A Dedication To My Friend and Sister in Christ I Love and Cherish.
"The Letters To Rachel Project"
This site is not meant to demean nor defame my friend in anyway it is a heartfelt attempt at peace and reconciliation
I dont think I can put it in simpler terms. I love you. I mean you and your family and faith no harm. I want peace, I want you to talk to me, and I care about you. If you cant see that then maybe you aren't seeing the beauty in what God has always put before you.
Dear Rachel, Myatt Family, and Church of the New Jerusalem,
The song above basically sums up my relationship with Rachel. Just because I was a little different didnt make me any less beautiful and the fact that I was grieving and loved Rachel enough to drop everything in the middle of losing my mother should have let Rachel know how much more I loved her and Jonathan. Instead she put me down, ridiculed me, and was just a horrible person. If her family influenced her not to be with me then that is even sadder. Just the simple words in this song can show how people who are judgmental, arrogant, and think they are better than others not only lose out on loving others but the push the people they hurt and think they are better than to new places. So in effect when Rachel abandoned me, put me down, and treated me like a mentally ill person(I spent my life working around some mentally ill people and you should not treat them anything less than a person) when I was just a little under the weather from my moms death she made me become more. Now Rachel, her family, and the New Church have to deal with the aftermath and they dont like the results. Rachel has to hide, she has to cower, and she brought the shame on herself. I had nothing but love for her and her family. It was true love. I dreamed of all of them being in my life and I wanted to be with Rachel and Jonathan forever in heaven and on earth. Now that my Mom and Rachel's Grandfather are in heaven maybe they have met and talked about this maybe not. Maybe that day will come but I do know one thing. I have loved and cared about many people and Rachel has to have been the most selfish, arrogant, and inconsiderate person I ever met. She is kind to children but very hateful, hurtful, and bad in her relationships with adults especially men. Her worldview stems from the Church of the New Jerusalem and if the way she treats people is the pathos of that faith then that has been the reason I rallied against Pastor Glenn and the way he teaches things. You claim to be of love, charity, and forgiveness and I see selfishness, arrogance, and a lack of compassion for people who arent of the New Church. It is like the parable of the Good Samaritan. It doesnt matter the color, the religion, or the creed of someone. If someone is in trouble you help them. You dont pass them by, you dont make excuses, you dont judge them or belittle them. You find the love in your heart to love them and if time and God permits you truly look into their heart. There is much more satisfaction out life when you live in love of others instead of love of self. Not a damn person in Rachel's family can say they didnt see how much I loved her and Amanda disappointed me the most because she seemed to truly want Rachel to be loved and I felt good vibes from her but alas people are shady and decietful and so I dont expect too much from anyone. So go ahead step on someone elses love and dream but just dont expect that person to sit back and not react and you go on living life the same. There are consequences for everything you do. I reached out for love, reconcilation, and forgiveness and Rachel and Pastor Glenn make excuses for evil that is the difference between my love of God and your love of God, Church of the New Jerusalem I am not going to follow the selfish wide road of not reaching out for forgiveness and love. I am going to follow Christ narrow road of love, reconcilation, and peace.
Luke 10:25-37
The Parable of the Good Samaritan
25 On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” 26 “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?” 27 He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’[a]; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[b]” 28 “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.” 29 But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?” 30 In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead.31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side.33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him.34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him.35 The next day he took out two denarii[c] and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’ 36 “Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?” 37 The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.” Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”
And this is straight from the New Church Website.
"The New Church is a new Christianity that provides a clear path to happiness and addresses your questions about God, love, and life after death with answers that make sense. The teachings are immediately practical and deeply spiritual: it is a religion to be lived, not just believed."
