Getting Even(with Love)

Despair and Deception, Love's ugly little twins
Came a-knocking on my door, I let them in
Darling, you're the punishment for all of my former sins
I let love in

The door it opened just a crack, but Love was shrewd and bold
My life flashed before my eyes, it was a horror to behold
A life-sentence sweeping confetti from the floor of a concrete hole
I let love in

Well I've been bound and gagged and I've been terrorized
And I've been castrated and I've been lobotomized
But never has my tormentor come in such a cunning disguise
I let love in

O Lord, tell me what I done
Please don't leave me here alone
Where are my friends?
My friends are gone
O Lord, tell me what I done
Please don't leave me here alone
Where are my friends?
My friends are gone
I let love in

So if you're sitting all alone and hear a-knocking at you door
and the air is full of promises, well buddy, you've been warned
Far worse to be Love's lover than the lover that Love has scorned
I let love in


Dear Readers, Rachel, Myatt Family, and Church of the New Jerusalem,
I want to talk to you quickly about getting even with people.  The best thing we can do to people who hurt us, put us down, and treat us badly is love them.  That is why Rachel cant respond and her family knows what she did was wrong.  That is why no one has called me on any of this because they know that in their hearts I am for the most part right.   Take a moment to look at one of the last lines from the song I posted above.  It is from the song "Let Love In" from the 1994 album by Nick Cave and the Bad Seed of the same name. 

"Far worse to be Love's lover than the lover that Love has scorned"
If you think about it for a moment that is what Rachel doesn't understand. She almost destroyed me as a person and my love for her and other people entirely.  Instead of try to understand what I was going through her quick judgment and selfish actions caused the aftermath of all this.  She wanted to talk about her rights and her free will but never thought about other people having those free will and rights too.  Like it is my right to tell this story and share with people how She, Pastor Glenn, and the Church of the New Jerusalem treat people.

It was Rachel's arrogance, inconsideration, and self righteousness that led me to this blog.  What was even more disheartening was Pastor Coleman Glenn's thesis basically each time I emailed on Rachel's free will. What about Byron's free will. Am I not free to love and if I am hurt and treated badly am I not allowed to react. See that is where the question lies. Rachel thought she could just be cruel, decietful, and lie and go back to living her life with no consequences for the things she did and that is what this blog is about. I am not going say much more today accept for this.  Rachel I love you and I am going to get even with you.  I am going to get even with you by loving you and continue to let everyone I can know how much I love you and Jonathan.  For putting me down and hurting me the best weapon I can use is just to let you see how you being unkind and unloving to me affected me by letting everyone know how much I love you.  I dont need to put down the New Church or do things to hurt your family or even you. All I have to do is write this blog and pass out fliers telling the story of my love for you with our picture on it and that is getting even with you enough.  I love you and I wish we could make peace but I know that you are so self absorbed and too full of pride to ever look into the good part of your heart that loves me to pick up the phone and be that courageous and end this.  Love always wins over evil so for Easter in honor of Christ sacrifice I am going to send my letter of love to different places all over the world.  If you or anyone in your family rejects to that or anyone in the New Church then respond to this blog and I wont do it otherwise it is a promise I will keep.  See the thing about me Rachel and the thing about you is if I say I am going to do something I will do it and make my best effort to do it just like I said I loved and believed in you. I never gave up on you. I kept loving you even when you mocked my love of God I still was your boyfriend and your dear friend and loved you. So you only have to blame yourself for what happened now.  What person who didn't love you would put so much time and effort into  things as I do.  I have a life which involves God, a sick family, work, music, and I am active in my community but yet I have time every week to show you I love you and want to make amends with you Rachel Myatt.  To her family if you understand the damage that has been done and you are part of the reason that she is not contacting me Get over it!  You know I love her and you know I love Jonathan and you had no idea how much love I had for all of you.  Think about Jesus love this Holy Week and think about what He did for all of us and now think about how I love Rachel so much and only want to follow His example and walk in His light instead of the demonic and evil ways of revenge, retaliation, and vengance.  Yes there is a big difference isn't there.  Love Wins!!!!!!

When you treat your other brothers and sisters in Christ with disrespect Rachel and Church of the New Jerusalem then you do not follow God's law.  I am strong enough, determined enough, and I am not afraid to say what is on my mind nor question the New Church publicly because of Rachel's actions. I am also not afraid to tell others of my experience with the New Church on a Grand Scale so let it be known to all that is also my labor of love.  I reached out to you and you ignored the true problem at hand. I called you out on religious intolerance and bigotry because of the things Rachel said to me. She got that attitude from New Church teachings yet you say all are welcome into the Kingdom of God but you blaspheme not only against someone who wanted to worship with you but someone who loved Rachel so much they pointed out this to the Congregation, the Pastor, and to the New Church Organization. So I am free to spread my word. I will end this blog today with a scripture.

Romans 14:15-17

¹⁵ If your brother or sister is distressed because of what you eat, you are no longer acting in love. Do not by your eating destroy someone for whom Christ died. ¹⁶ Therefore do not let what you know is good be spoken of as evil. ¹⁷ For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit,

Happy Easter Church of the New Jerusalem

I dont know how most people spend their days off but today I am going to donate some items to charity for the Tornado victims in my home state of Texas and then I am going to print some of these letters of love for Rachel and the New Church.  Love and charity is always better than being cruel, unrepentant, unforgiving, and self righteous


from Heavenly Doctrine 106 by Emmanuel Swedenborg
The presence of the Lord with men and angels is according to their state of love and charity. Charity is the image of God. Love to the Lord, consequently the Lord, is within charity, although man does not know it. They who live a life of charity are accepted as citizens both in the world and in heaven. The good of charity is not to be violated. They who are not in charity cannot acknowledge and worship the Lord except from hypocrisy. The forms of hatred and of charity cannot exist together.

I have reached out a hand and olive branch of peace to Rachel, her family, and the New Church yet they ignore it.  So in that passage from Heavenly Doctrine may they see the harm that they do when I am putting my heart and soul into loving them.