesses her and Jonathan everyday. I love them with all my heart. I cannot stop now after all I have been through and my campaign goes on this week as planned. If I have caused you any pain or discomfort Rachel and family I am sorry but you have hurt me too. I still have nothing but love for all of you. Pastor Glenn I really do wish you well in your engagement but it hurts that you have no idea how much I love Rachel and how badly she played with the dream I had the same one that you have to be married and love someone in the Lord and in that you showed hypocrisy. I hope that you all stop to think that if this wasnt in Gods plan I would be doing it. I would have truly trashed Rachel and it would have been disasterous. Instead I have gained something so much more. Strength, Patience, Love, and Long suffering. Rachel Myatt I love you sister and my arms are open. Its been two years Sunday break the silence, break the chains that keep us a part, I wait for you my friend I have been waiting patiently and non stop. I love you, I love you, I love you and Jonathan with all my heart.
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