A Dedication To My Friend and Sister in Christ I Love and Cherish.
"The Letters To Rachel Project"
This site is not meant to demean nor defame my friend in anyway it is a heartfelt attempt at peace and reconciliation
One day when I am standing on a stage accepting an award for the story and the music I am about to release to the world you will get it. It was all because you were truly loved and you and your family were just too blind to see the pure love in my heart I had for you and Jonathan. All you have to do is email or write a letter and I would take this blog down, I would stop my campaign, you insist on making yourself a public spectacle still and embarrassing the New Church. You know what. Sorry Im not sorry and I dont care what happens to you when I tell the truth. At least I have honor and people can trust me. You cant even choose a man who wouldnt lie to you about loving you. Oh thats right you had a baby with a guy who knocked up two other girls at the same time. That is why I am sort of glad you didnt give me the time of day now. I never claim to be better than you but you and your family did that to me. I dont turn my back on my word. I dont backstroke on everything just because of some religious dogma that says I can. Also I always meant it when I said I loved you and while millions of people know your name and you try to slip into obscurity. Remember I reached out to you for 4 years and you never once answered.
So here we are my friends. Sleater Kinney. Besides my mom these are the woman who taught me to love, respect, and truly see the worth of a woman. The greatest female rock band ever and one of the greatest rock bands of all time. They reunited today to a hailstorm of press and good will. Even better is the lady behind the mask in the video is another one of my heroines. Miranda July. If you check this blog you will know she is the star and director of my favorite movie "You and Me and Everyone We Know" a great performance artist and someone for people to look up too. Anyways my point here is that sometime in the next 6 months I will be releasing songs from "Songs about Rachel" with this news about Sleater Kinney they gave me even more strength to follow my dreams. I want the whole world to know. Also I want to be free of the hurt, the burden, and any pain Rachel inflicted on me and my family so I am just going to let it go.
If you kept up with my blog at all know that I am passionate about the people who shaped my life and through great music and the feminist movement. Corin Tucker, Carrie Brownstien, and Janet Weiss collectively known as Sleater Kinney had a profound effect on my life. Rachel Myatt so did you. I call you out today Rachel to make peace with me and to love me again like I love you. You were my best friend and much like the music friends can make, love is the best music of all....... http://www.billboard.com/articles/news/6289151/sleater-kinney-album-reunion-tour
Rachel Myatt was loved and adored by me as was her son Jonathan. She chose to let New Church Bigotry, Comments by her family, and just being a coward in general stop her from truly being loved. She in turn was cruel, hateful, and evil after saying she loved me and wanted to be with me. I take full responsibility for every thing I say and will say. If she truly were a Christian she would reach out and bury the hatchet with me but she wont because if you look at a lot of the New Church peoples views on forgiveness they are selfish, half hearted attempts and they are just preaching to the choir but not living by the same standards.
This is the reason New Church People cant evolve this is the most ludicrous douchebag view of forgiveness I have ever seen I laughed and thought no wonder Rachel cant forgive. Shit like this is being shoved down her throat and being conditioned into the hearts of people like they are somewhat above forgiveness. http://www.newchurch.org/connection/issues/issues/exploring-jesus-as-god/new-perspectives-video.html Hey she doesnt owe me anything though. Its like the subject in this video skirts around the fact of forgiveness, nor barely acknowledges it could come to fruition. Anyways just another way to expose the falsities and fake smiles in the Church of the New Jerusalem. Rachel you were loved but you threw it all away for societal stereotypes and social norms. You know what I say your loss and what ever rock you are hiding under you are about to have to come out. Here is one last video for you. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFEmTsfFL5A
You will always let your family and your religion rule you instead of you letting God take a hold of your life and truly set you free. You are a coward who hides behind them because you cant stand up and be yourself. At least I say what is on my mind. At least I have to guts to fail even if miserably and then fight another day. You were only worried about parents not letting you babysit their kids because you had a black boyfriend, you were let your mom put shit in your head about mental conditions when she had no idea what I was going through morning my mother and dealing with my father. Most of all you lied to me when you said you would be there to me. You broke your promise. So that is what you will have to deal with the rest of your life and you will never be free. I live everyday free and just laugh at the fact that you missed out and when you finally think you are happy and you are destroyed you will remember me you piece of shit.
