A Dedication To My Friend and Sister in Christ I Love and Cherish.
"The Letters To Rachel Project"
This site is not meant to demean nor defame my friend in anyway it is a heartfelt attempt at peace and reconciliation
Dear Readers, Rachel was always to busy putting me down and being high and mighty drinking from the Church of the New Jerusalems Kool Aid Pitcher. She had someone that loved her for her and despite doctrine and culture just wanted to love and be with her. Well she missed out and so this is what I have become because of her mistreatment of me. A kind avenging spirit of love and kindness that keeps telling a story worldwide. The song of today is "Better Than Me" by Sister Machine Gun
Sex, Love Making, Being A Gentleman - I was all for the kiss and a Gentleman never tell until Rachel showed her arrogance and her disregard for what love I had for her and what was sacred. She has shown that she would rather have her business told to the whole world than to have just picked up the phone and made peace with me. I want Rachel, Her mother Jane, Her Grandmother Dorthy, Her Aunt Brenda, Her Sisters Amanda, Rebecca, Sarah, and Jessica to know when they read this that I loved their sister for nothing less than who she was. Her mind, body, and soul. Rachel had it in her mind that guys only wanted her for sex. I wanted her for so much more. I courted her, showed her what a best friend was believed in her, and she played with it, threw it all way, and then treated me like some leper so this song goes out to her tonight and I want everyone to know that , there are good men out there and I am one of them but when someone test your love, they play with it, and destroy it like Rachel did mine and then laugh in your face and and at your pain well ................ Two years and this blog is going strong and the Newsletter is in its 4th edition. Who's laughing now. I will be like Job because God is blessing me tenfold even with all the death, hurt, and pain in my life im still smiling, still loving, and still dont care if you care about anything I do Rachel because you are miserable, you have to hide, your Church has been exposed and you were too all because of your pride and arrogance. I had nothing but true love for you and the fact you had no remorse or regret for anything you said against me or my mother well then, you dont deserve any mercy. For all of the Myatts, Friesens, and Bakers ..... I truly loved Rachel Myatt and she created a monster and she will never be of true love and charity.
This is just a quick message to all those who think they are reading this blog covertly or without me knowing. I know who you are. It takes someone brave to write about and say the things I say without backing down and I realize that I could also by using the word Jihad be considered a terrorist but Love Jihad means the opposite. It means I am going to bombard and pay back those who hurt me with kindness and good deeds and to tell others of that love. See Rachel got what she deserved she thought being cruel to me would make me go away. It backfired. Instead I have kept this blog up full of love. My newsletter gets printed and put out into the world and neither she, her family, nor the Church of the Jerusalem like it. Being the arrogant and self centered people they are and not wanting this blog spread I noticed programs put in place to prevent people from reading this blog and I also have noticed people trying to read it invisibly. I am very computer saavy and you are only fooling yourself if you think these things do anything but make me want to do more. So do yourself a favor and if you are going to read the blog just be honest about it. If you are going to put me on America's Most Wanted List or the C.I.A watch list then do it. I have nothing to hide I am just a man with a broken heart and not just because of Rachel but because of a religion that misconstrues Jesus love so bad I have to tell others about the lies Swedenborg embodies and how Swedenborgians are led into this cult. Thank you have a nice day.
I will leave a song in tribute of my love for Rachel Myatt each day up until Valentine's Day this year and on February 14th a special blog will appear for Rachel, The Myatt Family, and The Church of the New Jerusalem. I wanted to start it off with a song from Martika "If Your Tarzan, I'm Jane" I was devoted to Rachel and Jonathan Myatt and this is a song that defines how much she they meant to me.
Dear Rachel, Myatts & Friesens, Pastor Coleman Glenn and all New Church Clergy and followers who read this.
