Dear Readers,
Please take a minute to watch the first 35 seconds of this video from the animated short called Superman/Shazam! : The Return of Black Adam. The words that little Billy Batson utter to Clark Kent couldn't be more true. "Be Good and Good Will Follow". After all I have been through especially with Rachel Myatt I still get up everyday and show love, kindness, compassion and humility. In the time since Rachel abandoned me I have done many things but the one thing I haven't stopped doing is loving her. When that happens then the good in my heart is truly gone. I want to say a few things today in this blog about the good in my heart that maybe people have overlooked in this blog.
I always believed in Rachel and even when she doubted herself I reassured her and I told her I believed in her love. Just because other men hurt her and abandoned her didnt mean I was going to and she treated me the worst because I was the one willing to walk through fire to be with her. What does that tell you about her character? I was always willing to meet her halfway in our discussions. I didn't turn her away because of her faith. I never made excuses for loving her or being with her I just knew it was what God wanted and that I needed to follow this path. In the end Rachel cursed me. She acted like she was ashamed of me and what being with me would bring around her family and friends. She called me all sorts of names, obscenities, blasphemed against my dead mother and had nothing but cruel things to say to me. Why? Because I loved her. I truly loved her and besides her family she had never had anyone love her and believe in her like I did. I saw the reactions on the parents of the kids that she took care of when they picked them up when I was there and I feel that some of them objected to me also and Rachel took that as a threat also to her being a foster mother and childcare administrator. So she took that out on me too. Rachel couldnt love me for who I was and I loved her for all she was. She took the easy way out by being cruel, evil, and uncaring about anything I felt or that I loved her so it is always easy to take the evil or wide road out but it is never easy to take the narrow road of good and if Rachel, The Myatt Family, and the Church of the New Jerusalem will take a moment to actually read this blog and see that I have taken a hard road of being good then they will open their eyes to what Rachel being silent and unresponsive is doing in killing my love to her. Love is hard its never easy but it can be rewarding. If we ignore it and push it aside and continue to hurt others then what we are left with is something even worst.
For you Church of the New Jerusalem or New Church Members,
Swedenborg talks about the truth being revealed after death since it is known to God. Yet people like Rachel tried to decieve God and hide who they are as God is their own true Self. I have nothing to hide I have put my life, my love, and my feelings out in the open for all to see. I have let Rachel, her family, the Church of the New Jerusalem and all who wanted to see react, not react, and see what is in my heart. That is what being good is about. We admit to the evils so that we can move closer to the realm of good and to become the light , the wisdom, and the truth that is God. Regeneration, Repentance, and Reaffirmation. These are what make us good people.
I was always appauled when Pastor Coleman Glenn would answer my emails and think just because I questioned his beliefs that I would hate him. I have never had a hateful bone in my body but I have been hated by others for my skin color, for my love of God, and for just being who I am. I know only how to love. I have flaws like any other human being but the one thing I cant do because it has shown to me on such a regular basis is hate. It meant so much to me to make peace with Rachel and if you cant see after all this time that I truly love you Rachel and her family then you are the ones who are not living up to your doctrine. I have asked for peace with you, to talk, to make amends. I will fly to Dawson Creek sit in a room with all of you for a couple of hours and come back home. I will fly to Bryn Athyn and in a room full of people and testify my love for Rachel and give a testimony of how the Lord saved me to continue to love Rachel not to hurt her but none of you want ot hear that. You want hurt, seperation, hate, and for Rachel to never be responsible for her actions. You want to run scared and not post things up on the internet on facebook or youtube thinking I will use them against you but that is the furthest thing from my mind. I put up the pictures on this blog as a symbol of my love for Rachel and Jonathan so Jessica, Sarah, Amanda I am not out to bother any of you or anyone else but to let you know I love your sister and she means the world to me. Those are my words and that is my promise to you through the Lord. I cannot break that promise. If I wanted to Rachel I still have all the videos you sent me they were saved and I could have used them to hurt you and your family but instead I never did. You think because I sent out letters to people and print fliers about the New Church I want revenge on you. It is far from the truth I do it because I love you.
