Dear Friends,
This is the blog I have waited to write for a long time but I couldnt get it to come together in my head correctly. This morning God has given me the inspiration and the appropriate way to do this. The blog is called Christmas Mourning. Why? Because I am mouning the love I have for Rachel and Jonathan when I should have been rejoicing it because of Christ birth and the greatest gift of all that He ever gave us. Love. You know what I miss my mother more than anything in the world but when she died I dealt with the fact that I would never see her on this earthly realm again. What I mourned and have hurt for is that my best friend Rachel Myatt and her son Jonathan would just walk out of my life and that killed me inside. That truly made me grieve, that made me mourn. That was a part of me that was dead and is still dying. In an attempt to make people understand this morning I am going to use one of the New Church Examples of love.
http://www.newchurch.org/activities/newchurchlive/archives/what-is-religion-about/index.html
Now the reason I am using this is because Rachel changed my life. She brought joy in my life, happiness at a time when there was sadness and change because of my mothers death and then ruined it all by using religion to be cruel, to put me down, to justify her cruelty, and to put me down to others so she didnt have to deal with the reality of what she was truly doing and I have tried to point this out to many New Church clergy and people and general. I mean who wants to be part of a Church who acts in that manner? Not me!
Not only did Rachel saying and doing all the things she did affect me but also her Pastor Coleman Glenn. He basically judged me and tried to find reasons why my love for Rachel wasn't pure and good and truthful and then has the same kind of long distance relationship with a young lady and is to be wed to her. He should now know how lies, psychological damage, and the religious bigotry had an effect on my life especially at the time of losing my parent. Rachel was and is loved beyond compare by me and regardless of our religious differences I had already decided. Do you follow this people I had already decided I wanted to be study and be at one with Rachel religiously so not only did she turn me away but the Pastor and other people's examples turned me away.
I want you to think about the most painful thing that every happened to you and how if you had the chance you erase that. Most of us would say no because it is that experience that makes us who we are. Rachel's treatment of me made me who I am. I could have been her loving, best friend, boyfriend, maybe even husband at this point but she still not only chooses to make me an enemy but to ignore the white flag and the opportunity for Reconciliation, Peace, and Goodwill to change both of our lives. She would rather it bring reproach on her family, her church and continue hurting me and herself.
I want to use a video from the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" as an example of what removing bad things or trying to leave them behind can actually hinder our spiritual growth.
I would never want to have Rachel erased from my mind and the fact is I love her with all my heart. I see her and Jonathan in my mind everyday and the picture is a reminder when I write my blog how much I love them. The reason I write the blog and do the worldwide campaign is because I love her more than anyone I have ever loved and I long to see her and Jonathan again. As long as I know they are alive they will be in my heart and I will miss them. Rachel if you are reading this. If your family is reading this then that is why I do the things I do because I love them, I love you all. I am in love with what God gave us and that is the gift of love and that is what I have to give.
I want to end on a couple of points today. God knows where all of us are going even if He gives us free will. I know it is my journey and destiny to love Rachel Myatt and no matter how extreme, silly, and crazy it may seem to some I love her. She needs to know and trust in God enough that He would not send someone in her life as strong, as purposed, and as stubborn as I am just to hurt her her. It is because He loves her, He thinks the world of her, She is one of His Special children and maybe a man has never loved her like this before but I do. I wont back down and I will take the insults and arrows thrown at me and even in the face of suffering.
No Truer words could be spoken and I will continue to be patient and believe in Rachel. It is all about Love and always will be.
Love consists in desiring to give what is our own to another and feeling his delight as our ownEmanuel Swedenborg
I want to conclude this blog two ways one by saying to Rachel Myatt, The Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families I love Rachel and Jonathan and through Rachel and Jonathan I love you. If you cannot see what love, true love is capable of then look at how I have never given up on Rachel and Jonathan but I am a man so full of love for them that it wont subside. I want you to stop making negatives out of it and see the positives that Rachel has a good man that loves her as a best friend and would go through hell and even tell his deepest darkest stories on the internet to prove that he loved her and still loves her.