A Battle Over Religion is a battle over an opinion and if you cant agree to disagree over an opinion and love others for who or what they are then you are a hypocrite, close minded, and not showing any of the good qualities that Christ wanted to come about in Christianity. - Byron
I am sorry that you people who I loved spent so much time judging me without knowing me and not looking into my situation. I would never bail on someone like Rachel did to me and she does deserve every bit of what I have had to say on here because I do love her and she is the one who kept silent and tries to hide. I notice Jane tries to hide herself also because I embarrased you as a family. I am not sorry. Now that my father has passed away I know a different form of loneliness and the love I was trying to get you people to understand and how much Rachel meant to me well you take it for granted everyday. A guy wanted to come marry and be your daughter's best friend Howard and Jane and he put his blind faith in God and you let things like Religious views which you didnt discuss fully with me, social and racial differences, and other things get in the way. My parents never had any grandchildren, we never had a close family, we were apart in many ways but one thing we did have is integrity. We never went around using Religion to put others down or make ourselves feel superior or better than others. Jane you want to know something. I never said I believed in the Trinity you just assumed I did. You had no idea of my background. Pastor Coleman Glenn. Sorry that I am going to have to put out what a hypocrite you are but now that my father is gone it is more important that I stick by my word and let the New Church know and let Rachel and her family know that I wasnt joking about what I said. You people attacked my character and my love of God and expected me to just bow down and be subserviant to your non observational assumptions. You saw the outside but never looked on he inside. Next Week Rachel will realize that I have not been sitting back bluffing about the things I am doing but that I have stuck with it for 2 and a half years and I am about to make it bigger. I want to leave you with two things one a quote by Pavlov and another a video from "Daria" the late 90s early 00s MTV cartoon era of shows. The clip is called "Misery Chick" and its how people like Rachel and her family judge people like me without really knowing that I am happy and even through all I have been though I still get up and smile, I laugh, I go through life and I stand in the way of hateful people, obstacles, and lies that are thrown at me. Rachel you were the love of my life and I am truly sorry that your Mother, Father, or whoever could not accept me. I would have never left Rachel or Jonathan and they meant everything to me. My father died Saturday. Tuesday I was back at work and a man came out to me and said I had one of the greatest smiles and grins. So even in my tragedy what Rachel and her mother Jane or whoever else judged me didnt see is that I am stronger than most people and what seems morbid or different to them was just me being able to cope with the lemons thrown at me. I became who I was because of constant pain, let downs, and tragedy. The one time I reach out to truly be loved I get kicked down, told I didn't love God, abandoned and cursed. So Myatt family I am spreading this across the world as My Valentine to You. I want you to know how much you hurt me and how I tried to make peace with you for 2 plus years and how you ignore me. You claim to be all righteous and of good and charity but you are nothing but a bunch of phonies. I call you out on hypocrisy no matter how much love I had for you. My story about Rachel will be released as another printed newsletter Feb 14th. I dont care if you come after me. I am mourning once again so go ahead and kick me Myatts, New Church, Pastor Glenn ... Remember Im just some Miserable Hack who is supposed to let people treat me bad and I am not happy and dont have any feelings and because I am not of the New Church Im all wrong, evil, and different. Yet you are the people who say you seek salvation for all....??????? Take a look in the mirror!! It is not accidental that all phenomena of human life are dominated by the
search for daily bread - the oldest link connecting all living things, man
included, with the surrounding nature. -
Ivan PavlovRachel you and your family need to take a good hard listen to this short video clip and the judgmental members of your Church do to and see that I am simply a man filled with love and I was being me and you judged me, someone who loved you with all his heart and got others judging me without even meeting or knowing me. Im willing to go up against the whole Church of The New Jerusalem and Dr. Oz as nice as he is to prove my point and defend myself and I would die for my beliefs and my love of God. Would any of you?
You said you loved me, could accept me, and loved that I was different then you complain, put me down, and abandon me because of those same differences and not even taking in consideration of how much strength I had at the time in losing a loved one. Well its you and your families honor no the line not mine I have the guts to tell my story and be truthful so its your Cross to bear. I gave you every opportunity to make peace with me but you dont want it. You want to be selfish and live your life without reconcilation, without remorse, and with a love so selfish that it makes you a hypocrite. Your choice.
You were the love of my life. I will never marry nor will I believe in love again. All this happened for a reason. Someone truly loved you and to you and your family I was just some crazy guy with no feelings, no emotions, and I didnt matter. I realized when I lost my father a night ago that what I am doing will have meaning. It will teach others about love, life, and integrity. Im not sorry if you got embarrased. Im not sorry if it made you feel like you were an outcast in the New Church. I did what I did because I loved you with a love above all those and that was God's unconditional love. You and Jonathan meant the world to me and today my aunt came over and she asked me since I talk about you fondly always. "Maybe Rachel and you will get back together?" I told her. "I don't think so because Rachel is very selfish and all she did was talk about her ex. She didnt realize someone loved her for all that she was flaws and perfections and neither did her family"...................
Dear Readers and Rachel, Last night I lost my father. He had been battling a rare blood disease pretty much months after my mom died in 2010. I had gotten off of work and it was about 11pm I went to check on him. I entered the house and ask him how he was doing. There was no response. I asked again. Still no response. I shook him and kept yelling and still no response. No breathing, he was cold, and he was stiff. The rigor mortis had settled in. Tears streamed down my face and I called 911. I called my brother. My father and I never were close but he was human and I loved him. I thought about Rachel how much I love her and Jonathan and how life is so short and if she and her family had known how much her love meant to me. Now its just me and my brother. We don't have wives, or children, or many loving arms to run to. We contact the little family we have and go on with life. Everyday I think of Rachel and Jonathan and wish she had of known how much wanting a family with her meant to me. The purpose of this blog was always meant for her to know that I would do anything even tell the world that I loved her and Jonathan because I didn't want to die in regret or regret that I never tried to let her know they were the loves of my life. If there is ever a time to make peace with me Rachel it is now. I am hurting so much and I dont want this war with you, I dont want to spend another day hating you, I love you with all my heart. I dont want to be mad at the Church of the New Jerusalem and blame them for things you said or did to me. I want to forgive you and for you to forgive me. Though I will be busy because of what has happened last night I will leave a special present for you on Valentines Day on this blog. Otherwise there will probably be silence. If you want to contact me then please do so through this blog. I would love to end this with you and for us to make peace. I love you and Jonathan with all my heart.
I dedicate my two favorite songs by Lush "When I Die" and "Kiss Chase" to my father Henry today and to Rachel and Jonathan. Life is too short to hold grudges, to hurt the people we love, and to run from our destiny. Rachel and Myatt Family. I love you even if you can't understand why I am still here. Today realize this is part of it. You can make a difference or you can sit back and believe I am some kind of crazy person. All I ever was, I was truly in love with Rachel Myatt.