Hmm! A clear path to happiness then how come the people are so uptight and selfish that they have to put down others and infringe on others happiness to make themselves seem viable. Doesn't seem too happy to me. It seems like Swedenborg wanted people to live a life of hedonism and self interest with a sense of happiness before following God's Word and being truly happy even through times of tribulation and trials. God Bless ALL
Dear Readers,
When I was about 15 and dreamed of truly falling in love the song above "Spring" by British group Saint Etienne was one that I would daydream about that special girl to. Rachel was that special woman after all the time I waited she was the one. Now I dont care about women because I know they only lie, decieve, cheat, and treat people like dirt. Rachel's lies, disrespect to my mother, her introducing me to her family then treating me like a leper. Her total lack of caring or love for anyone but herself has led me to this point. This is also a response of sorts to Pastor Coleman Glenn and his attempt at likening dwindling faith in God to the springtime which can be viewed here. http://www.newchurch.ca/uploads/Dawson_Newsletter_May_2012.pdf
See what saddens me here is when I was at my low and I tried to compare my love for Rachel to spring and show how God has given me strength all Pastor Glenn did was make up reasons for why it seemed Rachel was right and I was wrong. It was never well Rachel was or could be wrong it was lets justify the New Church stance on this and if it doesnt follow those guidelines then you are basically wrong. It wasnt till I started presenting truth and proof in these blogs and posting up things that he realized what Rachel had done and to what extent. Rachel you may be living your life and thinking that none of this will affect you but it eventually will my friend it already has. You have exploited me, your family, your child, your Pastor, your Church and all it would have taken was a couple of kind words or for you to be truthful. You think that all of this is some joke and one day you will wake up and I wont be here. There is a reason I am still here and it is the Lord and His plan for me. Rachel is being taught a lesson because the Lord wanted me to take this course. Did he speak directly to me in my earn No! He has given me insight and discernment in my calling and has steered me away from the evil of hating Rachel and instead to come at her with love, with truth, and with her own words. Im sure people have told Rachel not to contact me and those were probably the same people who discouraged her from being with me. It is people like that who mess up beautiful things between people who love each other. I truly believed Rachel loved me but I want to say these couple of things as points of why she could have just abandoned me.
1. She was ashamed of me. Plain and simple when I am supposed to be your boyfriend and you introduce me to your father as your friend that was painful and hurtful. You didnt think I picked up on that but I did Rachel I did.
2. Maybe because I was helping you take care of the children you care over when I was there some of the parents saw me and didnt want their children around me maybe because of the color of my skin or they didnt like the way I looked. Either way the shock on one of them's face when they saw me made me feel like Rachel felt she would lose a lot of money if she kept dating me and the parents didnt like me.
3. I had just lost a parent and I was telling Rachel and Jane a lot of personal things especially the relationship with my father. We have never gotten along and I wanted them both to know what was on my mind and it was having to face my remaining parent on these terms. Now that my father is sick I am much more cordial and he respects me more but we still arent close. That didnt mean I was mentally ill, nor did it mean I was unstable. It mean I trust and loved Rachel and wanted to love Jane enough to know what I had been through that made me the man I am and it was my Lord Jesus Christ and my mothers love that always kept me peaceful and loving in this life.
4. The fact that anyone would say the evil things that Rachel said to me has just hurt me everyday because I spent so much time loving her and telling her the truth about my life and for her to take all the tragic things I had been through and throw them back in my face, call me crazy, mentally ill, sick, and damaged was unbelievable. The worst thing of all is that she called me manipulative because I wanted to die. I had just lost my mother for the love of God you said you loved me and wanted to be with me then you crush me by not only texting me to break up with me from 2000 miles away but you didnt even have the nerve to tell me what was on your mind when I was with you. Instead you made up assumptions and false scenarios then you called me a liar which really is why I had to write this blog to prove your cruelty and the way you act towards people who love you.I want to point out another thing. If your mother or grandmother right now who are grieving would you call them loser, put them down, call them damaged, talk ill of your grandfather or do any of the things you did toward me someone you were supposed to love. Think of the hypocrisy Rachel and Pastor Glenn.
Evil things I could have done. I could have written the Foster Agency and said how you endangered kids by letting me a total stranger be around them when even I asked that I come at a time when I didnt have to be around the kids. As much as I love kids I dont want to be in a situation where anyone could say I hurt their child and you Rachel Myatt put me in that situation. Did I retaliate and try to get revenge in that way? No I kept loving you and wrote this blog. I could have put pictures here and on Youtube that would hurt you and your family but no they were all real pictures nothing superimposed or fake they were all your pictures. I put a picture of Jonathan and you up only to prove how much I love you. Otherwise I believe children are off limits and you shouldnt put them up on the internet too much because it is unsafe for them.
