I Never Did This To Hurt You, I Did It Because I Love You(Prelude To A Blog to a New Church Pastor in South Africa)

This is a song called "Untogether" by Lush they are 3rd favorite band of all time.
The song is about hurting someone or having a bad break up and one person putting all the blame on the other and letting them know how bad things were.

Dear Readers,
In a discussion the other day with one of the New Church Pastors through email(I will personally write him a blog and let him know how I feel later this week) He told me I was unloving for this blog and the campaign I have put forth.  I never did this blog to hurt Rachel and though I have said some harsh things if you knew what was in my heart it is because I love her and Jonathan with all my heart.  I dont care what anyone thinks of me, if Rachel or the Myatt family want to sue me and think I have done grievious harm to her reputation then go ahead.  I would give her all that I have as I really don't care about material things or money.  All I ever wanted was to be loved and have a family of my own and Rachel played with that dream I had with her and Jonathan.  It meant even more to me at the time because my mother had passed away and instead of having someone that was supportive and loving of me, I was treated uncaring, inhumane, and detestable.  The fact I have any love left in my heart for Rachel and as much as I do is a miracle.  This isnt the first time that I have done something extreme for someone I love but the last person it took her 7 years to realize that I loved her and a bunch of hard lessons.  She apologized and I told her that any time she needed me for anything I would be there.  That is what Christians do, that is what true loving human beings do.  I dont have to forget what Rachel did but I forgive her and love her and this blog is my expression of the love I have for her.  So Pastor who will go unnamed till I blog personally for you.  I am sorry if my public display and campaign geared at the New Church offends you but it is not unloving.  It is telling a story of how I got treated, it is letting others in the New Church know that inappropriate behavior is happening in interacting with others who are not of that faith and it is telling Rachel personally and in public hey you hurt me, here is what I feel, I love you and Jonathan, come back to my heart but I also let her know that what she did was wrong, it is cruel, and that it is she who is not facing up to what she has done.  I am right her in the open.  My name is Byron. I am not hiding from anyone and I will face up to adversity.  People who know me know I dont back down and so Good Pastor if you truly were my Brother in Christ you would read the rest of my blogs and understand what Rachel put me through and how much I truly love her instead of get upset because I have the fortitude and the gall to stand up to injustice and evil inside the New Church.  You say you want to protect your children and your customs but at the same time you put down others, you constantly debase and downplay others faith.  You made fun of contemperary Christian music and passed it off as Sappy? It saved my life and not all of it is what you think . I will put your name out in the open in this blog and then let other know what kind of loving Pastor you are passing such judgement on me.  I do not hate the New Church I hate what some of the people in the New Church are doing in acting one way and professing to be another.  Lush being one of my favorite bands here is another song I posted years ago called "Hypocrite" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ib__QLz45I  it for all those of any religion especially the New Church who claim to be of Good and Truth, and to be of love and Charity, but who are really about self love and being judgmental. The beginning of the chorus is "You Hypocrite You Dish Out But You Cant Take It".  Pastor I am sorry but you dont know my story, you dont know what Rachel said, the lies, the betray, the uncaring so you have no right to judge me.  What if your wife, or your children died, or anyone in your family died and some selfish person not only used their religion to belittle you but broke your hear. You know what because of you Pastor I am going to work extra hard on my campaign and pass out even more materials.  Thank you for being judgmental, not reading into the whole story and I will publicly address you in a couple of days because what I have to say to you as a Pastor is going to be big and it is going to address a lot of the Hypocrisy in the New Church.  I am so full of love not only for Rachel and her family but people in General. I work around people all day and most people tell me I am one of the Nicest people I met and Rachel knows how much I loved her, how nice I was to her, and how hurt and broken I was from my mothers death.  I was at peace but I was still broken and in shock and she was the one who started this by taunting me on the internet and making fun of me so Pastor in South Africa who I will address by name later.  You better think twice before you call someone unloving.  Just because my method of showing Rachel I love her isnt your cup of tea it doesnt mean I dont love her.  It doesnt mean it is not from God either.  It was a way of God showing me another way to show Rachel how she hurt me and not to enact revenge on her but show her that my love for her was worth sharing with the world and even though you cant understand it and never will doesnt mean God didnt put that love in my heart.  You can email me privately if you dont want me to reply to you in Public on here but I think your reply warrants a public response and I am formulating the best way to tell you how you crucified and judged me without looking at the fact, all you see is the New Church and what you percieve to be good but you dont want to look at any of the Bad or Evil that exist and that is what I am showing worldwide.  Its not about Pride, Hate, Revenge, or anything like that I truly love Rachel Myatt and that will always be in my heart.

