Revenge May Dull The Pain, The Less We Feel The Less We Are...........

(please watch from 3:30-3:36 to understand why I picked this for my blog)

 

 

Dear Readers,

• Tonight I wanted to send out a message of peace to Rachel Myatt, The Church of the New Jerusalem,  The Myatt Family,   Pastor Coleman Glennand anyone who is brave enough to contact me.  I wanted to speak about treating people fairly and equal. You see a lot of people were upset when I started this blog and still are because they feel it was a form of public humiliation for Rachel.  It was actually my reaction to the hurt, bigotry, and her cruel treatment of me.  It was God's way of telling me that it was ok to be angry but to channel that into love.  So I used my creativity to show Rachel that I loved her worldwide.  If that embarrassed her or made her feel bad I am not sorry for being an individual and for loving her despite the way she treated me.  She had the chance to reach out to me and keep this between us but instead she chose to be selfish and think only of herself.  It was always just about her.  If she cared about others she would clean up her own mess and make peace and reconciliation with me but it has been seen and said by other she has no intention of doing so.  I said many times I would go away for ever if she would just pick up the phone and make peace with me but it fell on deaf ears.  So I press on.  I am not a sheep, a follower except of Christ.  I am a leader and someone who doesn't take lies, dishonesty, or unkindness lightly.  Rachel may have put up a front for people but by telling me so many things and then trying to renege on the situation she set herself up for all of this.  She didn't care who she hurt as long as she didnt have to deal with the consequences of the whole ordeal.   I am going to say this.  I have no intentions of getting any kind of Revenge on Rachel.  What I do have intentions of doing is letting her know that I am always going to be here, I am living a life full of love, and I am sharing my story of how she, her church, and her family treated me and if it brings them pain and discomfort you know what oh well!  I came to you with love, peace, and an open heart and all of you spit in my face.  The best thing for me everyday is to know that I loved you and you took that for granted, you played with it, and you disrespected my love, my family, and my love of God.  I loved you and Jonathan more than you can ever know and you had a good man and you abused him.  Success for me is knowing you cant even show your face on the internet and that people around the world know you are the reason for me speaking out on the New Church.  It is not revenge it is just a plain and simple truth and to know that you were the cause for all of that well that suits me fine.  It is your karma and your conscience it will be on.  I no longer hold that in.  I am letting it all go through my writing.  I leave you with the reason I put the two videos up.  The first is the song "Don't Pray On Me" by Bad Religion about treating others as you want to be treated,  Rachel and Church of the New Jerusalem you could learn a lot from this naturalist worldview even as a Christian.  The second is a reaction to the evil in the world and the Colorado Movie Massacre.  It is from the show "Birds of Prey" that aired in the early 00's about Batman's daughter Huntress,  Oracle(Barbara Gordon aka Batgirl) and Dinah Lance better known as Black Canary.  Their goal was the same as Batman's to never kill.  In this final episode of the only 13 episode series Barbara is faced with the choice of killing Harley Quinn, (The Joker's girlfriend and New Gotham Crime Lord) Helena who is Huntress repeats to her "Revenge May Dull the Pain , The Less We Felt , The Less We Are...."  That is one of the most rational and true statements I have ever felt.  See Rachel doesn't feel as much as I do because she doesn't care about hurting others.  She does it so much that she treats people disposable and me I care and will give you the shirt off my back even if its my enemy.  I am sorry to make such a broad interpretation but it is true.  Rachel would put her families name, her son,  her Pastor, her Church, and everyone under the bus not to have to face me and make peace with me.  If I treated someone like she treated me I would have remorse and I would do everything in my power to make things right especially if it involved others getting hurt or in the crossfire.  My hope is that she would see the light in all of this but I am making a promise not to stop and to just keep believing in God's love and in myself and if Rachel feels hurt by all of this attention and the New Church doesnt care what I do then it is on them.  I reached out to all of them many times.  God Bless ALL