I could have wrote hate letters to all the New Churches around the world but instead I wrote how much I loved you and Jonathan and needed you in my life.
I could have trashed you and Pastor Glenn on multiple occasions but for the most part I have written about the love and respect I have for you and how you have continued to turn a blind eye to that trying to pretend I dont exist.
Pastor Glenn if you truly want to know about springtime then look at my situation with Rachel. Look at how Rachel treats people. Look at how I have never given up on her and put God first and have been willing to face email intrusion, legal threats, insults, and just uncaring and disrespect from you and Rachel. I did this out of love but instead of see the hope and the love that God has led me to see you continue to make excuses and not see that this is my Springtime. This is my heart opening and putting aside the hurt between Rachel and I and trying to make what brought us together new again. I love Rachel Myatt I still believe she is one of my best friends and I have never stopped believing that.
Rachel You broke your promises to me, you slandered me and said hurtful ill things toward my mother, you lied, you abandoned me, and worst of all you were the woman you said you wouldnt be to me. A total hypocrite, mean, full of self pride, uncaring and unkind. Through all that I still pray for you and about you and I still love you and Jonathan with all my heart. I just want you to think about that tonight Rachel and Pastor Coleman Glenn.
1 Peter 4:8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
Zechariah 8:17 do not plot evil against each other, and do not love to swear falsely. I hate all this,” declares the LORD.
Ask Youself This Question Rachel Myatt and Pastor Glenn.
What Legacy Do You Want to Leave in your Ministry for The Church of the New Jerusalem?
Do you want to know that someone came to you in both peace, grief, and love and you turned them away and then tried to justify that selfishly?
Or do you want to know that it was resolved in love and that person forgave you and you forgave them and that God's Love came before all the transgressions, hurt, and pain.
Dear Rachel, Myatt Family, and Church of The New Jerusalem,
Love is the only way. Rachel can hide and think that she is living her life free of any of this but each time someone reads this blog it is a piece of her actions. Each time someone associates my blog with the Church of the New Jerusalem it matters. Each time someone ask me about what happened and they think Rachel is a horrible person it matters. The fact that she has to hide away and have no internet prescence and try to hide any trace of our relationship even though I have all sorts of proof matters. In the end all I ever wanted was love and even Rachel knew I deserved that which is why I cant understand why she was so evil, so hateful, and so cruel but that is her life to live and she has to deal with the consequences. It hasn't stopped me from loving people and I haven't given up on her or love. She is the one who will have to look in the mirror and her family if they had anything against me and made Rachel feel I was not a good choice they missed out and didn't see the love that I had and still have because of being to quick to judge. I never asked for my mother to die and I am sorry that for whatever reason Rachel mistook grief with not being interested in her. I had so much on my plate but the one thing that mattered most was my love for Rachel and Jonathan Myatt. I dedicate this song "From A Shell" by Lisa Germano to Rachel, the Myatt Family, Friesen Family, and Baker Family and Pastor Glenn and the New Church as a symbol of my love for Rachel and Jonathan today. I wish you all blessings and love even if you don't wish me peace which I seek with dear Rachel.
My Heavenly Father,
I ask that you let Rachel know how much I love her and Jonathan and help us find peace. I know that through you Rachel can find it in her heart to be in my life again and she will realize that I am her true friend. I know that despite all the pain and hurt Lord you want me to love and that is what I seek to do. I ask that you keep my heart pure and take away the evils of revenge, retaliation, and anger and fill them with more love for Rachel and her family. I ask that you bestow blessings on Rachel, Jonathan, Jane, Howard, Dorothy, Amanda, Rebecca, Sarah, Clayton, Jessica, and Pastor Glenn and all his family. Even if they dont know how much love in my heart I have for them. I will not stop wishing for good for them. I know Father that you put this love in my heart for Rachel and I have seen how many people this love has touched so I want Rachel to know she is Loved so much by You that in me you sent a true friend one who would sacrifice even his life for Her and Jonathan because he loves you Lord and wants to be as servant to all those around him. I humbly ask that you give insight to those who are ignoring my call for love and reconciliaton to look deep into their hearts and see all the love I have to give to them. Please Lord take me and make me today into a vessel of love so great and break the chains that bind me to any sadness and hurt with Rachel and give me a love so great that she and I forgive and make peace. Love is the only way and I know this so in the coming months Lord make my heart strong and give me the wisdom to show Rachel she and Jonathan mean the world to me. I ask you to restore the heart of despair that grew inside of me with a heart of hope and love. I thank you for everything you do for all of us each day Lord and ask your blessings upon each person on Earth.