Putting Pride Aside to Find Peace and Reconciliation

Dear Readers,
I am formally ready to end this blog but I am asking that Rachel find the love and put her pride aside in order for me to do that. Rachel Myatt I love you with all my heart and whether you think I am doing this to hurt you or not matters not.  What matters is that you mean alot to me. I dedicate this song "Ex" to you and anyone who thinks I hate you or the New Church.  I cant promise you anything but that my arms and my heart still has a big place for you.  If you can only email for a start that would mean alot.  I will always be here for you . I love you and if I have hurt you I am sorry but everyday you hurt me more and more.  You and Jonathan mean lot to me.

God Bless

Bless The Child: A Blessing To Rachel's Sister Jessica

Dear Readers,
This blog is dedicated to Rachel's sister Jessica.  I never got the chance to meet her personally but I wanted to ask this morning that God bless her and keep her family always.   If anyone in the Myatt family is full of love and understands the blessing of love it is probably her and I wished that Rachel would aspire to be more like her.  She seems selfless, loves unconditional, doesnt see flaws,  colors, or any other superficiality.  From what I can tell God's love is what directs her life.  I am going to say this.  Rachel if you are a foster mother then understand that if a child is treated badly, bullied, abused and doesnt feel loved they grow up and become adults.  They still want the same thing when they grow older and if you treat that same adult who never gave up on that love and hope bad then they are eventually just going to give up.  That is what you did to me.  I told you about my childhood, I told you about the abuse, the lonliness, and all the love I had to give and that love was for you.  Imagine one of the kids you take care of and because of being treated bad as a child without love, being abused, and neglected they turned to a life of crime, drugs, and violence.  That could of been me but it wasnt all I every wanted to do was love.  I love you and Jonathan with all my heart and everyday you are breaking my heart.  I cant believe anyone would be so cruel to another especially someone who would have done anything for you.  If you got mad and sued me because this blog hurt you I would just give you all that I have.  My heart belongs to you and Jonathan anyway.  I put you in my will and that was documented on my blog also.  I love you unconditionally and I just wish you had of put some thought into what you were doing and saying to me at the time. You played with a man who his whole life wanted just to be a good companion, husband, and father.   I was loyal to you to the point that I even told you I was going to hang out with my female friend, I gave you a ring and a promise to the Lord to always love you.  I have never once on this blog as angry as I have been at times said I hate you Rachel Myatt I love you and Jonathan with all my heart but you and your family just cant see how true a friend I am and was and how unconditonally I love you.  I dont know what the next couple of months hold but I had a dream tonight and I woke up and God led me to send blessings and love to your sister Jessica.  I hope that you get this message Jessica and even if your family thinks I hate you all I dont.  I love you. I love your sister Rachel with all my being and it has been a long hard road and sometimes tears still well up in my eyes at how cruel and how selfish she was to me.  Loving her and Jonathan meant everything to me.   I bless you and ask God bless you and your family Jessica tenfold.  In you is a true example of love, of kindness, and the direction of open mindedness, nurturing, and caring that humanity can follow and what could and can be great in the New Church faith.  I dedicate the song "Bless the Child" by Nightwish to you because of how much you love children and give your very best to them.  May this piece of my heart find you well.  God Bless

Dear Jessica if there are scriptures in the Bible that that describe your exemplary outlook on life then they would be these.