Kara Zor El the Kitty: Says Shame on Rachel Myatt and all the other people in the New Church who blindly preach about forgiveness and reconciliation but do not practice it. Especially to someone who did nothing but love you and who doesn't owe you any kindness and could have torn you down way more than humiliate you through love. You are ashamed, you are scared, you are humiliated because all the things I said were right and they happened. You couldn't sue me for what was the truth and so you try to hide behind a rock. Sad Sad Day!!!!
First of All I am still here. I am still just as angry and put off with Rachel Myatt, the Myatt Family, and The New Church of both Dawson Creek, and of the General New Church of North America. The rest of you may you be blessed and hopefully somewhere in South Africa Pastor Coleman Glenn is learning to live among the so called Gentiles who are really just people who didn't descend from God's Chosen area of so called Mesopotamia at the time. First of all why call this blog Utopia of a False God? Well because in reading one of the New Church Perspectives pieces I realized how close minded and sad that people in the New Church are. They close themselves off, try to be no part of the world, shun outsiders, and pretend to love and help there fellow man but are doing little but spouting rhetoric. Meanwhile other Churches of other denominations take to the streets to clothe, feed, soothe, love, and care for their fellow man. The New Church is too cowardly to ever touch on the topic of Racism because they some how think they aren't not only are they Racist but Xenophobic. They feel they have some kind of W.A.S.P Close Circuited Feel Good Utopia in Bryn Athyn and they are just as chosen as the Jews and that they only want to go help the heathens and Gentiles in Africa. I mean read these articles from New Church Perspective and tell me you do not get the creepy feel of the Kool Aid being a little too thick and cloudy toward Caucasians. http://www.newchurchperspective.com/essays/2014/9/5/the-new-church-money-and-a-world-full-of-endless-need-part-1.html and http://www.newchurchperspective.com/essays/2014/9/12/the-new-church-money-and-a-world-full-of-endless-need-part-2.htmlThe saddest thing about all this is that a lot of these white people in North Americaespecially Canadians have never truly had to suffer. So when someone like me like what happened with the Myatts and the Dawson Creek people were exposed to what goes on constantly in an inner city environment they run scared, put it down, and try to shun and deem that person evil. I live in Dallas/Fort Worth Texas, Arlington to be exact and have for most of my life. Its nothing like Bryn Athyn, PA or Dawson Creek, BC, Canada. You people are neither diverse nor strong enough to walk a day in my shoes. It was funny the Myatts call themselves Rednecks but being from the South in Texas they are joke to what people do down here such as mudding, climbing, geocaching, and all sorts of stuff. Rachel wanted to act like where she lived was special but it is not. In fact everything besides the cold you had in Dawson Creek I have seen or had done something close too. The reason I came. I loved you. The Myatt family 4 years on and you disgust me. If you think I forgot and Iam not waiting to expose you. I am. I am just waiting for the hour for Rachel to slip up or someone to do something so I can put you out in open like a fox. I have that power over Rachel because even if she has grown she knows she can never fully be the person she could be without looking over her shoulder. What happens my dear Myatts if my music and my story are successful and I tell the story of how you and your religion abandoned me after you claimed to be there for me. You are an embarrassment to the New Church itself and you always will be. So go ahead enjoy your Aryan Utopia and Keep BRYN ATYHN WHITE. Also keep referring to Black people and others of colored skin as Gentiles you sure as hell aren't God's chosen people either. Keep being worshipers of Science Before God and forgetting God Created Science and the reason for the Creation of the Bryn Athyn and New Church Utopia was to follow the writings of Emanuel Swedenborg who was teaching of a Human god who was a reflection of the sin and evil he wanted to commit in his heart so he turned it into religion and wrote and explanation on why it was ok to follow him. It was nothing do do with the Bible. He uses Christ as a front to be his own god. Not follow Christ but follow the gods of Science, Men, Greed, Lust, Sloth, and all the other sins of man. Yes at this moment I am exposing to the world the scourage of the New Church. Why? God came to me because the New Church wanted to push away certain people. They want to be unaccepting yet want to be accepted. They want you to believe their half truths but not look at the whole truths in the Bible. Yes the division on the so called writings and the conservative and liberal General New Church are about to implode and it is because of your selfishness, bigotry, and refusal to look inward and love your fellow man instead of love money, power, wealth, and exclusivity.
