Dear Readers,
I do not really have a family now. I have a sick father and my little brother so today I going to feed the homeless on Thanksgiving Day here in the U.S. Rachel never knew how much I loved her and Jonathan and how much having a family of my own meant to me. I didn't want that family with just any woman though it was with her. My heart has been devestated for the past couple of years and so in the coming weeks I am no longer holding back against what I have to say towards Rachel and the Myatt family. God did not put me on this earth to be miserable and He does want me to be happy and if it brings the Myatt Family, Friesen, and Baker Family some discomfort than they can only look to Rachel because she never wanted to be responsible for anything she said or did. She wanted to hide, lie, and pretend that I don't exist. Just remember I am here and I am a real person and I had so much love for you and you son and you disrespected that love.
IN Retrospective here is an older blog that maybe you will read and think about why this blog has been kept and blessed by the Lord's Hand.
http://iloverachelmyatt.blogspot.com/2011/10/person-who-i-thought-loved-me-and.html
All I ever did was believe in you Rachel so all those New Church Naysayers, Rachel broke a man who wanted a family with her, She broke a man who was willing to love her from a far and be faithful to her. She broke a man who loved her son, her family, and actually wanted to worship with her and it is for that fact during Christmas this year when I am passing out my newsletter about The Church of the New Jerusalem, The Myatt Family, and Christmas Hypocrisy. Rachel Myatt you were never thankful for the best friend and blessing that was put in front of you. You used my love for your own selfish reasons and then put me down and tried to make me less of a man when you looked around as saw that someone really loved you. I really truly cared. Before I end this This is from the New Church Page about Relationships so Rachel and her family may want to examine this before they read my prayer below.
http://www.newchurch.org/about/news/gratitude-video-2012.html
Thanksgiving Prayer,
Thank you Heavenly Father for all the blessings You have given us. I ask that You help those less fortunate today and that we start trying to care for them more everyday than selfishly around holiday time. I ask that You give strength and love to those who have been affected by the violence in the Middle East and the Natural Disasters that have affected the East Coast in the U.S. For those that are hurting each night may You be their guiding light and lift them and exault them with Your Mercy, Love, Kindness, and Long Suffering. I ask that you end this between Rachel and I and that the beautiful friendship we had be restored. I ask you let Rachel look into her own heart and see how much she is loved by You so that she may realize that the love You have instilled in my heart for Herself, Jonathan, and Her Family. I love them all. Thank you Lord for all that you have given us and help us to walk in the way of the light. Christ , Our Lord you are everything, all Good Comes from you and I know if I ask for Love you will return it to me. I love Rachel Myatt through You Lord and I will never stop because of my Promise through You Jesus. May All this come to pass in Your Great Name.
Amen
Rachel Myatt not a day goes by when I dont miss you or think about you and Jonathan. I just pray, smile at our pictures, read the letters, and emails we wrote each other. I am truly in love with you and care for you and Jonathan with all my heart. I wish you would come back. God Bless!
If I had the chance to spend my life with you the song "Free" by Faith Hill is what I wanted played at our wedding because when I was with you and Jonathan it was the first time my heart felt truly free to love................
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