Proverbs 31:27-29

²⁷ She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
²⁸ Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
²⁹ “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”

God Bless ALL

Putting Swedenborg or Any Man Before God: Pastor Coleman Glenn the Great Illusionist

Directly From Pastor Coleman Glenn of The Dawson Creek New Church.

"The New Church believes – based on passages in Arcana Coelestia and several other works – that in the strictest sense, “The Word” is limited to the books of the Bible that are written in such a way to contain an infinitely deep internal meaning throughout, that is entirely about the Lord and His kingdom. According to Swedenborg, although Acts and the Epistles are true, they do not contain this infinite depth of meaning, and so in that sense do not make up the Word."
(note in red how Swedenborg takes precedence over God in Coleman's case almost always so)

and to show I am not making this up it can be found here

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/goodandtruth/2012/06/blogging-the-bible-acts-and-epistles/

I am so glad that Pastor Glenn is blogging in this way because it gives me an opportunity to prove my point about those in the New Church not all but the Dawson Creek New Church they put their own selfish desires and man before God much as Rachel did.  Coleman is biased and loves to put down others and anyone that doesnt think like him he has to put them down so why not expose him worldwide and share these essays I have with other people of faith.  Pastors like him are the reason people wont come to the New Church because he is not very open minded.  When he tries to be he is backhanded and speaks in straw man and double speak.  It is like a serpents forked tongue. Why name your blog "Good and Truth" when you practice neither.  You are too busy being judgmental, uncaring, and self centered like a god. Humanity as Divinity! You might as well go stand on Mt. Olympus!!!  Here is another example in his blog of having to put down people who might be radical when his faith is just as radical. 

"One book that helped me enormously in understanding the epistles – or at least, the epistles of Paul – has been The Theology of Paul the Apostle, by James D.G. Dunn. Dunn is universally recognized as one of the world’s foremost living authorities on Paul, so this is not some obscure text by a fringe theologian."


My Coleman we are just the most judgmental Pastor ever arent we? It is like the pot calling the kettle black. Fringe theologian.  What exactly are you? I don't see your name on the forefront of anything but a bunch of ideas you bounce back and forth within the New Church so some might look at you on the fringe of theology too.  I really can't wait for you to blog more because you are showing your true colors.  It is like a comedian waiting to get great material and you will feed my arsenal.  Please continue to show us how you put man over God and how you,  Rachel Myatt, and others basically follow a man who has ghost written behind the Bible: The TRUE WORD OF GOD and made up his own set of rules to indulge in selfish desires of the flesh and hedonism.  You see Pastor Coleman it is because you deny parts of the Bible you do not recieve its knowlegde nor the message it brings to us. How dare you ever put me down or try to act like you are better than me?  You see that is why I continue loving people even people like you who treat me like an enemy.  You spend so much time trying to prove others wrong and talk about how other Christians  are false.  Maybe you need to take some time and look in the mirror. Coleman.


There are plenty of things that are irrelevent in our time and day that are in the Bible but you admit to basically passing off parts of the New Testament as "Good" also remember just as I do not claim or have an extensive knowledge of New Church theology just because you have Theology degree from the Church of the New Jerusalem does not make you an expert in anyone elses life or love of God.  So just remember how you treated me and how you downplayed my love of God and then maybe open that book the one that was truly inspired by God not the one by Swedenborg and realize why what is happening to you is happening.  I had nothing but respect for you and you had none for me and so to show where you are flawed in treating others like they are ignorant or as if you are on some pedastool above them is justified.

