Dear Readers,
In this final scene from the 1968 film adaptation of Carson McCullers "The Heart is A Lonely Hunter" characters Mick Kelly and Dr. Copeland visit deaf, mute, John Singer's final resting place. The only thing Mr. Singer wanted was to be loved. There was no internet, no machinery a deaf mute could express himself with during the time this book was written and that was the beauty of this book. Mr. Singer despite his disability tried to help everyone with there problems even though he was sad and lonely and no one paid attention to him. In the end he committed suicide because when he needed a friend, when he needed Mic and the others no one had time for him.
To The Myatt Family,
You may be thinking why Byron wont you let this die. One because I love Rachel and Jonathan and I love all of you. Do you not understand that is why I came to Canada it was not just for Rachel but it was for all of you. In the story above Dr. Copeland's character hated white people but when he met Mr. Singer who was able to help black characters in the story despite his disability he changed his view on white people. That is why he visits the grave almost everyday because he learned a lesson from Mr. Singer. When Mr. Singer first showed up at the Kelly's household Mick made fun of him calling him a dummy, and cripple, and stupid. Much like Rachel making fun of me but the hurtful thing about Rachel is that she claimed to be there for me and want to be with me so my soul was broken because I believed in Rachel. Instead of get discouraged by Mick's insults Mr. Singer made an effort to find out the things she liked and he went and bought her a music album she loved. That act of friendship made her realize what a beautiful person that Mr. Singer was.
Mr. Singer loved altruistically and never got anything back all he wanted was to be loved. If you dont think there are tears welled up in my eyes everyday for Rachel and Jonathan well they are because I love She and Him that much. She may have thought she could just abandon me and that life would go back to normal but I was truly in love with her and when I needed a friend most either she or someone in the family couldnt accept the pain I was in from losing my mother. I came to Dawson Creek at the time to love and escape the hurt and sorrow that besieged my family. I had my mothers blessing, my families blessing, and most of all I thought that I would be blessed by loving Rachel and the Myatts. To this day they do not understand why I write this blog or why would tell them I love them even after they hurt me and even after I have called them out so many times.
Unconditional and true love. Plain and Simple.
God's love can change the world and so I end this blog today with this.
Our Father In The Heavens,
Please let Rachel and her family know I love them and the only thing I want is peace with them. I want Rachel to know she can pick up the phone and resolve this with me and I love her and Jonathan just as much as the day I left her arms and her heart. To all the other Myatts and Friesens you would honor my mothers memory and her love for you because you helped set her free. She believed she was free to go be with God because she believed with Rachel and her family I would be in loving hands. I saw the potential and love in this too but for some reason I was judged and ridiculed. Father forgive me for any sins or transgressions I have made against the Myatts and let them know my current campaign is one to show them how much Rachel means to me. Let them have the strength to come to me and make peace with me. No more hiding, no hurt, just love and a true resolve. I put all my trust in you today O' Lord, Christ, Jehovah, My Father. Thank You for all that You do for us, Your Love, Our Daily Bread, and may all this come to be through faith in you.
AMEN
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