Amen
Philippians 1:8-10
8 God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus.
9 And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10 so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ,
Philippians 4:6-7
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I want to end this blog today with this. Each day for a couple of minutes I shed a few tears. I dedicate the song "When I Die" by Lush to Rachel and Jonathan because it feels like a piece of me has died without you. I look at my pictures of Rachel and Jonathan, I pray, and I just let God know how much I love them. I write this blog because I wanted Rachel to see that someone could love her for all that she is and love her son also and I never would have left her side. I had all the beautiful intelligent women in the world here and I was willing to give my heart to God and to come to Canada for two people who mean so much to me and always will. Rachel, Myatt or Friesen Family, Pastor Glenn or anyone of the New Church. That is how much I love Rachel and Jonathan.
Dear Readers,
This is just a quick contrast that you can make between a blog I wrote weeks ago. http://iloverachelmyatt.blogspot.com/2012/02/i-love-her-so-muchmy-tired-weary-soul.html and the one that Pastor Glenn just put up on his blog site. http://www.patheos.com/blogs/goodandtruth/2012/05/walking-on-water/
At my lowest moment at this ordeal between Rachel and I God saved me and lifted me up. He made me strong and my love for Him has only grown. What I wish that Rachel, Her Family, Pastor Glenn and the Church of the New Jerusalem could see is that they could have welcomed me, they could have shown me love, they could have taken the time to know me but instead assumptions, misconceptions, and lies and hurtful things were said by Rachel and Pastor Glenn who I had nothing but respect for seemed only to make excuses and not even acknowledge that Rachel treating me a certain way during my grieving process was wrong. It was evil plain and simple and I reacted with sadness and more grief. I didnt grieve so much for my mom who passed in eternal life but for the love I had for Rachel here on our earthly life that she and I still exist and live in this realm. My challenge in the next month is for Rachel, Pastor Glenn, and the Myatt Family to reach out to me. Rachel most of all. I want a handwritten letter if you are going to do this. I have already started my campaign in my home state but it has a twist. I will affect the New Church in my state but it will be a shock when others hear of what I am doing. The one thing I can say is that I love Rachel, Her Family, and Pastor Glenn and if they truly wanted to show their faith in God and their love and charity picking up the phone and ending this with me would be the kindest, most loving, and endearing path not the one of us ignoring each other and being distant. Rachel Myatt was my best friend and I till this day love her with all my heart. So Pastor Glenn and Rachel I want you to read this blog today by another New Church Pastor and try not to focus on the sexual orientation part of the blog but focus on the loving and welcoming of others even those who think different or are different from what we are used to. So I end this blog tonight with a blog by Chuck Blair. http://blog.newchurchlive.tv/2012/05/a-glass-of-water-the-third-way-and-the-issue-of-sexual-orientation/
Please read the comments that are at the bottom of the blog because that is what is really inspiring.
