Dear Rachel Myatt, Dear Myatt, Friesen, and Baker Families, Dear Pastor Glenn, Cooper, Heindrich, and Church of the New Jerusalem Worldwide,
It is almost 1:30 am where I am at and I have spent a lot of time tonight thinking about Rachel. I want to say this first because Rachel and everyone in the New Church needs to hear this and take it to heart. The reason I started this blog and have never stopped writing is because of the deep love I was given by Christ for Rachel. Many other people in my lifetime have seen that love and you know what I call them, friend. Even my worst ex girlfriend the one who lied to me, cheated on me, and abandoned me when I stayed right by her side through her Cancer and her hair falling out and everything eventually she realized that I loved her and that how she treated me was wrong. It took and abusive ex husband, a child, and lots of debt for her to realize what a beautiful man I was. We made peace and I told her that no matter what I would always be there for her. It took 7 years for her to see that. When Rachel abandoned me, slandered me as a person, said ill things toward me and my deceased mother, and then tried to play me off as mentally ill when I was grieving it broke not just my heart, but my spirit, and soul. I want you to take a listen to the above video by Chicago called "I Believe" I was 11 years old the first time I heard it and I knew that one day I would meet a woman who would inspire me to revisit this song and all the love it represented to me. Rachel Myatt is the most important woman I have ever met besides my mother. I love her as my friend, my confidant, and my Sister in Christ. Through all this turmoil and pain that was injected and inflicted in my life, Christ has given me the strength to just love her and I have even in the harshest of words I want no ill will to come to Rachel I just want her and her family to know that I was and am the real deal. I love your daughter, sister, mother, aunt, friend or whatever Rachel may be to you with all my heart and the little boy that is her son Jonathan well I couldnt have had more love for a child in my heart for any child that wasnt my own. I love both of them and I dont know why Rachel abandoned me or why she was so cruel and hateful to me when I really needed a friend and someone to love and love me. I believed in her and Jonathan and I still do. Those who know me know that I had such a hard childhood that when I needed help it was rarely there so as I grew into an adult I would suffer and just do everything myself whether it be physically or financially I didnt want help because I felt it better to just give and not be selfish and think of me but think of what I could do for others. Back in November my car's transmission went out and I had to save up to just get a new one it took me exactly a month. I didnt ask others for rides I spent 40 to 60 dollars a day to get across town to get to work and so you do the math for about 25 days. Some people laughed at me and they said I was stupid but I was simply showing them that I am used to people abandoning me, not helping me, and not being there for me. When I met Rachel I finally felt like I could trust someone. I finally felt I had a true friend that I could be there for and she would be there for me and that she wasnt afraid to know me for who I was. I guess I dont deserve to be loved though or have a family because all the New Church people seem to think it was ok to play with my feelings and be treated disrespectful and lied too. Rachel you are so selfish did you ever stop and think how much a family meant to me and I would not want to make that commitment or try to love someone if I didnt truly believe in them. Think about all I went to be with you including my mom dying out of nowhere in the process still everyone including me knew that my love for you and Jonathan was pure, it was strong, and most of all it made me a better man. So I ask you all you Church of The New Jerusalem people who have a wife or kids or any family? Put yourself in my shoes and think about all I have told you in this blog in the past year and a half and then think of what Rachel did and maybe you will see why I am warranted in my feelings. God gave us free will but we have a choice of how we use it. We can use it wisely to help others, love, and be charitable or we can be wicked, hedonistic, and selfish and use it for our own ruse, pleasure, and self desire. So if you are holding your wife, or kissing your kids goodnight, or whatever think of how much that would mean to a single guy who is in his mid 30s who truly loved Rachel and all he has ever wanted was a wife and family. I have had a messed up life but that has been my biggest dream and Rachel and Jonathan were my dream. I have never been a criminal, I am a Straight Edge Christian meaning I dont do drugs, drink(Remember Howard Myatt at Boston's when I met you and Clayton and you asked if I wanted a beer I declined and it was because of my beliefs) , or have promiscious sex. I want to be in a loving monogamous relationship and love that person in spirit like I did with Rachel Myatt. I just want you all to realize how much I love this person and before I start my next Campaign and Flyer distribution entitled "How the Church Of The New Jerusalem Turned Me Away" dedicated to Pastor Coleman Glenn and Rachel Myatt , I want you to realize why I am doing it. It is not because I hate either one of them it is because they looked over the fact that I was grieving and tried to make me into some crazy person and like I was not normal. I reached out for love but all I got was excuses, how its ok to treat people evil or wrong in some instances, and how Rachel's free will somehow trumped mine. If anyone wants my correspondence with any of the New Church Pastors I will be glad to send it to them I do not lie about things when it comes to God and other peoples religious beliefs. That is what saddens me the most about all this if we are supposed to be all Christians then why did I get treated the way I did especially when I brought this to the Church out of Love. It may not have been something a conventional person would have been done but I am not some cookie cutter sheep I am Byron and even Rachel knows I am strong, I am different, and I have more love than most people could dream of. She didnt want to acknowledge that though after all the hateful and cruel things she said to me and her deciet and lies to me. I am not sorry for Loving and being steadfast in my love for Rachel and Jonathan. I am sorry to any of her family if they think that I am out to get either Rachel, ruin her reputation, or hurt anyone in her family. I love you all as my brothers and sisters and I truly wanted us to be family that was my dream. I love Rachel Myatt, Church of the New Jerusalem and if you want to see a change then be the change you want to see. I am going to go on tour again and people will start getting letters in the mail to know that I am serious about this campaign. God's work is one of love and I will continue to love those who treat me as enemies, Rachel you went from my best friend to treating me like an enemy all in the span of 14 hours and that is why a lot of this is happening to you. You are not loyal, truthful, or kind to people and maybe this is God's way of telling you, that you need to change. You turned away a man who love you and your child and truly wanted you. You squandered a true love and a true friend for what? To be selfish, cruel, and most of all blaspheme against my dead mother. If Anyone, Anyone in the New Church or Rachel's family can write me and give me a reason I deserved to be treated like that I will immediately take this blog down and all things pertaining to my love to Rachel. If you can give me a Premise, a Body, and Conclusion of why I deserved to be lied to, decieved, and treated like dirt when all I did was love her with all my heart then I will promise to end all this now. No one can or will, will they? So I end this blog early in the morning with hope that Rachel knows how much I love her and that no matter how cruel she is or if she keeps hiding I will love her. I will follow Christ example and just tell my story and love and it is her loss, Pastor Coleman Glenn's loss and the New Church for passing me by, putting me down, and not being there for someone when they reached out to you for love, kindness, and wanted to worship with you. That is the truth and that is what will be distibuted in North America next week.
God Bless ALL
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