Happy Birthday Rachel Myatt!/ Taking Up Rent In My Mind

Dear Rachel,

Happy Birthday,
Since I don't have time to worry about it later I wanted you to know.  I don't hate you but I don't ever have to like you. I can't believe someone who had a chance not to bring shame, reproach, and hurt on others would never step in and be a real woman.  You like your religion are a coward.  You talk a big game but you could never back it up. I on the other hand have fortitude, determination, and I will let you know you are taking up space in my mind and I have not forget.  Taurus are slow to anger but when it finally comes it will come.  You see I don't want revenge on you. I want you to see what you did was wrong and by not squashing this privately with me how it will in the long run effect your life, your family, and the way you worship.  You think I am off the radar but I am not and when I finally do strike it will be publicly and do a lot more damage if you had of just emailed or called me to end this.  Its your life.  Thanks for being evil, for disrespecting me and my family, and most of all being a bold face liar and contradiction of the Christian life you said you led.  Screw you now, later, and forever Rachel Myatt.

Christmas Day - The Mission of 2015

CHUCK LORRE PRODUCTIONS, #432

I've been told that the act of forgiveness frees the person doing the forgiving from harboring dark, and ultimately self- destructive, emotions. While there is no guarantee that the transgressor will be relieved of shame and guilt, the forgiver will always feel better. In other words, forgiveness is, first and foremost, self-serving. Now I am all about self-serving, so for the last few years I have been practicing a sort of forgiveness mantra. Upon awakening and before retiring, I visualize those who have harmed me and imagine myself flowing love and compassion toward them. Additionally, I wish for them to have everything they could possibly want. I'm happy to report that it's working. Slowly, over time, anger has become resentment has become indifference has become amusement has become affection. And now I'm free and my heart is full.
You believe me?
Do I believe me?




Dear Readers,

Above is a vanity card that appears at the end of one of the Season 7 episodes of popular comedy sitcom "The Big Bang Theory".  They are placed at the end of many of producer Chuck Lorre's shows so I am thanking him and giving him the credit.

The reason I felt I needed to use this one is simply this.  I forgive Rachel for lies,hatred, and deceit.  I thank her for her actions making me stronger and being kicked down and treated like that only made me more apt to believe in being able to do whatever I need to do in life to get where I am going.  My mission in 2015 is to expose the New Church and how they are prejudice, how they judge others, how they down play the importance of Satan, Lucifer, the Fallen Angel, Leviathan or whatever we in Christianity use to give name to the Devil to promote their own selfish agenda.  Swedenborg was a selfish man, if he really believed in loving others he would have realized that even though we have free will in the end God is in control.  There is no Human god that walks the earth and that is perfect in selfish desires.  There was a man some 2000 years ago that was the Son of God, who loved us all and died for our sins and He is back in Heaven now.  I would be ashamed if I lived by the New Church Theology of being judgmental, racist, selfish, and arrogant.  It was never what Christ intended any form of religion to be used for.  Yet I can go through all of Swedenborg's so called writings and point out where it is a self gratifying religion. There is no I in Christianity only Christ.  Having a religion named after one is selfish in itself.  It is about our Creator and Savior.  Rachel Myatt while you are sitting with your family and pretending to be this wholesome person just remember all the times you had to make peace with me and to set this right.  Then remember it was you who gave me the strength, the courage, and determination to point out how evil you and the New Church are.  If you look back at my blogs they were about healing, loving, and against all odds burying anger, hate, resentment, and evil but you never took the time to look.  A simple email could have ended this all.  On Christmas Day 2014 just remember this is your legacy.  This is how you want the world to see you and your family and your faith. I am the guy who wont stop till that realization is seen. That is a promise.




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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Rachel Myatt and Myatt Family: Thanks for the Hate. Thanks for Not Believing in Someone Who Believed in so Much More

Dear Readers,

Above is a speech given by Billie Piper as the character Rose Tyler in the first series of the revamped Doctor Who franchise.
I was thinking about what to add to this blog for Christmas to let Rachel know I am still here.  You are still being thought about and you are still being called out.  I was never some whimp or weakling who gave up. What you couldn't understand that even when you gave up on love and you let the others around you influence you I never gave up on you. You chose not to hear that and you chose to run.  I didn't make this blog to hurt you nor did I rally my campaign to bring you shame but to show you if someone truly did love you what they were willing to do and to show you and your family that lies, deceit, racism, and being judgmental get you nowhere in this light.  In the coming future you will have to endure what I tell the adoring public about you and your family.  If you truly wanted to end this all you would have to do is email or pick up the phone. I am letting you know right now you are in my targets and in my sights and I am not seeking revenge but I am seeking to expose you, your family, and the New Church for the Bigots you are and I will not stop till my dying breath.  I tried to make peace with you publicly but you ignored.  Now the public will see everything and I am ready to tell my story to a bigger audience than just on computer. I am ready for the camera and for the world. So watch out Myatts, Bakers, Friesens, and New Church. Here I come!!! Merry Christmas thanks for the Hate.  Human god would want it that way wouldn't he? He is selfish and nothing like the loving eternal son of God Jesus Christ nor Our Father in Heaven.  That is why you cant bring yourself to face me because you worship Swedenborg and his evil interpretation of a god.

