Dear Readers,
Before I start this blog today I want you to remember one thing. Everything I have done is because I truly love Rachel Myatt but it has been done because God loves us both. He brought us together and He can put us back together and if my faith were not in HIM then I would have walked away from this along time ago. So today I want to reflect on how much God loves us and why I haven't given up on Rachel Myatt.
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Hebrews 9:28
so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.
1 Corinthians 15:3
For what I received I passed on to you as of first importance : that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures,
Philippians 3:10
I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death,
Dear Brothers and Sisters,
Today is a day to remember what Christ did for us all. He died and gave all so that we may live. However we choose to live gave of Himself so that we had the free will to choose but in the end we will have to answer for the life we lived. I have lived a life of many hardships, one of death, hatred, rejection, hurt and despair. The one thing I never did was forget to always love. It saddens me that not only do Rachel and her family not see the beauty in what I am doing but neither do the New Church or the Pastors. It seems they would rather I just hate and get revenge on Rachel. Maybe she deserves that but it is not in my heart to be like that. What I am doing is showing her even though she hurt me I have a power greater than all the evil and cruelty she laid on me. I have love.
For a moment I want you to take a look at the video above. It was the first one I put on Youtube. I was actually going to get on screen and go off on both Rachel and Pastor Glenn and the Dawson Creek of New Jerusalem but instead I decided to let Rachel know how deeply she hurt me and how much she and Jonathan meant to me and how much I want peace with her. Maybe it made her mad and upset that I would do something like that but it was a step in reaching out to her. It was done completely out of love. I dedicated my whole channel to her. Does that sound like a person who hates Rachel? Do I sound like a person who wishes evil upon someone and just wants to do ill toward them? No! Another point I want to make clear is that Pastor Glenn wont tell you about all the people who wrote him because they were disgusted with Rachel's behavior. In fact people wrote Pastor Glenn, Pastor Cooper, and Pastor Heindrichs the three main Pastors of the Canadian Church. Was I out to ruin Rachel's reputation or make her ashamed. No here is what was in my heart. I will honestly tell you. My intentions were to show her that she hurt me deeply with her course of actions. I was traumatized by her lies and her cruelty to me as someone who would have done anything for her and Jonathan. She didnt care how far I had come our how much I went through to be with her and I was respectful of her feelings because I gave her a chance to walk away from me when I left the airport and if she loved me she would have did it then. I was and still am in love with her so to give me any false hope especially to a person who had just lost their mother 3 weeks earlier was very mean, it was selfish, and it was inconsiderate. I love her and Jonathan with all my being and if The Myatts and Rachel cannot see that true love then how can they be following Christ example. I have endured people hacking my computer, people of the New Church trying to read my blog incognito and because of my knowledge of computers since age 3 I know how to find out about a lot of intel that they have no idea. If you truly want to read my blog read it and comment on it. If you think I am not being fair to Rachel then write about it dont sneak and read my blog? I am not hiding. You can sue me, you can lie about me, you can say I am crazy, put me down, call me a stalker, or whatever you want to do. You wont break my spirit or my love because this love I have for Rachel has always been through Christ and that is what today is about love. I am going to share with you my prayer for today and then a quick story about the song in the video above.
Our Heavenly Father,
Thank you for laying down your life so that we may truly live a life of love through Your Sacrifice. Thank you for the daily bread you give to us everyday through Your scripture, Your Word, and Your Love. This Easter Sunday we celebrate You rising up and making us all free from sin. I ask of You Oh Lord to keep love in my heart toward Rachel Myatt, The Myatt Family, and The Church of the New Jerusalem and I ask all of these people to look in my heart and see the true love I have and forgive me and forgive them for the tresspasses we have made against each other. I ask that Rachel sees the true purpose of my blog and that is to love her and show her I am a man that believes in her with all my heart and that I would go to the ends of the earth for her and Jonthan. She is my neighbor, my best friend, my Sister and Christ and though I have said some things I am not proud of against her I love her as my own body and I ask that you return to her that love and show her that our friendship was not in vain but this was only a test of how strong a true love from you Lord can be. I know you brought me into Rachel and Jonathan's life with purpose and design and if it was your will for me to walk away from them I would have but I know you want me to continue to love her and be patient with her. Please let Howard and Jane know I love their daughter and grandson with all my being and that I still believe in her and would always be there for her and Jonathan. I ask that you let know Pastor Glenn know it is not my intention to attack him or the Congregation but to let him know in him I see the great potential and love he has for God so that is why my blog and my comments are challenges for him to live the life and help others to live the life that he preaches in his sermons. I look to you Lord for all these things on this Holy Day of your ascendance. I believe if I ask of you Oh Lord that you will deliver onto me these things. I ask with a humble heart and as your servant. I am Your servant, Rachel and Jonathans servant, the Myatts servant, Pastor Glenn's servant all the Christians and Non Christians I serve because I am just a man who wants to wash the feet of others and love others in Your footsteps Lord. I ask all be considered and that you hear my prayer today Lord Jesus Christ
Amen
I am an unashamed Christian and those who know me here know that I bless people everyday. I pray with others. I give of my time to others when I could be selfish. Rachel didnt understand that is what kind of love I had for her and Jonathan and the love I have for her transcended any romantic relationship it was a love of friendship, mind, body, soul, and spirit. I only wanted to be one with her in the Lord and I chose her over other potential partners because they did not want the Lord in their life and I could not force it upon them and they didnt want to hear of Him. God has to come to you in His own time and at the worst time in my life God came to me and said just keep loving Rachel. Maybe what I am doing is radical and extreme but people believe in me and most of all Rachel is being showed that my promise of unconditional love is true and that I do love her enough to make a big fuss about it.
Before I end this blog today I want to share with you the story of the song above and why I chose it to let Rachel and Jonathan know how much I love them. At the very end of the 90s I picked up a cd called Moonhut by a young lady named Kim Fox. I was blown away by her vocals and the honesty in her songs. One song brought me to tears but it wasn't her song it was a cover of "Atlantic City" from Bruce Springsteen's 1982 stripped down classic Nebraska. It changed my life. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kUs4fL13lg So when Rachel abandoned me and was so cruel to me I remember the chorus Everything Dies Baby thats a Fact but Baby Everything That Dies Someday Comes Back" I thought of Christ resurrection and of His love and His promise and how much I truly love Rachel. I know that only through Christ will she come back so I put my faith in Him. In 2004 I was saddened by the break up of my other Canadian girlfriend Amber who became one of my best friends after the break up. She later told me how sorry she was and what a good guy I was so I know what I am doing with Rachel is not wasted. I believe Rachel loves me more that she can let anyone know. Anyways I wrote Ms. Fox and told her how her music had helped me through the troubled time in my life and how she had been an inspiration of mine. Weeks went by and I came home to a very heartfelt and loving response. I will never forget her kindness and I promised one day to meet her and I hope that one day we still can. That is the beauty of life and love and Rachel cant see the beauty of us knowing and lovng each other touched my life. Even from so far away. I believed in her and have never stopped loving her. I dont write on here to hurt her or her family. Yes at time I have been angry and frustrated but deep in my heart I love her. I love her with all my heart. So I just want to end this blog today with Happy Easter Rachel Myatt and Jonathan Myatt. Happy Easter Myatt Family, Friesen Family, and Baker Family. I want to to wish Pastor Glenn and his Family Happy Easter, the Entire Dawson Creek New Church Happy Easter, The New Church World Wide Happy Easter and Happy Easter to You my dear Readers whether you be Christian or Not may the Lord's love find you like it has found and touched me.
God Bless All
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