Dear Readers,
I had written Rachel and her family a very deep and personal song and it surely would have touched a lot of people. It would have brought into light a lot about her and her family and it could have publicly shamed Rachel more. Instead I am opening my heart today for Rachel to look deep into her soul and see that all that I have done and all that I am doing is because for once in my life I truly did and still do love someone. In the past 2 yrs I have lost my Mom, The Girl of My Dreams(Rachel) and My father less than a week and a half ago. I have had countless obstacles and naysayers doubt me and be put to shame. Instead of totally trash Rachel, the Myatt, and Friesen Families, Pastor Coleman Glenn or the Church of the New Jerusalem I ask them to look into the heart of what they are doing and look at the man who never gave up and who still believes in what they are doing. I believe in myself because of God. Rachel doubted me, doubted my love, and abandoned me because she was too scared to embrace her destiny and let others cloud that. I am not scared of anything that life has to throw at me because all I have had is hardship, hate, and lonliness and if Rachel and her Mother, Jane couldnt understand what I was going through losing my mother then they truly need to evaluate their roles as so called Christians. Instead of Compassion, I got ridicule, instead of understanding, I was deemed mentally ill, and worst of all Rachel told me I didnt love God. That was the most messed up of all things. You know what mentally ill is? Someone that goes and blows up buildings to get revenge, someone who kills, someone who cant even function in day to day life either with or without medication. I am and never will be any of those. My peaceful protest and declaration against Rachel and the New Church was organized. I stand behind what I say and even Pastor Glenn cant comment on the love that people wrote to him that I possess because he doesnt want people to know that I am well loved and that I have always meant the best to Rachel and that I truly love her. Rachel if you and your family are reading this. I love you and Jonathan with all my heart and in a months time I will put up on youtube a love song of my finally finished "Letters To Rachel" album. It took me 2 and a half years to find the right words to put out publicly that I love you and maybe then you will see that I was the man for you and that you put pride over actually getting to know me first. I accepted you for all that you were and are going to be but you never gave me that chance. God Bless All
Happy Valentines Day.
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