Rachel Myatt I am trying to show you that without a doubt I love you and Jonathan and that I am the man who would move heaven and earth for you too. You can make me into the villian. You can try to make me look crazy, insane, a stalker or whatever people do when they want to put down people they have hurt but you know deep in your heart I love you with all my heart and that has never been my intention.
I am saddened that you would ever say the things you did against and about me. I am sorry you don't understand the grieving process or that my act of love to come see you and Jonathan at the worst time in my life was one of the least selfish sacrifices I could do. My family even wanted me to come see you and Jonathan because they thought it would help with the healing and you cut me down, Put me down, then leave me for dead and yet here I am I still love you and believe in you.
If you want to continue living your life hurting people, lying to them, and making a mess for others to clean up that is fine. I just want you to know I am going to continue with my course of actions to show you how much I love you and hope you will have the courage to pick up the phone or drop me an email soon but just know Rachel I am not afraid of saying or doing anything anymore. You hurt me so bad you made me numb. So I have no fear. What I have is love and hope and when you have that it overcomes fear. So yes I am doing all the things I say I am and it is up to you and your family to discuss the best way to deal with it. If you want to sue me for loving you and taking my hurt out on you by blog and a writing campaign that is fine with me. I have nothing to hide from a judge or a court of law and I will gladly tell the whole story and give everyone everything you ever wrote me and said to me. I kept all the correspondence with all the Pastors and I have all the letters, fliers, and text and email conversations we had. I have nothing to hide. I am going to be Good Rachel Myatt by continue loving you with no regrets and I wont turn back. I believe that if I continue to show you love and that you mean something to me you and your family will evalute the situation and realize that I really do love you and that I am worth a second look. Until then God Bless and realize that I am not giving up or backing down. Just like Our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ never gave up on loving us so I will follow in His footsteps and image and never give up on loving you. I will take the narrow road to love and denounce the road of revenge, evil, and retaliation.
"The words that I speak to you, they are spirit and they are life" (John 6:63).
Rachel Myatt, Myatt Family, Pastor Coleman Glenn, Church of the New Jerusalem you say ou live by your doctrine but you open yourself up to hells by treating me the way you do causing destruction to the good you could do and causing inner chaos and destruction from within the Church.
Apocalypse Explained 817:3
[3] That those who separate the knowledges of truth and good from a life according to them, and who believe that they may be saved by these alone, were represented by "Cain," has been briefly shown in the Arcana Coelestia where Cain and Abel are treated of; to which this shall be added. It is written of Cain: That he was the firstborn of Adam, and that he tilled the ground, and brought of the fruit of the ground an offering to Jehovah; and that Abel was a shepherd of the flock, and brought of the firstlings of his flock and of the fat thereof; also that Jehovah had respect unto the offering of Abel and not unto the offering of Cain, that therefore Cain's anger was kindled and he slew his brother; and that Cain was therefore accursed and rejected from the ground, and became a wanderer and fugitive in the earth; and that Jehovah set a sign upon Cain lest he should be slain, and decreed that whoever should slay him should have vengeance taken on him sevenfold
I am your brother in Christ. You have wronged me and I continue to love all of you. You make excuses through doctrine, you say you are charitable but Rachel in one of her greatest moments to be charitable was cruel, uncaring, and selfish. She didnt live by her words or her doctrine yet here I am still loving, believing, and reaching out to her. So if you can live your lives like that then remember I can live my life spreading the truth and not being afraid to say what is on my mind and what has been done.
It deeply saddens me that it is Palm Sunday and last year for both Easter and Christmas I reached out for peace with this person. Even put an ad up to make peace with her. What would Jesus have done?
God Bless ALL
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