Monument : Worshiping Ones Selfish Desires/Excluding the Prince of Darkness ode to Canada

Dear Faithful Readers,

It was Jane Child a young Canadian woman who made me truly fall in love with female musicians. Her 1989 album simply titled Jane Child was important to me for one reason other than the music.  It says Written, Produced, and Performed by Jane Child.  She did it all by herself.  At 19 and 20yrs old the fact that someone put in work like she did I was amazed.  The music was amazing and ahead of its time.

When Rachel Myatt and her cult New Church got under my skin a couple of years ago I always wanted to know this.  They want people to embrace both the good and evil but they dont want to admit to there existing a Satan or a Fallen Angel.  They don't want to admit to Original Sin because they don't take Adam and Eve figuratively.  To them it is just a fairy tale and illustration. It is also the reason they will always be a cult.  Swedenborg was a self indulgent, wannabe intellectual, he may have been smart scientifically.  He left holes open in his interpretation of the Bible that a pound of Swiss Cheese couldnt fill.  It is amazing that these pseudo intellectuals who call themselves evolved are so Pagan and so backwards in their thinking. They worship Swedenborg and denounce the Father and the Son and remade Him into a selfish Human god to satisfy their need for evil, lawlessness, and wrong doing.  So to the New Church and selfish, lying, backstabbers like Rachel Myatt I dedicate the song Monument by Jane's Father the late great Ricky Hyslop of Canada to all you.  Enjoy

Lonely Holidays: What Rachel Myatt Started(Nobody's Home)

Its Thanksgiving Day in the U.S. and I am completely alone.  My parents are both dead.  My brother has a steady relationship.  I have been lied to cheated on and abandoned to the point that holidays are the saddest time of year for me.  Last year the girl who I thought finally would love me just used me to get presents for herself and her kid then split two days before Christmas.  I learned that the world is a cruel place. In the last month I had my wallet, Ipad, and all my personal documents stolen.  Instead of become defeated it just made me work harder and made me more upset that good people keep getting kicked down.  I no longer trust anyone but God.  I leave it all in His hands.  I sit alone in this house today.  I remember Rachel Myatt and everyday it stings.  I loved you very much and not a day goes by when I dont think about you.  You destroyed what little faith I had left in women.  Before I die I promise you though the whole world will know of you.  I still have a story to tell and the time when I am willing to share that with the whole world is nearing. I've had songs for 4yrs and ones I've just written.  Ive taken guitar lessons, bass lessons, keyboard lessons to make sure what I share with the world is the deepest and truest music so you and your family The Myatts, The Friesens, and Bakers know what harm and hurt you put in my heart.  I loved you and believed in you.  Now my heart is empty and all it wants is revenge.  Not the kind where I go crazy and hurt people physically.  I am much to intelligent and smart to hurt others that way.  I want you the kind of revenge where you stop to think that maybe your New Church Doctrine is racist, extreme, and self centered.  I want the kind where you wake up and see that your lies, your cowardice, and your selective prejudice and racism hurt people.  I want you to know Rachel Myatt that I am coming for you.  I am coming for you through words, through song, and through pain.  You can hide where ever you want to or even change your name. People know the truth and you know the truth.  The next man you give yourself to I hope he knows what a liar, what a fake, and what an untruthful person you are.  I still hate you and I hope you choke on all your evils that you would rather embrace instead of someone who truly loved you.

