I wrote a blog using this movie clip before but now as what I have to do has become clearer I want everyone to know my intentions. I have written a diary called "The Lies Rachel Told Me" chronicling our emails and how Rachel said she loved me and how she would be there for me and how abruptly she turned her back on me. It is one thing to lie and slander someone but it is another thing to hold the truth against someone and let them look head into it. Rachel could have called me to end this a long time ago but she doesnt have the humility, kindness, or goodness in her heart. If I hated her and wanted to get back at her I could have two years ago by calling the Foster Agency and telling them about her putting the kids in a situation around a strange man who they didnt know and that I felt awkward around too. I asked her not to do that and if I truly had of been evil I could have said something but I didnt I love her. The best thing to do is just let the truth be out there. She, her family, and her Church will eventually recognize the damage that they incurred on not only me and their family but what it will mean to their family. Pastor Glenn your emails will be included also. I will not get on here and slander anyone I will let your own words be ones guide to how they want to deal with this ongoing saga. If you feel Rachel that you dont want this to happen you can email me and we can talk like adults but if not this is what I must do. I had nothing but love for you, your family, and your Church and I want to let you in on a little secret about being mean and unkind to people Rachel. I lost my mom and you and your family treated me like a mental patient because I was quiet reserved and not all there. My dad is dying right now and it makes me sad and I watch chemotherapy deterioate him into nothing and even though we dont have the best relationship and I was abused constantly I take care of him and watch over him. My mom taught me lifes greatest gift and that is to love. Even those who hurt us. That is why when they asked her if she was afraid to die she said no. Neither am I. I loved Rachel and the Myatts as my family. You missed out on that and it is your loss. The last thing I want to say is through all the pain and hurt I go through I put God first. I haven't cursed him, lost faith in Him, or let others make me think that I dont love Him such as Rachel said I didnt love God. Just because I believe different didn't mean we couldnt be together. She let others lead her to believe that and so her witness will be witness for the Church of the New Jerusalem. My testamony in my diary will be the truth that sets all free. I am not going to hold back anything. Finally much like Sebastian did to his stepsister in the end my diary wont be a blog it will be a print project sent all over the world and if you dont believe me about sending stuff ask some of the Pastors who recently got my newsletter.
God Bless All
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