Dear Rachel Myatt,
I loved and cared about you and Jonathan so much and realized why you dont deserve me, my friendship, or even my kindness anymore. You are very selfish, self centered, egotistical, and unkind. You only care about yourself and what you can do to benefit your life. You dont look and see that the world rotates regardless if you live or die. Other people have lives and the things that happen in there lives happen for a reason. When you had sex with Jonathans dad you did it because you wanted to and because it felt good. When you had sex with me I was in love with you and I made love to you but you just wanted to experement with me. I was not a game I truly loved and cared about you. All you do though is "Stick Around For Joy". You dont care about who you hurt or what you do because if you did you would have contacted me and made peace with me. If your mother had of died I would have quit my job and done everything I could to support you and come be with you. When I was down and out what did you do? You assumed I wasn't happy, you put me down, and you were so evil you wouldn't even pray with me. What kind of compassion or love is that Rachel Myatt? You claim that no one loves you or accepts you but I did and you turned your back on me and you and your family spent so much time finding flaws and differences with me you couldnt just see I was a man who was trying to figure things out. I was never selfish to you, I wanted your love but many nights I said if you dont want to love me then I would go away. You chose to be with me and even after you constantly put my love of God down I still like a good Christian accepted you and loved you unconditionally. I want to say this to your mother Jane Myatt. If you didnt like the fact that I believe God punishes the wicked or the fact that I believe spiritually different that is no reason to suggest your daughter not be with me. I was open to learn and you turned me away so I want you to think about that. I got that vibe from you Mrs Myatt and I picked it up. I was broken, I was sharing with you and Rachel my life because my life had just changed. I had to go on living with the parent who didnt appreciate me and didnt show me kindness and just because I explained that to you didnt mean that I was unhappy, or damaged, or messed up it meant I loved and trusted you and Rachel to let you know how I was feeling. I loved your daughter and your grandson with all my heart. I could have been with my dream girl who was everything that I wanted physically and in other aspects but she did not love or want to believe in God. Rachel and I had that in common and I percieved and still love her as my best friend. Any man that would go through so much to be with someone and to put up with the disrespect and hurt that your daughter brought me truly loves her Jane. Rachel I do still love you deep inside and the things I am doing like this blog and passing out flyers are to let you know how much you hurt me and how when you put someone down who believes in you that person rises up and is strong and fearless. I dont care if you sue me, I dont care if you hate me, I really dont care about anything but God's love. I am doing all this because I want you to know that there is truly a man that loves you and Jonathan and he would do anything for both of you even give his life. He also wanted to show you that he does not put up with people doubting him and his faith in God. Nor do I put up with the cruelty that you showed me. I never gave up on you and I kept my promises to you. If you loved me ever at all then you would pick up the phone and end this. If not then tomorrow and in the future I will kept telling my story in print and on the internet and I will let the New Church know of why I am doing it. It is because I loved you and you and your family were selfish, uncaring, and judgmental and you used religious doctrine for bigotry, hurt, and uncaring. I am not sorry for going after Pastor Glenn because he defended your evil not even knowing all the things you had done or said to me. He was to busy defending doctrine to realize that I had lost my mom and could have been more human and caring. It is ok though you set an example all of you for the New Church everyday and every time I write this blog or print out a flyer and share it with a world it is a reflection on you. If you truly were the loving people you say you were you would contact me and find peace with me. I love you all, I have sent letters, donations, shared my love of you with the world, told of my pain, my hurt, and how much I care about you Rachel and Myatt family but instead of love me, you feared me because I was different and that is why the world is a messed up place. Did I turn my back on Rachel when she told me of her faith? One of the most radical religions in the world and what did I say to Rachel? I accept you, love you, and I want to learn with you........................
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