This is my last blog before I send out my letters and begin my campaign about the New Christianity I Learned about in the New Church. It is called "Insight" by Depeche Mode. The last words of the song ring out "You've Got To Give Your Love" so in this blog I will tell of my last bit of love for Rachel Myatt. I will give you an insight on to why this is happening. I am not sorry. When my mom died I kept listening to this song because I know I have so much to give. It was the comeback album for Depeche Mode after singer David Gahan recovered from heavy substance abuse. The song "Barrel of A Gun" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V7GCrTFCXYo was the first single from this album in 97 , the song was about substance abuse and getting over it. I can still remember when it was released to radio I was on my commute home from working at DFW International Airport I was 21 yrs old stuck in traffic it came on and I broke into tears not because they are one of my favorite bands of all time but because David Gahan had overcame his addiction and God loved him so much. I told Rachel all my secrets all the bad things that had happened to me because they gave me strength like being abused, neglected, and being cheated on constantly and she used those thing against me. I told her because I loved her and I wanted he to know that those were the things that made me strong they didnt define me but they helped shape the strength God gave me. When she said horrible things like I was damaged, messed up, mentally unstable and then she brought my mom into it. That is the reason all this is happening. If she would pick up the phone and make peace with me then this would all come to an end. She will never do that and I usually dont believe in the word never but because she is stubborn and selfish people like her will never accept the wrong and the hurt hey do to people and since she used her New Church faith to hurt me and others then what I have to write is why this is happening to her and the Church of the New Jerusalem. Dear Readers, The picture above of Rachel and Jonathan along with others sit on my nightstand. Everyday I pray that she will understand how much I love her and how much she hurt me and how her words to me broke my soul and spirit. I don't ever want her to hurt another man especially the way she hurt me. I was the man who loved and wanted to be with her child unconditonally and my heart was devoted to her. I had my pick of women here in Texas but I chose a sweet(or so I thought) Christian girl from Northern Canada. Rachel was the love of my life and I would have given that life for her and Jonathan. When my mom got sick unexpectedly and died I wasnt prepared for it but the one thing she wanted me to do is go love Rachel and Jonathan. I hope that Rachel Myatt and the Myatt and Friesen families read this and realize the damage they done and how much I loved them all. My mother taught me how to love more than anything else, to forgive, to reconcile and Christ taught her that and she instilled it in me. For all you Pastors and Reverends in the New Church who scoffed at reconcilation and love and of what I am doing not being of God, Who are you to know my love or my Good and Truth? God works in mysterious ways and this blog has always been about how I love Rachel and how she was the one who lied to me, she is the one who played with the true love I had for her. I was truthful to her, I gave her an amicable way out and she didnt take it. She chose to be selfish and wait till she didnt have to look me in the eye and be cowardly. I was honest and I was a man and did what I was supposed to. So Pastor Cooper, Lumsden, and Glenn for you to not understand the implications of that and for you to judge me as Pastors shows your onesidedness as laity and clergy. You want to condone evil that she does but condemn love that I have and the fact that I put my faith in God first and noone else. If I wanted to be selfish and hateful after all I know about Rachel and her family I would have just went on a rampage but I found comfort on coming to the Church, trying to privately squash this, and be loving but to you Rachel and your Church members none of that mattered. You preach of love, charity, and God's love but none of that was present from Rachel and the Myatt family. I tried to come to them personally and they ignore me so I tell not only about them but the hypocratic way they use their faith to put down others and so July 1st when I send out all these letters I dont care what anyone thinks. I am going to spread the message of the New Christianity that is just as bad or worst than they Old Christianity because in trying to be different you are only more of a rehash of the same tired cliches. By acting like you are on a different spiritual plane and are better than others and treating others like they are inferior you turn people away of what could be a plausible message and I intend to share that with thousands over the next week.
I will end on this
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE LOVED I AM NOT GOING TO SPEND MY LIFE PLACING BLAME ON OTHER PEOPLE. WHAT I AM GOING TO DO IS STOP LETTING PEOPLE WALK ON ME LIE AND GET AWAY WITH IT. IN 3 DAYS I START A CAMPAIGN THAT WILL SHARE ABOUT THE CHURCH OF THE NEW JERUSALEM AND MY STORY ALL OVER THE WORLD SO IF PEOPLE LIKE PASTOR DERRICK LUMSDEN WOULD LIKE TO TURN THE TIDE THEN MY EMAIL AND MY HEART IS OPEN IF NOT THEN YOU NEVER TOOK ME SERIOUSLY AND IT MEANT NOTHING TO ANYONE AND I WILL PRECEDE AND NOT LOOK BACK.
I started this blog because I love you Rachel Myatt I have always loved you unconditonally I accepted you and your faith and what did you do to me in return? You put down not only my faith and my love of God but you put down me and my family. I kept my promises to you even made a promise to God which I have yet to break and will never break, I gave you a promise ring, I wanted to love your child as my own. I accepted you and all your flaws and imperfections and what did you do to me? You threw mine back in my face when I all I wanted was the same from you. You slept with me and pretended you loved me and wanted to be with me then gave me false hope, broke up with me by text and then made fun of the pain you caused. You said you would lie to others if I told them anything and that I was stupid if I took it to the Church. All you do is put down others and hurt them. You were so cruel you sent back my unaddressed Christmas card and put my name on it. That is how vain and evil Rachel Myatt Treated me Church of New Jerusalem. I tried to make peace with her, reason with her and her pastor and members of the New Church, sought forgiveness, and wanted to forgive, reconcile and be a true friend but no your doctrine is about loving oneself and being selfish. You claim it is not but that is all I have encountered. I sent donations, letters of love, I tried to make amends, I even had a star named after Rachel Myatt nothing I did was good enough so if anyone tells me Rachel doesnt deserve this then they are just want to condone evil and support being cruel to others who need love. Love was all I ever needed and though I would never forget losing a parent for someone to lie to me about loving me and play with my want to be a husband, father, and in a loving family that was my only earthly dream and Rachel has ruined that because I cannot trust anyone again especially after the Religious Bigotry, excuses, and pure selfishness I was shown by the Church of the New Jerusalem.
JUST REMEMBER THE LESSER EVIL PASTOR COLEMAN GLENN EVIL TOOK YOU AND RACHEL TO THIS PLACE. http://colemanglenn.wordpress.com/2011/10/30/sermon-the-lesser-evil/ GOD BLESS ALL
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