"There is no need to forgive................." The refrain from the first single from Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds single "We No Who U R"
It seems though that this is the "Church of the New Jerusalem" theology. In a couple of days I have a newsletter that will affect Rachel and her family and Pastor Glenn. I wanted to make peace with all of them but havent heard one single word out of any of them. So maybe telling the truth and hurting people is the way to go. Maybe using the New Church theology of follwing evil like Pastor Glenn and Rachel is the way to go.
Maybe telling the truth about Pastor Glenn's Relationship will let Rachel know how her one lie led into another persons life.
Or telling the story of how her sister Jessica adopted 2 black children but yet her family treated me like crap and tried to pretend I didn't exist.
Maybe this whole time Rachel has cared not how my blog has affected her and Jonathan and the reputation of not only her, her family, the Pastor, and Me. Most of all its a witness for the New Church.
What the members of the New Church dont realize. I am the radical love that God speaks about. The kind of love that presses on even after all seems doubtful and hopeless and when I never gave up on Rachel and wanted peace, reconcilation, and making peace you all scoffed at that while claiming to be loving, caring, and of Good and Truth.
Im convinced now that holding my newsletter back is dumb and caring whether anything hurtful happens to Rachel or the Myatt family is pointless. They didnt care about hurting me. They didnt want me to be blessed and have love, a family, and people around me. They wanted to play with that and judge me for grieving, say ill things about me and my family, most of all support the religious bigotry and xenophobia that I endured at their hands. All I ever wanted in my life was to be loved, have children, be able to smile, and to have some semblence of a normal life. After Rachel did what she did and the Church of the New Jerusalem reaction to that evil I know that my cause shines in the light now. Today I have decided to tell my story and never again care what happens to them. I wanted one thing for Christmas and it was the love and peace of Rachel to forgive me and for me to forgive her and for us to put whatever the Devil and evil set between us and rebuild our friendship. Now I see evil has one so there is no Christmas for me............... Its all about selfishness and selfish desire not the gift that Jesus Christ gave us to share and since no one in the New Church had the bravery to stand up or in Rachel's family to stand up then for the next 12 months in 2013 I will expose it with no reservation and no holding back. I am not sorry because I was shown evil is the way by Rachel Myatt, The Myatt, Friesen, and Baker Family, and Pastor Glenn.
I had nothing but love for you all but when my mom died and I needed you all you turned your back on me and cursed me. I still loved you and you ignored me. You claimed to live a certain way but lived hypocritcally behind my back. Most of all Rachel you tried to get rid of every trace of me and I am right here I am living, You hurt me for real, and now you have to deal with the consequences of your cruelty and disrespect..................................
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