Dear Rachel, Myatt Family, Pastor Glenn, Church of the New Jerusalem and readers worldwide.
God gave me love and an epiphany last night and today. Someone came on my youtube page to youtube and mocked my love for God and it made me realize that truly being a Christian means you will always have to fight a battle. I am sorry that Rachel and her family and Church dont realize how much love I have in their heart for them. As I start traveling the country this week to tell my story I want them to know I love them. I dont want anymore enemies I love you Rachel Myatt and today this song is dedicated to you. You are one of my best friends and to give up on you is to give up on God's love. This is my White Flag. If you have any love in your heart at all I am ready for this to end. I ask God to help me with this but only through the good in your heart can you make the free will choice to end this. I only want Peace and Love with you and if I have to continue to tell my story and go to the ends of the earth letting people know I will. That is how much I love you. I even love you enough to let you go forever all you have to do is pick up the phone and say goodbye. I promised you that months ago but you cant make peace with me and give me any closure to the hurt or things you said because maybe in all this you realize there is a guy the loves you and believe in you and maybe you messed that chance up. Regardless of what your family thought of me Rachel I love you and I forgive you whole soul I would accept you back into my life with no regrets. That is all I have to say today. You are loved. I am going to see one of my favorite bands Cursive tonight with one of my good girlfriends and I can only think of all the hurt we both caused each other so I leave you with this song just for you Rachel from Cursive's album "The Ugly Organ" called "the Recluse" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EeQNmGknak&feature=related If you think I am angry and bitter at you and Im just sitting at home woe is me Rachel I am not. I am still loving, living life, meeting people, traveling, and caring for my fellow man. When I go out tonight it is my group of friends that I started that love music. I have 72 members as of today of people who go out and encourage each other to love music and make new friends. That is the gift God gave me. Rachel I love you more than anyone in the world and I mean that and I wish you knew what it was like to know true peace with those who hurt because I still believe in you.
I love you with all my heart and I will continue with my weary heart and soul to show you that.
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