I have this one thing left to say before this blog is done tonight. Rachel we were and are two different people and that is why I fell in love with you. I didnt want a clone of me or someone just like me. I wanted to learn from you and Jonathan and I wanted to show you what I knew. You spent so much time labeling me judging me and finding flaws with me and I did exactly the opposite. I found the things that I loved about you and they outweighed the flaws and imperfections. You wanted to argue and be right I wanted peace. You didnt want to accept my religion I wanted to learn more about you. You spent so much time not letting yourself be loved by me and loving me back that you missed out. You were very cruel, unkind, and considerate and you never once thought about how your actions would affect me after the death of my mother it was all about Rachel and her feelings and what she wanted instead of it being about Rachel and Byron. I put you and Jonathan first and maybe other guys hurt you and didnt love you but I did. Think of all I went through to get to you and I was in love with you. I still am. So Rachel I pray tonight that you and I make peace. It is never too late. I will always love you. I want peace with you, with your family, with Pastor Glenn, and with the New Church but I cant do it alone. First I need God and second I need all of you. The choice is yours, my glass of water is out, my white dove of peace is out, and all my love is reaching out to you. God is love and He has carried me this whole time and given me the strength to continue to Love Rachel Myatt
Dear Rachel, Myatt and Friesen Families, and Church of the New Jerusalem, Dawson Creek and Worldwide.
James 1:1-8
Trials and Temptations
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
To Jane Myatt. I am sorry for your loss and it deeply saddens me. I hope that your daughter thinks about what she said and the hurtful things she did and looks at what it really means to lose a parent and someone close to you. I love your daughter and grandson with all my heart and nothing I have done has been to hurt either one of them but to show her that I believed in her and would have never left her and never did. I also wanted to show her that one person can make a difference if they put the Lord first and not man. That is what true love is about. I would have weathered the storm and accepted and loved her for all that she is and all that she would become. I will only say I bless you and your family and send my condolences during your time of grieving and mourning. I dedicated the song above to your daughter because it was one of the songs I sent her when we decided to be together to let her know I was not fairweather and I wanted to be with her and my love was real.
To Rachel Myatt. I am sorry for your loss and I hope in the wake of things you think about all the things you said to me when I needed you to be there for me. If your mother or someone else in your family was hurting due to your loss you wouldnt call them crazy, put them down, or lie to them or hurt them. Rachel you were my best friend you were my family and you meant so much to me. My family was very supportive in my love for you in a way they had never been before and when my mother passed away all she wanted was for me to come see you and live my life with and for you and Jonathan. That is why she blessed your family in her passing day. I am sorry for whatever reason you couldn't see how deeply and truly I loved you and Jonathan. Every moment I spent with you meant something to me but you couldn't look past the fact that I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and still loved you and Jonathan enough to put that aside and keep my promise and love to you. I still love you with all my heart and that is why I soldier on with this campaign. You can be mad at me, you can sue me, you can hate me but I know that my path and the cross that I bear is one to love and you can never take that which the Lord instills in us away. I love you Rachel Myatt and I love Jonathan and that will never change. I asked for your forgiveness and I forgave you and I would do anything to make peace with you and have you back in my life but you choose to turn a blind eye and not see the beauty that Christ has given us in forgiveness and reconcilation.
I treated you with respect love and decency Rachel Myatt and I am a firm believer in Karma good and bad. Treat others the way you want to be treated and that energy will be returned to you. You cant keep living your life selfishly and continue to hurt people and step on them and not expect things to happen back to you. There are consequences to your actions and you are dealing with them now.
Colossians 1:20 and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.
To Pastor Coleman Glenn.
You deeply hurt me and shocked me as a Pastor. As you write a memorial speech for someone who passed did you ever think about how you never acknowledged the pain I was going through losing my mother and how all you talked about was Rachel's free will and tried to justify that and never once thinking about me losing a parent. That is why I am upset and saddened by you as a Pastor. I am not out to hold a vendetta or wish evil upon you. My campaign and protest is one of love and one of maybe getting the New Church to see some of the errors and contradictions in your teachings. The most dishearting part about this all is that I came to you and Rachel with open arms and you turned me away and then would get on your blog and complain that people didnt want to hear your message. In order to get people to listen to what you have to say you have to listen to what they have to say first. Rachel always tried to win arguements over me and it was hard for her just to agree to disagree. She always wanted to prove me wrong and it seems like this pride and selfishness stems from the arrogance and self love through Swedenborgs teachings. As a scholar of Christianity in whole I can tell you that the way you come across is very disheartening and not very loving. I cant say the same for other Pastors who contacted me because their discernment was very loving and caring. I just want bless you and your ministry even if you cant see the love in my heart and have turned me away. I will send a donation to a New Church Charity of my choice in honor of Dawson Creek later this month and tell them why I am sending it. God Bless.
