http://www.newchurch.org/activities/newchurchlive/archives/bullying/index.html
- Dear Readers,
- Above is a video by the New Church about Bullying. Please watch it in its entirety. This is my message to Rachel and The Myatt family about how cruel they were to me and how much I loved them. It is also my message to the New Church to let them know how much I am hurt by the way you and your clergy treated me. Yesterday in North America I released my Newsletter "Good & Truth" Gazette. It is entitled "How I Was Turned Away From The Church of the New Jerusalem" It was printed in two different versions one for the New Church to let the people in the Church know how much I loved them especially the Myatt family. The other one is the same newsletter with no names that I have shared with other Christians and concerned people. I reached out to you Rachel for so long and I loved you like I loved no other woman. You treated me if not worse than anyone has ever treated me in my life. I was a victim of bullying, of being treated different, and I was hated, and ridiculed just for the color of my skin. I waited my whole life for someone to love me and want to be with me and I thought you were different. In the end you abandoned me for the same reason. You said I was too different. You changed my life for the good by accepting me then you tore me down by rejecting me. You cant imaging how my heart has been broken. All you New Church Pastors who said I was wrong all of you had wives and children and that is all I ever wanted in life was to be a father and to love a woman and children. I loved Rachel enough that I wanted her little boy to be my world too. Bullying hurts and when Rachel said I was mentally ill because I was grieving and because I wasnt 100% myself well I dont know if it was her or someone in her family who said that that made her feel she could not be with me but it was just plain mean. I am sorry that people would say things like that. Fact is I have never done drugs, I have never been diagnosed with a mental illness. I can count on both hands how many alcoholic drinks I have had in my 37 years. I have never hit a woman. I have no jail time nor criminal recordI have fought only to defend myself and I always try to use words as weapons and the Bible as my guide for warfare. The saddest thing of all for everything that Rachel judged me on there were 2 things I accepted about her. I loved her for who she was when all she could do is ridicule and put me down. I wrote this blog as a tribute to how much I love Rachel Myatt but it became so much more. Rachel all I want for Christmas is to make peace with you. Whether you know it or not you were the love of my life and if I had to today I would still give my life for you and Jonathan. I forgive you for being mean to me and all the ill things you said but I cant forget because you cant make peace with me. I am sorry that other men hurt you and that you were not sure of what you wanted but I was always sure I wanted you and I am sorry that my mom got sick and died but it was God calling her home and it was just timing. I loved you enough that even in my tragedy I kept on living and loving and I thought by coming at the time you would see that was my strength. I love you with all my heart and I hope that this message today will have an impact on you or someone in your family or maybe someone in the New Church will see how deeply you all have hurt me. I had nothing but love for you all. If you really want to make a difference and live the lives you say that you live then coming to me as a brother in Christ and resolving this would make a world of difference. I cant make that happen Rachel. My arms have been wide open for a 2yrs on Sunday I want you back in my life and I love you more than you can know.
God Bless.
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