Why Rachel Myatt, Her Family, and the New Church will always be Hypocrites

Dear Readers,

Above is a video from an episode of the original Degrassi High series entitled "Showtime".  I have this in my video collection at home because I grew up watching it I was a teenager when they were and it was very interesting to me.  They touched on subjects that other teen oriented shows wouldn't.  Sex, Pregnancy, HIV, Bullying, Abortion, Rape, and this episode is about Suicide.    If you have not read my reason for this blog existing then you need to go back to the beginning.  I felt like I should die because Rachel lied to me, said she loved me, led me on, and then turned her back on me when she said she would be there.  She slept with me, then tried to act like nothing happened, and worst of all she made promises she couldn't keep.  All of those things including my mothers death hurt more than you could imagine.  In the Degrassi story the character who kills himself, Claude has spent a year trying to make amends with Caitlin his ex, he also is looked on as an outsider at school, his parents had just divorced, and he feels totally alone. We all have been there but he never tried to talk to anyone about it and he selfishly tried to make others feel guilty about his actions in the end. 
While I know wanting to die was wrong I had every right to be in as much pain as I was.  Rachel and her family had promised to be there for me and I even had their words in plain proof that are on my blog.  Instead of open arms and understanding when I told them what was on my mind and what I was going through I got mean and disgusting people telling me I was crazy and mentally ill not knowing what I had been through. A person that loved Rachel enough that 3 weeks after my mom died I came to see her.  My mom wanted that too. She told me to live my life, love Rachel, and to be good to her. I was also told I didn't fit in and Rachel and her family are bigots of the selective type.  Because I am African American I wouldnt fit in with those good old Canadian Rednecks but I live in Texas with the Original Rednecks a term that originated with Southern people of American Origin.  I am sure I would have done just fine being a Native Texan all my life.  I have more than one Good Ol Boy or Gal for friends.  Its ok for her sister to adopt children of Black or African Origin but there was a problem with me. Wasn't I someone child, didnt I just lose my mother.  Because I am an adult Racism is supposed to hurt any less. No it hurts more because I understood it. Then on top of Everything Rachel and her family hid behind the most bigoted rigid Dogma of the Church of the New Jerusalem who are the biggest bunch of hypocrites ever.  They say don't do one thing but go ahead and do the same thing secretly behind your back.  The reason why I am writing this today is because I did truly love you Rachel Myatt.  I think you are a sad excuse for a friend, a girlfriend, and a mother.  You set such a bad example with men for your child and when he sees how you treat men he is going to take from that.  My mom didn't have the best example in my dad but it was because of my mom I learned not to treat women like my dad did.  I learned to respect them because of her respect for men whether it be my dad or others.  I am still angry at you and I am still campaigning against you and the New Church.  That will stop the day you reach across the line and make peace but until then this is a resurgence and a rebirth in my crusade against you and the Church of the New Jerusalem.

Songs About Rachel : 1st song of the real album - Lyrics

Holding Dark Scars on Your Heart

Do you really want to play the victim again?
Grab a match and set the world on fire instead
Stop blaming others for your failures
Accept what you cant change and become inspired my friend
Don’t let others hold you back from what you know could be great
Its never too late to fulfill your dreams and let go of the dead weight
The world is your oyster, its your playing field, it is yours for the taking
Stop sleeping, stuck in a moment, lying down in defeat you now are awakened.

You have a new beginning you could start
Stop Holding Dark Scars on Your Heart
Let the past be your guide to a future that can open you up inside
Become the one you were always supposed to be
All you have to do is believe
I know right now it seems real hard
Let go of pain and you will go far

So the one you thought was forever doesn’t love you
It wont be the first or the last
Don’t waste your time with it just let it pass
In time you’ll see that life is full of gifts
If you just have faith in it
When you thought you needed someone or something
Be firm and in the end you are all you need
Strong enough to bend and deep enough to bleed
Wounds may heal in time but you never have to be broken down and blind

You have a new beginning you could start
Stop Holding Dark Scars on Your Heart
Let the past be your guide to a future that can open you up inside
Become the one you were always supposed to be
All you have to do is believe
I know right now it seems real hard
Let go of pain and you will go far

(Bridge)
Sometimes the finish line looks so far
We get tired worn out and want to give up
When reach out destination the reward is success
Don’t cheat yourself of self preservation, love, and happiness…………… Be Blessed

You’ve broken through chains
Walked through fire and got burned
In the end you are a soldier many lessons you have learned
Ready for a warfare no one is really ever prepared for.
Now you see the purpose of life
Light triumphs over Darkness and you shine forever bright.

You have a new beginning you could start

Stop Holding Dark Scars on Your Heart

Let the past be your guide to a future that can open you up inside

Become the one you were always supposed to be

All you have to do is believe

I know right now it seems real hard

Let go of pain and you will go far


You have the chance to make amends
Be the one that forgives and forgets
Let it fuel you but still go on
Your destiny is a candle

When you reach your journey’s end
You will learn to love and trust again
If you remember this little part
Stop Holding the Dark Scars on Your Heart…..

(c)2014 Belligerent Hate Music