Dear Readers you can hide from what you did in the past but eventually if you do things to hurt other people they will come back to you in some way shape or form. You dont have to live in the past and it is best you move forward but our past defines what we can become in the future. I could have been dead, I could have hated Rachel, I could have done things besides a loving campaign to smear her name and besmerch her family and their reputation but most who read this get that I love her very much and I have got compliments and others have used this blog on their websites as examples of Christian love. I am not perfect nor do I claim to be but one thing I know and will always know. I love you Rachel Myatt as much as I say I do and I wanted you and your son and I would have never left either of you till my dying day.
“Woman, transgress not beyond the limits of Heaven’s mercy!” cried the Reverend Mr. Wilson, more harshly than before. “That little babe hath been gifted with a voice, to second and confirm the counsel which thou hast heard. Speak out the name! That, and thy repentance, may avail to take the scarlet letter off thy breast.” “Never,” replied Hester Prynne, looking, not at Mr. Wilson, but into the deep and troubled eyes of the younger clergyman. “It is too deeply branded. Ye cannot take it off. And would that I might endure his agony as well as mine!” - from The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
Im not going to live my life in regret because I dont and never have regretted my love for you. I never doubted you, you constantly doubted me and other people so the scripture that I shared at the first of this blog is for you Rachel. My faith in God has never wavered nor has my love for you because I put Him first. I am not out to seek revenge, I am out for reconcilation, love, and forgiveness so anyone trying to make it out to be more then you are mistaken. Will I continue my campaign yes in two weeks I will go at it full scale but I will not do anything other than write this blog in respect for Rachel and her family losing someone special. Even if she didnt respect my mothers passing and show me love I cannot be evil and so anything to retaliate all I can do is wish the Friesen, Myatt and any other families my love and condolences in losing a Matriach. God Bless.
My Heavenly Father
Give me the strength to continue to love Rachel. Make my heart pure and let the evils inside me be cast away. Let Your Love and Wisdom guide me and make me whole. Whatever decisions I make in showing Rachel and Jonathan that I still love them may they be of sound mind and of the greatest care. God help me in my dealings with the New Church and let them know that what I am doing is an act of love and a chance for them to look deeper into their mininstry and the way they treat people of other faiths. We all sin and we all fall short Lord. Please help us all in our spiritual journey and to find the Love and Happiness that only comes through loving you. Please be with the Myatts, Friesens, and anyone who is in Rachel's family during their time of loss and may they all have support, love, and encouragement and realize the blessings of family and friends when people are down. I ask one last thing of you My Lord and that is that you let Rachel know that I still love her and my hand and heart is open to her. I ask that you let her family, Church, and anyone else that reads this that is involved know that I want an end to all this but I will continue to be patient, persistent, and long suffering. I know Your plans for me Lord as you have given me strength, determination, and great will. Forgiveness, Reconcilation, and for Rachel and I to be back in each others lives is in Your hands Lord. Rachel knows that you Lord dont let things happen unless they are supposed to and even though we have free will you do have a hand in our lives. I am here because I love you God, through you I love Rachel and Jonathan and I know you will recieve my prayer and Rachel and her family will eventually realize that my love was and always has been real. I ask that you give us the strength and courage to put aside all transgressions and past pain and make peace. I ask you bless Rachel and her entire family this day Our Lord.
Amen
I love you Rachel Myatt and it is the Promise of Christ Love that I continue to love you and believe in you even if you, your family, and your Church turn a blind eye. God put me in your life for a reason and I am still here for a reason. I Love you and Jonathan with all my heart and the way you left broke me but God healed me and made me so much more. If only you and your family knew how much love was in my heart and how you almost destroyed that you wouldnt have been so quick to judge and say all those terrible things. I only ask now that you have had great loss in your life you think about how you hurt me and how it would hurt your mother if someone treated her ill and made the comments and actions to someone who had just lost a parent. My heart goes out to your whole family but also I hope that it helps you realize how deeply you hurt someone that loved you unconditionally and believed in you.
1 Thessalonians 1:3 We remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.
Romans 4:20-21
20 Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, 21 being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.
