What Does Revenge Sound Like? : Food For Thought

 

Dear Readers,
I was pondering all the love I have had for Rachel and her family at this point in the game and this song came on my Ipod Touch when I was driving last night.  It was from Texas Rapper, Chamillionaires - 2005 album "The Sound of Revenge" and this is the intro and title track.  Unbeknownst to some he and popular Rapper at the time Paul Wall were childhood best friends and had just had a falling out so this album was personal.  The sound of "Revenge" that Chamillionaire was talking about on here was about letting people talk bad about you, take shots, treat you bad, and still get Revenge by being sucessful.  He later won a Grammy for a song off this album called "Ridin"(Dirty) and the funny thing is the song was about how Police profile young black and hispanic men because we drive nice cars and even if we are doing what we are supposed to according to the law.  It happened to me in city called Pantego a suburb of my Native Arlington.  Rachel and her family have no idea of the Racism, hate, and disrespect I get just because the color my skin but all I have ever wanted was to be loved and respected.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nf4DhXy9oU  What happened when he won the Grammy was an example of God working toward reconciliation. Paul Wall actually went up and hugged his former friend turned rival at the Grammy's effectively putting a wedge in the conflict they were having opening the door to their friendship to renew itself. Here is the story their friendship, downfall, and rebirth. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JloUST40D-M I want this with Rachel but she cannot see the power of God working within me.  I could have trashed her,  I could have done some things to destroy her.  If I have hurt her by my actions it has never been like that in my mind.  This is about how I would do anything to love her and Jonathan.  I believe in her and I believe her family will finally come around and see the power of love that resides in my heart.  It makes me sad that Rachel and her family claim to be part of The Church of the New Jerusalem and talk about being different and practicing Regeneration yet they make fun of other people who are different then them and are hypocritical of the way they claim to live.   I loved how Chamillionaire was classy and he kept his negativity on the records.  I have tried to end this even asking to sit in a room with Pastor Glenn, Rachel, and even her family.  I even said I would come to Bryn Athyn and make peace with she and her family.  Down here in the Southern U.S. I have encountered Racism, Immense Hatred,  I have even been part of a hate crime but through all that I kept loving and believing in people.  I am sorry that Rachel,  the Myatt Family, and The Church of the New Jerusalem cannot see the beauty of what l am doing.  I know others have and have commended me on it.  I have always tried to do what was right and I love Rachel and Jonathan with all my heart.  Another song came on my Ipod Touch immediately after that and it was a song by a Native of Rachel's Canada - Sarah McLachlan ,  It was this song "Fallen" actually that inspired me to write this blog.  I will put up the video and leave you with your thoughts, perceptions, and interpretations of the love I have for Rachel and her family but take a listen to the words and see how I can contrast the love and the act of Revenge at the same time.






To Me This song Represents that I could hurt Rachel, I could smear her, I could demean her and I could embarrass myself by going down to the level she went to when mistreating me and my love for her.  Fact is I love her, Jonathan, and her family very much and much like Chamillionare and Paul Wall I see her as family.  Even if she doesnt want to react and she wants to hide and be silent that is her choice. I am going to continue to let the world know how much I love you Rachel Myatt.  You can change your name, get another boyfriend, get married, do whatever but you cant change the moment in time where you destroyed my heart, my love, and my trust.  God has made me as stronger,  well versed, and more accountable person.  This blog is because I love you Rachel Myatt and I will continue to put out my blog and my newsletter to let you,  The Myatt Family, the Church of the New Jerusalem and other Religions know of that love.  If you cant handle the exposure or if you are uncomfortable with this story being told then why not just come to me or talk to me.  Rachel you can end this if you dont like it but it has to be on your terms.  I have chosen my terms and its to love you worldwide and to tell you, your family, and your Church about how you affected me.

Diversity is a big part of my life. I see the correlation between many things both good and bad in the smallest things to the largest things.  These two songs were randomly played back to back on Shuffle on my Ipod Touch but I was inspired to write a blog about the woman who I have never stopped loving because I saw the balance between Revenge as in seeking to cause harm and Revenge in just living and not forgetting but moving on being successful.  I seek not to maim, hurt, or demean Rachel but Reconnect, Reconcile, and to love her again.



My Heavenly Father,
Bless Rachel, Jonathan, her family,  Pastor Glenn, and all those who read this blog with an open mind and see the love.  For all those who have seen the newsletter and to those who wish me well in Reconcilation and true love with Rachel Myatt. May Christ extend to you blessings 10 fold.  All that is in God is Good

Amen

Romans 12:18-20
¹⁸ If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. ¹⁹ Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”^[a] says the Lord.
²⁰ On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”


I want to leave you with one last point.  Rachel, Her Family, Pastor Glenn , and The Church of The New Jerusalem are the ones who ignore my pleas for peace love and reconciliation therefore in essence the love I have for all of them are the coals that they pretend that aren't there but they are effectively showing others a false witness to the loving way they claim to live.