So go ahead Pastor Glenn blog away I will be sharing your message with lots of people all over the world along with telling how you as a Pastor treated me along with Rachel.  :)

Loving Others, Accepting Them, and Not Assuming They Need Fixing. To The Myatt Family, Pastor Glenn, and Church of the New Jerusalem.

http://www.newchurch.org/activities/newchurchlive/archives/fix-help-serve/index.html

Dear Readers,
If you can take the time out of your day to listen to the video from NEWCHURCHLIVETV.  I want people to know that I am not against New Church theology in anyway.  I am against Rachel Myatt's treatment of people and how unloving and uncaring Pastor Glenn acted toward me as a human being.  I feel that the video above explains what was happening with Rachel and I and how instead of be there for me and love me she chose to be cruel. Assume I needed fixing.  How do you fix a grieving person?  You don't! You just love them and accept that they are in a place that you don't understand.  Rachel told me I was damaged, she didnt want to fix me, and I was mentally ill. I dont think Rachel has ever had to live through any kind of real hardship in her life that is why she put me down. I have been through so much in my life and that is why I am angry at her and distressed that the Myatt Family, the New Church, and its laity would even put up with people acting like this and bringing reproach and shame on its great organization. Yes Rachel is supposed to be in The Pastors Counsel and a person of leadership in the Church but she sits behind that in false pretenses when everday someone calls out to her for peace and what does she do ignore it! That is why I have kept up my campaign, my letters, and I keep this blog.  I want Rachel to understand that she was horrible to me.  All I did was love and serve her and Jonathan.  I was faithful to her, committed, I loved her with all my heart and if Rachel and her family couldnt understand that I needed love not ridicule, betrayal, and belittlement then how are they following the supposed New Church Doctrine?  I dont understand how a family that claims to be so loving can be so hypocritical.  The saddest part is that I have love for each and everyone of them and both themselves and their Pastor have ignored my reaching out for love and peace with them.  All I ever wanted was to be loved and I can pull out emails and lots of instances where Rachel said she wanted to be that.   I was walking on eggshells after my mom died but you know what I wasnt sad I was relieved that after her lifetime of suffering she didnt have to suffer anymore.  She was kind, loving, forgiving, and long suffering.  I am trying to forgive and be forgiven by Rachel.  I am trying to show her that our love was never in vain and if she picked up the phone and made peace with me it would open up a whole nother door.  Love is what is and always has been in my heart for her.  I will not stop telling my story or sending out materials on the New Church because I think ultimately it will show Rachel that she hurt me so bad and she and Jonathan were so loved that she had an impact on something big.  I believe it will open her heart to not be selfish and to seek peace with me.  My heart is open to you Rachel Myatt, your family, and Pastor Glenn and anyone at the New Church who sees the good in my heart.  I love Rachel Myatt unconditionally even if she cant be big enough to make peace with me my story is out there and others will know how I loved Rachel and the Myatts and the New Church in whole and you turned your back on me.  Rachel you could have used your love to serve me and watch me slowly heal from the pain but instead you treated me cruel, unkind, and you did damage my heart and soul.    Maybe you should take the time to listen to the video and realize all the damage you have done and how things you do and dont do can continue to affect those around you.  All I want is peace with you and on a daily basis people read this and realize how much I love you.  You can make me into a villian, put me down, say I am crazy, or whatever put down you have for me.  I was just a human being who wanted a family, children, a best friend and love and you played with and abused that love that I had saved and cherished just for you.  You will be the one who has to look in the mirror everday as things progress and I continue with my campaign.  I am free and I am full of love.  God loves me and I put Him first and I will always love you Rachel Myatt.

Making Enemies of A Dear Friend: The Line Drawn in the Sand

This song "Generals" by the Mynabirds is to symbolize the revolution has begun and it will continue.


