Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Everyday Is Halloween: Being Proud of Being Different




Dear Readers,
I realized how beautiful I am last night and how I let Rachel and her family downplay the wondeful man I am.  I was attending a concert last night by a band called Tomahawk they are led by Multi talented and faceted musician, bandleader, and vocal wonder Mike Patton.  Most of you know him from his most popular band Faith No More - here is their most popular hit "Epic" from the late 80s if you dont know.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERTT_sv8sV0 For anyone reading this who dont know just how talented Mike Patton really is here is one of his projects I havent gotten to see yet but it was at the top of the classical charts when it came out.  It is called Mondo Canae.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNM7ETCMpb4 Classical rock inspired music sung completely in Italian and he also has one of the largest vocal ranges in the world.   That is the kind of person I aspire to be a polymath or someone who excels at many things and doesnt let stereotype or convention hold me back.   Ok enough geeking over Mike Patton.  I was wearing my Faith No More from when I saw them in 2010 and these guys came up to me out of no where and told me how cool I was and that they not only loved my shirt but that Mike Patton loved black people which I already knew because he does a rap vocal project with rapper Rahzeel formerly of The Roots which I have seen.  I looked around in the crowd of about 400 and I was maybe one of 5 people of black orgin.  To me it is not about ethnicity or race but the fact that those guys realized that I dont let my love of music or stereotypes hold me back from what I love.  This is the point I am trying to make Rachel,  The Myatts and Friesens,  Pastor Glenn, and the New Church in General.  I am not hiding.  I am not ashamed or afraid of who I am.  I do not hesitated to spread the word about how you treat others as Christians.  If you write something you better be able to back it up because I just might put it in my newsletter and contrast it to the way you contradict yourself.  Another thing I am about to tell you might shock you and might let you know just how extreme I am and how I dont care what you think or do to me.  When I was 20 I used to go to school dressed in full Vampire Gear, PVC, Leather and walk up and down both colleges I went to at the time as the peaceful goth kid called Mercy.  I never told anyone my real name till they got to know me.  At first people laughed at me and put me down but I didnt care.  Weeks later people found out how cool I was because they got to know me and I remember having girls on my arm at all times.  I made lots of cool friends some of who are friends still today.  I was even chosen by one of the schools to be on a committee for student planning because the dean had seen how popular I was with people and how I just loved others and was myself.  Oh and to you haters and judgemental people I was wearing full make up black lipstick, eyeliner, and I am already dark as chocolate.  I had dog collars, locks, spikes, and whatever else that seemed frightening.  Why did I do it? Because I got judged no matter what I did sometimes simply for being black and I just wanted to be a human being so I thought what better way as a young person to get noticed than to just fly my true freak flag and not give a flip.  So to all you who doubt me and who think that my love for Rachel is a joke and a game then I dedicated "Everyday Is Halloween" by Ministry to you.  I want Rachel and the Myatt family to know one thing.

I am not hiding
I am not afraid
I will not back down
I am full of love
If you are scared, if you are hurting, if you want this to go away then you have to look into your heart to see the good peace and reconciliation would bring about.
Everyday is Halloween for us damaged, ugly, different, religiously open minded, caring, never say never, believe in ourselves souls.

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