Before I release my last newletter before the Christmas holiday I challenge Rachel, any of her family members, or even a concerned New Church member to write me and want to see that peace and love between Rachel and I. If you know Rachel then encourage and pray for the same though and of her. My arms are wide open and I love her and Jonathan just as much as time I told them so. You can contact me via email here on this blog.
The only Christmas present I want this year as the last two years is peace between Rachel and I and prayers for that peace. I have asked that no one give me any physical gifts but just to pray that Rachel and I make peace. That is how much I love you Rachel, my Rae Rae, Ray of Sunshine, Daughter of Christ, My sister of Christ. I want nothing but peace with you. You are my best friend and I would give up all my material possesions like I was going to anyway for you and Jonathan because my love for you is all that matters.
God and Religion are love and here is a song about how much I love Rachel making her one of the beloved things in my life called "You're My Religion Now" by Canadian Artist , Jane Child. http://www.myspace.com/music/player?song=you-re-my-religion-30979657
Finally a prayer.
The Prayer for Christmas Morning.
Dear Heavenly Father,
We thank You Father for the love you put into our hearts each day. I want to thank you for bringing Rachel and Jonathan in my life. I know that at times I havent said or done the right thing but I know you have given me the direction to show Rachel and Jonathan that love that you have instillled with me. As I am here all alone today please let them know I love them both and need both Rachel, Jonathan, and the perspective families in my life. Rachel needs to know that from my campaign to my blog they are acts done out of love and I ask that any elements of evil be banished buy Your love and guidance Lord to help me show her how loved and important she is. I want to make peace, I want reconciliation, I want to see Rachel and Jonathan again and hold them in the near future and I put my faith in you Lord. I would lay down all I have for Rachel to know how much I love her and I will give up everything to do Your Will my God. I no longer live a life for myself I put it all in your hands Lord. I love Rachel and Jonathan please deliver me back to them. I wish nothing but Blessings on Rachel, the Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families. All good comes through your name Lord.
Amen.
This is the blog I have waited to write for a long time but I couldnt get it to come together in my head correctly. This morning God has given me the inspiration and the appropriate way to do this. The blog is called Christmas Mourning. Why? Because I am mouning the love I have for Rachel and Jonathan when I should have been rejoicing it because of Christ birth and the greatest gift of all that He ever gave us. Love. You know what I miss my mother more than anything in the world but when she died I dealt with the fact that I would never see her on this earthly realm again. What I mourned and have hurt for is that my best friend Rachel Myatt and her son Jonathan would just walk out of my life and that killed me inside. That truly made me grieve, that made me mourn. That was a part of me that was dead and is still dying. In an attempt to make people understand this morning I am going to use one of the New Church Examples of love.
http://www.newchurch.org/activities/newchurchlive/archives/what-is-religion-about/index.html
Now the reason I am using this is because Rachel changed my life. She brought joy in my life, happiness at a time when there was sadness and change because of my mothers death and then ruined it all by using religion to be cruel, to put me down, to justify her cruelty, and to put me down to others so she didnt have to deal with the reality of what she was truly doing and I have tried to point this out to many New Church clergy and people and general. I mean who wants to be part of a Church who acts in that manner? Not me!
Not only did Rachel saying and doing all the things she did affect me but also her Pastor Coleman Glenn. He basically judged me and tried to find reasons why my love for Rachel wasn't pure and good and truthful and then has the same kind of long distance relationship with a young lady and is to be wed to her. He should now know how lies, psychological damage, and the religious bigotry had an effect on my life especially at the time of losing my parent. Rachel was and is loved beyond compare by me and regardless of our religious differences I had already decided. Do you follow this people I had already decided I wanted to be study and be at one with Rachel religiously so not only did she turn me away but the Pastor and other people's examples turned me away.
I want you to think about the most painful thing that every happened to you and how if you had the chance you erase that. Most of us would say no because it is that experience that makes us who we are. Rachel's treatment of me made me who I am. I could have been her loving, best friend, boyfriend, maybe even husband at this point but she still not only chooses to make me an enemy but to ignore the white flag and the opportunity for Reconciliation, Peace, and Goodwill to change both of our lives. She would rather it bring reproach on her family, her church and continue hurting me and herself.