It has been a long time since I have written on this blog and it was because I did and do love Rachel Myatt. This was the day 4 years ago she destroyed my heart. I know she will probably check to see if I have written anything today and yes Rachel it does still matter, I am still angry at you, and even though I forgive you it is far from over. I have written a screenplay, and album, and about the dangers and cult nature of the New Church because of you. You brought this on yourself with your arrogance, hatefulness, and your family not even being brave enough to face me. If you are with someone I hope they know what kind of back stabbing two faced woman you are and how you lie, leave others, and use your religion as a crutch to constantly hurt others. I wish you no harm but you will be exposed when I release this material soon. It took me months but I focused on it and I will get it out there. You could have reached out to me and changed things. I will always love you and Jonathan and I was in love with you and wanted you both but you just like most of the girls couldn't just see I love you. You wanted to find all these things wrong with me without looking into the mirror with all that was screwed up with you. You wanted to let the other people around you in Dawson Creek shape you into fear of being around someone different and I thought Canada was less Racist and Judgmental than the U.S. but you and Dawson Creek British Columbia showed me more racism in a day then I have known my whole life. I knew bigotry when I saw it and your mother didn't know but I knew she didnt like me. If my parents didnt like you I would have still loved you because I am an and was an adult and they have no say so in who I love. I fought my dad over and over about that. Both my parents are gone now its just me against the world and so you know what? Its fine. I really wish we could have made amends. I got a call from Chiliwack BC and Vancouver in the last couple of months and days. Was it you trying to have the courage to talk to me. If it was fine. If you were a real woman you would do the Godly thing and end this with me and we both go in peace. Futureperfectone@lycos.com there is my email the one you should know the one we held all our lovely letters to each other. I am waiting to see if you have the fortitude to make peace if not its your loss. I loved you and Jonathan and you always remember for the rest of your life you did destroy someones love by playing with it and making fun of me after you did it when I was grieving my mother. I doubt you have changed. I wont forget ever and the revolution still marches on against you and the New Church.
Dear Readers, Its been a long time. If you think I have abandoned this blog or what it stands for you are wrong. I let Rachel Myatt, her family, and Pastor Glenn and anyone else who wanted to step up and promote fake gods and idols a false sense of security. You know what they say about Karma and payback don't you. So its time for that slow burn and simmer to go all full out. I will be in the InterContinental U.S. and maybe middle Canada spreading the word against the evil of Rachel and the New Church for the next 6 months. Its what she deserves because she never had the guts to admit she was wrong nor say she was sorry. I don't have to apologize for outing what a bitch and liars her and her family are. I don't apologize for the fake sincerity in the people who call themselves Reverends and Pastors on the New Church. If its so new then why is it just as bad as any other form of Christendom. In fact it is more of the same and worst because Swedenborg is put on a pedestal like a god and that is just as much as Idolatry as anything in Catholicism. Keep on being hypocrites. Rachel you and your family are cursed for generations to come and may much pain and suffering come to you and yours as you caused my family you hateful, racist, bigot.
There is no love of God in the New Church just a bunch of self worshipping sheep who follow a man instead of the truth and wisdom of Jesus Christ. Put down the volumes of Heresy and dreamscape and get back to the book of reality and true worship. "The Holy Bible". Proof again that the New Church worships heresy and follows man's beliefs not Christ. "I went to God just to see, That I was looking at me, Saw Heaven and Hell were lies(yes Swedenborg's book is lies) When I am God everyone dies" ... Marilyn Manson from the song "The Reflecting God". http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CaCwYR89X0 The New Church is a miserable bunch of self proclaimed pseudo intellectuals that stroke their own cocks and vaginas thinking they know God when in actually they shun Him and know nothing. If they truly knew God then they would know their eyes have only been opened to evil and that is why they shun Genesis, Adam and Eve as literal and the concept of Satan because they are his Children. They are Satan's Secret Society and will aid in persecuting real Christians when God is bringing on the true second coming.
