You know what I want for Easter this year? Is for Rachel to pick up the phone and make peace with me but I know she won't she is a coward. She doesnt want to face up to anything and she continues to hide as does the Myatt family. I have offered to completely go away and never write another thing about anybody and it has gone ignored. A funny thing happened the other day when I was looking at a New Church site and their Reverend's Observation on Love.
http://blog.newchurchlive.tv/2013/03/love-in-action-is-a-harsh-and-dreadful-thing-compared-with-love-in-dreams/
Someone else understood the kind of Radical and Undeniable love that I see in Christ that The Myatt Family, Pastor Glenn, and Other New Church Pastors and Reverends scoffed at me mentioning. It is a call much greater than the Romantic love I had for Rachel, It is a call to a love for my sister, my best friend, and someone I cherished with my own life. Rachel squandered that chance, stepped on it, pissed on it, put me down, and kicked me when I was down but still my hand out is out "Saying in the Name of Christ Let Us Reconcile" but no poor Byron no one wants to for one minute see that true love that is in him. The New Church wants to misconstrue and misinterpret my love and make it into something its not. If I wanted revenge I would have got it, If I wanted to hurt Rachel I could have destroyed her and her family. All I ever had was love so I will leave you with the real kicker from a blog from earlier that ties in with this nicely. See how the love I believe in is foreshadowed in this blog from awhile back. http://iloverachelmyatt.blogspot.com/2011/11/message-to-dawson-creek-new-church.html
Now do you see the call to love that I am called for that Pastor Glenn and Pastor Derrick Lumsden and others have denied I have been called to. I don't need them because Christ sees it. My lashing out at the New Church is not an act of hate, or war, or evil it is a call and response to how much I love Rachel Myatt and how much God's Love is the main objective in Christianity or worship in general. You find time to put down other religions but do you take time to understand why someone else is drawn to God in a different way than you. It is not always about family tradition or because it feels right. Sometimes it is God's place in giving that person His Word in a time and a place.
I once again will just say I admire Rev. Blair and I see his love and true calling to God. He is in no way associated with me and I shearly use his examples of love, kindness, and the love of God because he gets what would make the New Church thrive, grow, and survive.
If you take the time to read my old blog, also "Unconditional" by Reverend Brian Zahnd and the account of Jesus from birth to death then you will realize it is Rachel Myatt and her family who are missing the opportunity not only to be a good witness for the New Church but to prove that they are not all the things I said they were. I had so much proof of so many lies Rachel told me and I held back for almost 3 years now from putting them out there because I love her. I want peace and I love you Rachel Myatt. Hear this plea and hear this prayer today.
My Heavenly Father,
Thank you for your love, our daily bread, and all your kindness, mercy, and your sacrifice. Though at times it seems I hate them. I love Rachel and her family and I am your faithful servant such as Job. In the past two years I have lost my mother, my best friend and love of my life Rachel Myatt, and my father and through it all you have carried me and made me strong. I have never wanted to curse you to your face or abandon you. Instead I kept praying. I can't make Rachel come back but maybe continuing to believe in her and letting her know how much she hurt and affected my life on a grand scale will turn her heart to Reconciliation. Through all the anger and sadness I have to say this dear Lord. I love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt with all my heart. I would sacrifice myself for them to this day as you so unselfishly gave of yourself so that we may live a life full of choices, happiness, sadness, and freedom. Thank you for all that you give us each day. Blessed be your name.
Amen
This is for anyone who judges how Christ comes to others and their calling to God. This is for you for doubting me Rachel Myatt and Pastor Coleman Glenn. Im sorry you and the Myatt Family couldnt see my calling to God and made fun of me when I was down. It was your loss and one day you will reflect on what you did and something will remind you.
God Bless ALL
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