Rachel Myatt at one time you were my queen,  my best friend, my sister in Christ but instead of stay that you choose to be cruel, selfish, heartless, and to use your religious doctrine to belittle me and kick me when I was down.  I never try to make enemies and I told you I didnt want to be yours but you choose that.  You were horrible.  Anybody that wouldnt pray with someone who loves them or send back a Christmas card or just plain out make fun of someone that is grieving is detestable and I want people around the world to know what they teach you in the Dawson Creek New Church and what laity and clergy like Pastor Glenn think of people of other faiths.  You want to prove me wrong show love, compassion, forgiveness.  You and you alone could change my heart which has become cold to even caring about you or your faith.  I have started a campaign in many places and unlike you I have friends all over the world who will be my "Generals" in helping me spread the word.  First North America then who knows but I think the Church needs a wake up call and you can thank Rachel Myatt.  I am just using my freedom of speech so dont cry slander or libel. If a church acts a certain way and treats a person a certain way then they have every right to divulge that experience to anyone they want.  You Rachel Myatt made an example and if you truly were the strong woman I thought you were, you would reach across the lines and find peace with me but instead you would rather know that you hurt my good heart and that you have hurt others such as your family and Pastor Glenn and have people look at the Church different because of what I have had to do.  See there are consequences for being evil and selfish Rachel and this is a product of you playing with peoples, love for you, love for God, and thinking love is a game. It is not it is very real and I was very real. I loved you and Jonathan with all my heart but you would rather keep hurting everyone than to be a woman and be responsible for the mess you made.

Proverbs 16:6-8

⁶ Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for;
through the fear of the Lord evil is avoided.

⁷ When the Lord takes pleasure in anyone’s way,
he causes their enemies to make peace with them.

⁸ Better a little with righteousness than much gain with injustice


Luke 6:35
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked


I will put my faith in God's Word and if you want to live a life of putting others down and acting self righteous Rachel Myatt then go right ahead.  I have very few enemies because when people actually get to know me, they know I stand for God, for love, for caring about others, integrity and honest.  I know how to be a leader but most of all I know how to be humble and be a servant.  You have no humility, you are not kind, and you constantly treat people bad.  I am going to just keep loving you and the New Church even if through unconventional means.  See when you made all those harmful remarks about me it just made me stronger.  Just like you doubted my love for you, you doubted I would take this to the Church, you doubted my perserverence and strength.  It is you who are wrong because I put my faith in God not man, not Swedenborg, not anyone but Christ.  The words above come from the TRUE DIVINE WORD.  The HOLY BIBLE and it is by that I live my life and by that even though you treat me as an enemy I continue to love you and call you SISTER.

New Church Perspective: A Message To Brian Smith and a few words about Good and Truth

Dear Readers,
There was not an english version of this video on online but if you have seen the movie XMEN 2 then you will remember this scene in which Nightcrawler and Storm were discussing faith I have included the the English translation below of the conversation so you will understand why I used this and it is a means to discuss what I have to say.  The conversations starts about 1:13 in which I am refering to. This is the translation.

X2 (2003)
Nightcrawler: You know, outside the circus, most people were afraid of me. But I didn't hate them. I pitied them. Do you know why? Because most people will never know anything beyond what they see with their own two eyes.
Storm: Well, I gave up on pity a long time ago.
Nightcrawler: Someone so beautiful should not be so angry.
Storm: Sometimes anger can help you survive.
Nightcrawler: So can faith.


This is a message to Brian Smith the Editor in Chief of New Church Perspective and anyone in the New Church organization that wants to read.  It is also to Rachel Myatt, the Myatt Family, Pastor Coleman Glenn and The Dawson Creek New Church.

If you looked at the conversation above then you will notice two things.  One even though Nightcrawler may not be accepted or beautiful in others eyes he is one of God's children. In the comic book and the movie he is a man of deep and devoted faith.  The part where he talks about people being afraid of him all the time, I know that pain and that hurt. People always make assumptions, cast judgment on me, and never truly get to know me much as Rachel did.  I was supposed to be her boyfriend and close friend and I had just lost my mother so what does she do? She abandons me, makes assumptions, and is very cruel and my heart was truly broken to the point where I wanted to just give up.  I am not ashamed of that because I was grieving and I was kicked down to the lowest point.  She called me sick, crazy, damaged and made fun of me.