I want to use a video from the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" as an example of what removing bad things or trying to leave them behind can actually hinder our spiritual growth.
I would never want to have Rachel erased from my mind and the fact is I love her with all my heart. I see her and Jonathan in my mind everyday and the picture is a reminder when I write my blog how much I love them. The reason I write the blog and do the worldwide campaign is because I love her more than anyone I have ever loved and I long to see her and Jonathan again. As long as I know they are alive they will be in my heart and I will miss them. Rachel if you are reading this. If your family is reading this then that is why I do the things I do because I love them, I love you all. I am in love with what God gave us and that is the gift of love and that is what I have to give.
I want to end on a couple of points today. God knows where all of us are going even if He gives us free will. I know it is my journey and destiny to love Rachel Myatt and no matter how extreme, silly, and crazy it may seem to some I love her. She needs to know and trust in God enough that He would not send someone in her life as strong, as purposed, and as stubborn as I am just to hurt her her. It is because He loves her, He thinks the world of her, She is one of His Special children and maybe a man has never loved her like this before but I do. I wont back down and I will take the insults and arrows thrown at me and even in the face of suffering.
1 Corinthians 13:1-4
13 If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.No Truer words could be spoken and I will continue to be patient and believe in Rachel. It is all about Love and always will be.
Love consists in desiring to give what is our own to another and feeling his delight as our ownEmanuel Swedenborg
I want to conclude this blog two ways one by saying to Rachel Myatt, The Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families I love Rachel and Jonathan and through Rachel and Jonathan I love you. If you cannot see what love, true love is capable of then look at how I have never given up on Rachel and Jonathan but I am a man so full of love for them that it wont subside. I want you to stop making negatives out of it and see the positives that Rachel has a good man that loves her as a best friend and would go through hell and even tell his deepest darkest stories on the internet to prove that he loved her and still loves her.
Before I release my last newletter before the Christmas holiday I challenge Rachel, any of her family members, or even a concerned New Church member to write me and want to see that peace and love between Rachel and I. If you know Rachel then encourage and pray for the same though and of her. My arms are wide open and I love her and Jonathan just as much as time I told them so. You can contact me via email here on this blog.
The only Christmas present I want this year as the last two years is peace between Rachel and I and prayers for that peace. I have asked that no one give me any physical gifts but just to pray that Rachel and I make peace. That is how much I love you Rachel, my Rae Rae, Ray of Sunshine, Daughter of Christ, My sister of Christ. I want nothing but peace with you. You are my best friend and I would give up all my material possesions like I was going to anyway for you and Jonathan because my love for you is all that matters.
God and Religion are love and here is a song about how much I love Rachel making her one of the beloved things in my life called "You're My Religion Now" by Canadian Artist , Jane Child. http://www.myspace.com/music/player?song=you-re-my-religion-30979657
Finally a prayer.
The Prayer for Christmas Morning.
Dear Heavenly Father,
We thank You Father for the love you put into our hearts each day. I want to thank you for bringing Rachel and Jonathan in my life. I know that at times I havent said or done the right thing but I know you have given me the direction to show Rachel and Jonathan that love that you have instillled with me. As I am here all alone today please let them know I love them both and need both Rachel, Jonathan, and the perspective families in my life. Rachel needs to know that from my campaign to my blog they are acts done out of love and I ask that any elements of evil be banished buy Your love and guidance Lord to help me show her how loved and important she is. I want to make peace, I want reconciliation, I want to see Rachel and Jonathan again and hold them in the near future and I put my faith in you Lord. I would lay down all I have for Rachel to know how much I love her and I will give up everything to do Your Will my God. I no longer live a life for myself I put it all in your hands Lord. I love Rachel and Jonathan please deliver me back to them. I wish nothing but Blessings on Rachel, the Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families. All good comes through your name Lord.
Amen.
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