You had a true friend in me. You had someone who loved you with all his heart uncondtionally, loved your son, and was ready to love your family. You threw that all away for selfish pride and superficiality. I know the kind of person you are because you didnt keep your promises but I will keep mine. My story is continuing to be told and it is being told in places you would never dream of. If you had of picked up the phone we could have ended this me and you. Now look at you a shell of your former self. You can talk big when you dont have to be face to face with a person but now that you are confronted with something that is out in the open you have no idea what to do. You truly hurt me, you betrayed me, you lied, worst of all you tried to shove me off like I never existed and that besides you disrespecting my deceased mother is the reason this is happening to you. I am not going to stop because the Lord wants to teach you a lesson in humility. You need to know what it is to be kind, humble, and compassionate and you only know how to be that to children. You need to think about that for a moment Rachel if you are a foster mother those same children grow up to be adults and what if people are cruel to them as children. Maybe you never thought about all the cruelty and hate I endured as a child that made me different as an adult. Sad thing is you said you loved me and accepted me but instead you shunned me and ridiculed me and went about your life like I never happened. You know what thought I am just going to keep proving I happened. I am going to keep letting people know how untrustworthy and cruel you are. Most of all how you pretend to live a life of Christian charity and good will but you don't know how to forgive, mend fences, or make peace with someone who truly loved you and you deeply transgressed against. I am sad I ever wasted my love on such a sad, hypocritical, selfish person and you only have yourself to blame for all the things happening to you. You could have reached out to me but you know how wrong and how evil you were so you cower and hide because you know you are messed up. Thats ok though this blog and my essays around the world are enough to show how cruel you are. You only hurt your Church because you set an example by not making peace with me and you show what kind of values both The Church of the New Jerusalem and Swedenborg favor, selfishness, unforgiveness, and love of self. You make my case stronger everyday :)
Once again at the top of the NewChurch.org page I see a discussion on forgivnesshttp://www.newchurch.org/connection/issues/forgiveness/small-groups.html If I can forgive and love you after all the heinous things you did to me Rachel then why cant you follow your doctrine and show the same Rachel. You were the one who lied to me, you were the one who decieved me. I had every right to react, to be upset, and because I was grieving yes I wanted to die because you put a burden on my heart that I could not deal with at the time because of the way you did things. You were not honest with me so everything that is happening is not only because you are selfish but because you cant repent or show true regeneration for anything you do. It is all about Rachel Myatt all the time.
I will leave you with a true example of repentance and forgiveness from The Word.
“Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn others, or it will all come back against you. Forgive others, and you will be forgiven. Give, and you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full—pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. The amount you give will determine the amount you get back.” (Luke 6:37-38)
But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too.” (Mark 11:25)
Do you see the part of the scripture in Red? Why can't Rachel and Pastor Coleman understand is all that is happening is because they did just that? All I did was love, believe, and care about Rachel. I was faithful, loyal, and a true friend and she was the only woman for me. No one else could have pulled me away from her. Instead of realizing I was hurting and probably in shock I was told I didnt love God, I was damaged, messed up, and unstable. I hope when Jane or Howard Myatt die that Rachel remembers how evil and cruel she was to me when my mother died. You got called a bigot, a liar, and many other things because you deserved it you acted as such maybe not in your mind but you didnt even care about the things you are doing. You just do things recklessly and selfishly. You are a walking contradiction and that is why I am treating you the way I am by telling my story everywhere. You are the most UNCHRISTIAN person I ever met and to show you that this is not just about your doctrine it is about how you act here are a couple of passages from Swedenborg
“… it is by command of the church that everyone ought to forgive his brother or neighbor…” (Secrets of Heaven 6561)
“I have heard from heaven that the Lord forgives to everyone his sins, and never takes vengeance nor even imputes sin, because He is love itself and good itself; nevertheless, sins are not thereby washed away, for this can be done only by repentance. For when He told Peter to forgive until seventy times seven, what will not the Lord do?” (True Christian Religion 409)
If you were truly adherent to the New Church doctrine Rachel Myatt or Pastor Glenn then you would realize that by ignoring me, my love, my call for forgiveness, reconcilation, and love you are in direct conflict with what you teach. I have never once said I hated either one of you. I have sent you gifts and wrote about how much love I have for Rachel, her family, and how I did respect you Pastor Glenn. None of that mattered though. You want to push me to the side and pretend like I dont matter because I am so far away. I am just some imaginary thing that happens on the internet. Sorry but I am very real and what I am doing is very real and people all over the world are seeing that. If you want to have that reflect on your Dawson Creek New Church and the General New Church as a whole that is fine go ahead set the example. I am going to set Christ example and love. I am going to break down walls and barriers and be the kind loving person I always am and if I truly love someone I never give up. Rachel has a true friend and someone that loves her very much even after all her cruelty and in that she should realize by treating me the way she does and her family being supportive of that ignorance then you arent following Swedenborg's Writings and most of all you aren't practicing the repentance, regeneration, or love that Christ gave us all. Think about it!!!!!!!
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