Here is my point to you Brian Smith of New Church Perspective.  Maybe you dont want people publicly acknowledging the Good and Truth of others on your website and also because Coleman Glenn is an editor too but I will come here and say and do as I please.  I had nothing but respect for Pastor Glenn and Rachel and I loved Rachel enough that you can ask Pastor Glenn I even offered to travel 2000 miles for one day,  sit in a room after observing a church service, and make peace with both the Pastor and Rachel. That is how much love in my heart I have for people.  It would cost me $1500 plus just to do that for a day and a half but I was willing to do that.  You see I am pointing out the hypocrisy that lies in the New Church , Mr Smith.  While you sit in the same circle and pat each other on the back for the good  you think you are doing you forget about expanding and opening your mind and your ministry to others.  I mean look at all the publications and things that are printed in the New Church realm I see a lot of people with the same name so it seems like it is just an extension of families and you dont want to let other people in and you want to chastize and criticise others who come looking who may believe a little different or are interested.   I tried to make peace with Rachel for 5 months and corresponded with Pastor Glenn but he didnt take me seriously the first time in October of 2010 so I waited and God came to me and directed me to write this blog and start a worldwide campaign of love toward Rachel.  If you read the blog "The Woman I Continue To Love Unconditionally" You will see the blog and and a personalized letter that was sent to New Churches all over the world.  I loved Rachel and her son Jonathan that much.  My anger is a gift and it is not an anger that is one of hate it is one of sadness that people who claim to be of God and love Christ Word would be hypocritic to the most beautiful of His Commandments besides loving Him and that is to love your neighbor.   I never thought twice about giving up what I have here in Texas to devote my life to Rachel and Jonathan.  My mother on her deathbead blessed Rachel and her family and told me that I should just go see Rachel that she would be fine but I knew in my heart I had to stay because I felt she was going to die.  I stayed till she passed then I went to be with Rachel and it was only 3 weeks after that.  I am sorry that Rachel and the Myatt family could not understand what I was going through and how much I loved them but using your religion to put down others is the reason for my constant criticizm of the New Church.  If Rachel picked up the phone and talked to me today,  all would be forgiven.  I do not hate her, I do not hate her family.  I have nothing but love for them.  When I did send my letters out to the New Church both Chuck Blair and Kenneth Alden were the Pastors who came to me with love and great discernment.  I got an arrogant short letter from Assistant Bishop James Cooper in Canada and constant excuses from Pastor Glenn about how free will dictated over God's will.  I mean the guy did a sermon on "The Lesser Evil" http://colemanglenn.wordpress.com/2011/10/30/sermon-the-lesser-evil/ Im sorry but God always wants us to do any amout of good over any amount of evil.  If we choose to continue doing evil things and hurt people then we should expect for things to happen to us.  I also want to point out Mr Smith that many times during my relationship I was told I was stupid for what I believed in by Rachel and I just kept loving her.  I have extensive Bible knowledge, studied religion, in school, and have had far more training in theology than Rachel has ever had but not once did I say what she believed in was stupid and I said I would study with her and like to be in unison with her because I loved her and I loved God and that was what mattered to me that we had a relationship together through Christ.  So how am I bad for that.  Do you see Mr. Smith how I was turned away and how loving someone who is selfish and who puts themselves and uses Swedenborg's doctrine to put down others might make someone like me who is loving and accepting very angry and discouraged.  When I first wrote Pastor Glenn he didnt even acknowledge about me losing my mother in all this it was just about defending Rachel and Swedenborgs theology.  At the time he was just Rev Glenn but still I was appauled and disappointed that a person who is supposed to be loving and non biased would take her side.  I came to him because she doubted I would.  Rachel doubted others ablilities in the the Lord.  She told me I would  never be with her,  I put my faith in God not in her and there I was in her house, in her heart, in her bed when she told me I would never be there.   Pastor Glenn put doctrine over loving his neighbor because I simply asked him if the selfish hateful nature that Rachel displayed was part of the New Church theology because she was selfish in so many aspects of her life. It was all about her.  I even asked him if the New Church was satanic and hedonistic because of how she treated people.  I still have all those emails and I am not ashamed to share them with you nor will I hold back or not take into account anything I said. I want you to understand Mr. Smith that I want the New Church to look at the wrong they are doing.  I am not out to discredit or show hate or turn people away from the New Church but what I am doing is showing both Rachel and Pastor Glenn that one person can make a difference and I am not afraid to expose them for their behavior.  Months ago I put up a song by Christian band Flyleaf called "Beautiful Bride" It is about the body of Christ and Christianity worldwide and in the song there is a line that says "If One Parts Hurt The Whole Body's Sick" at 1:54 in the following video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sl0HPkBcpSQ  Mr. Smith you have people that are bringing you down in your faith and that will hinder that growth and here is an outsider giving you insight to how he was treated and how people are acting in Dawson Creek and so it is your chance to resolve it and look into it.   You want to take what I am doing as someone who is just out to get revenge or out to hurt others then fine that is your point of view.  You are free to see it that way but it is just the opposite I am full of love and that love was ignored.  Another thing I want to say is that you seem not to want to display any negative aspects of your organization but when I came to you people about religious and racial bigotry you want to push it under the rug.  I hinted at the fact that because I happen to be black there might have been some reason by others to make Rachel think she couldnt be with me by people in the predominately White, Dawson Creek New Church.  I should have been welcomed with open arms as I recall I look at the NewChurch.org website and see this.

