Christmas Message To Rachel Myatt: I Never Needed You. I Actually Loved You and Wanted You.

Dear Rachel,

I never needed you to complete me or felt I needed some significant other to make me whole.
I loved you and Jonathan with all my heart and that is why I wanted to be with you.
I had spent the better part of my adult life alone and happy. If you were ashamed of me because what I looked like or because of what others thought then you should have been honest. No matter your feelings I was and still am a human being and you fed me a lot of lies including you didnt care about superficial things like that. You led me on Rachel Myatt and changed my life forever.  If you werent ready for a relationship and to be loved then you should have never played with my heart because the love I had for you was special and it was wasted on someone who didnt know how important it was.  You thought that I was just some game and you could throw me back like a wet fish caught on a line.  I dedicate the song "The Murderess" by Kim Fox to you this Christmas because of the way you not only slandered me but my mother.  I want your family to know I will forgive but I will never forget and I am far from done with what I have to share with others about the Church of the New Jerusalem.  Just remember though at the end of the day it was you who couldnt make peace with me.  You couldnt follow Christ example when I reached out to you. You were the one who wronged me.  So 3 Christmases and you blew me off, dont expect me to care what happens or is said anymore.  I dont care if I hurt you, your sisters, your parents, or your Pastor or Church with the truth.  You obviously dont care who gets hurt in your mess or the crossfire. I wanted nothing but goodwill and peace with you but I will carry on my peaceful battle on paper, on social networks, and around the world.  I am going to do something very humble and start showing my face to tell all the lies you told me and to let people know of the bigotry, selfishness, and self love of the COTNJ.   All I ever did was love you people and you took that forgranted.  God help you and God Bless you.

Merry Christmas to those who didnt hear my prayer and my plea for peace.............