Official membership of the General Church is made up of those who have chosen to be baptized and subscribe to the principles and purposes of the General Church. Membership is individual, and is not limited by race, nationality, or geography.

I didnt feel that way and my heart was open and I was looking to learn and be baptized.  Another point I wanted to make when I really started hitting the bigotry part hard in my blog suddenly a essay by Cortland Bell appears in New Church Perspective.  I enjoyed the article and though I was the opposite of Cortland as an African American I am a straight edge Christian who doesnt drink, never done drugs,  try to help others and most of all I try not to judge those who do.  So why did no one want to hear my story about how I loved someone in the New Church, treated them with respect and love and then I was ridculed, put down, and still had love for them and sought both forgivness, reconcilation, and good and truth.  See you can pick and choose what you put on your site but you cant pick and choose what others see because of your actions.  Take a minute to click on the picture of Rachel and I at the bottom of the screen where my screenname futureperfect is.  You will see a black man American, with a white woman Rachel who is Canadian.  I dont see colors, I dont see religions, I dont see country or nationality borders Mr. Smith.  All I see is Gods love and I love Rachel and her son with all my heart. 

I am going to close on this point in regards to Christ, in regards to Swedenborg, and regards to the way the NewChurch has treated this situation.
In the conversation between Nightcrawler and Storm above Kurt(Nightcrawler says this)
Nightcrawler: You know, outside the circus, most people were afraid of me. But I didn't hate them. I pitied them. Do you know why? Because most people will never know anything beyond what they see with their own two eyes.
You claim to see all these things that others dont but you dont want to accept what they see and you shun them for it. In return you want to be respected and others to respect what you see.  It works both ways? How are you going to continue to grow if you cant even have a conversation where you have to be right or blast others about the truths they hold about God? Think about it Mr. Smith.

Lastly Am I right to be angry and to expose Rachel and Pastor Glenn. I am completely justified because I came to them with love and they and the New Church Ignored it. I was a deep forgiving and reconciling love and it was put down, pushed by the wayside, and scoffed at by members of the New Church so Rachel, her family, and Pastor Glenn are getting exactly what they deserve.  You judged me, put me down, made a mockery of the love in my heart that I had for all of you so now you reap what you so.  My anger was a result of the evils that you sought fit to protect people of the New Church now as I spread my essays about my treatment and how you put down other faiths and proclaim ot be a certian type of Christian while not even adhering to your own doctrine maybe the Church will wake up and see what could make it great. So like in the last part of the above conversation.


Storm: Sometimes anger can help you survive.
Nightcrawler: So can faith

Both my anger and faith have helped me to survive so Rachel can show Gods love and realize what she has done or she can continue to hide and I will continue to prove what I said is right about her.  I had nothing but love and respect for her and Pastor Glenn but with God and God's love they both can not only turn the tide but also show that the New Church has something to offer in arena of forgiveness and accepting others.

Byron
God Bless ALL