Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will
Showing posts with label A Love that persist is a love worth reexamining. Show all posts
Showing posts with label A Love that persist is a love worth reexamining. Show all posts

Friday, January 13, 2012

Choosing Love Over Revenge and Retribution(To The Church of The New Jerusalem)

Dear Readers,

I will effectively start my campaign in February. I loved Rachel with all my heart and I tried to put an end to this and it was her choice to say and make the decisions she did and it is also her free will to ignore me and think that I will just go away. I never deserved the treatment she gave me but most of all I never deserved the level of bigotry and religious intolerance that I was given by her and that kind of thing has to be taught and I believe it is being taught in the Church of the New Jerusalem.

I will also speak on the topic of Race and Ethnicity in the New Church. Although there may be people of different colors in the New Church worldwide in my paticular instance I was made to feel because of me being black in a predominately white part Northern Canada that Rachel was made to feel that I may not fit in and that was one reason that said and did the things she did even though she said she didnt care. She did little things and made mannerisms when I was there that let me know that there was an inherent form of Racism that was taught and though these people don't think it is it shows. I was raised to love people of all colors, creeds, and religons.  I have been shown immeasureable hate, dislike, and inconsideration because of the color of my skin. I have never dated or loved anyone for the color of their skin but the beauty in their heart, their personality, and who they were inside. I crossed all the lines with Rachel. I didn't ever want to date another single mother but God opened my heart to that, I had dated 3 Canadian women before and one of them screwed me over pretty bad but we are best friends now because I didn't let her treatment of me taint my love for Rachel. She has written both Rachel and her Church in Dawson Creek so I want you people in the Church of The New Jerusalem to truly pay attention to what I  am saying because God has had a hand in this all the way. I am not doing what I am doing to be evil or get back at Rachel I am doing what I am doing because of the way that she treats people and a form of bigotry and pride that I see arising in this Church.  I got that sense from the Canadian Pastors and Reverends and it is basically the New Chuch of Canada that I have a problem with and it will be addressed in my pamphlet.  I want to make this clear and I will highlight it for the most part the Church of the New Jerusalem members in the United States have been kind, loving, understanding and have been willing to listen I harbor no ill will against them and I will make that clear in my campaign. Please know that I love you as my brothers and sisters and I am not doing this to smear the beautiful work and word that has been done through God's hand. I will how ever point out the arrogance and inconderation that has been shown on the part of the Pastors in the Great White North. I will not lower myself to that level as I have shown nothing but love to those who have chosen to put me down and who doubt the love and intention in my heart. Truth is I love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt and if I hated Rachel unbeknownst to her I have contacts all over Canada even one in Dawson Creek that she didnt know about that would have helped me level her to the ground with insults.  I have spent my life being kind to people all over the world and have gained true friends and a lot of my friends happen to be Canadian so she has no idea of who she is messing with and the connections and people I have met in my 30+ years in this world.  I am not going to witchhunt or be untruthful I will just tell my story, I will tell how I was treated. I will tell how I came to Rachel and the Myatt family after just losing my mom and how I thought I was being loved and in the end I was turned away not only from the person who said she loved me but holding my hand out to God I was looking for the Church and that is why I chose Rachel so hear this Church of the New Jerusalem I WAS TURNED AWAY and I was treated like a leper in the end. Rachel always told me I was stupid for my Protestant beliefs and all I ever did was love her and try to understand her faith. So I want you all to know that this is because of her actions and it is because of what she was taught in the New Church that this is happening. It is sad that rather than make peace and enjoy a true friendship Rachel would rather hurt all the people around her and it come to this. A phone call, a little understanding ,and love would win but pride and selfishness is what she would rather have in her life and our personal business everywhere so I no longer care. It is up to all of you to read my blog and to look inward to what you teach and how you treat people but I can no longer hold back what I have to say worldwide and effective immediately I am starting my campaign. 

Please know this to all who Read.  I have nothing but love for Rachel, her family, and the Church of the New Jerusalem. It is Rachel only who can change this. She is the one who started treating me like an enemy and being cruel. It is her burden to bear and though it is nice to have others interested she drew first blood and she is the one who can decide the outcome. Does she live with the fact that because of her actions it set off this chain of events? Or does she put down her pride and show the kind of love, friendship, and forgiveness that Christ always talks about. That is up to her Church of the New Jerusalem and it will be the outcome of the whole ordeal. My arms are outstretched, open with love, and willing to have her back in my heart because truth is I Love Rachel Myatt she is and always will be my dearest friend.
God Bless All

Friday, May 6, 2011

Why I still care about you

First of all I know deep in your heart that you and I are true friends and even when you thought you didn't want to talk to me you hesitated because I believe that you do love me. I think there were outside factors that you weren't telling me about that contributed to you suddenly turning your back on me.  I could say the same about my actions.  The idle threats and the rude person I had to become to try to snap back at your behavior it was not my character and that is why I forgave myself for letting myself become that person.  I have nothing but love for you Rachel Myatt and for your family. I am in love with you and I always will be.  I would like nothing more than for us to put this behind us. I believe in you with my whole heart, soul, and put my trust in Christ that for the love He gave me you will let things go and just come back to my heart.  I will never love another woman as much as I love you and for all the women I have been with that had children,  Jonathan was the only one that I ever felt like committing my life to.  That is how much I love you Rachel Myatt. I love you and Jonathan but you still run from that.  I will leave you with a song today to let you know just how I feel. I will always love you, I will never stop hoping you will make peace with me because I have a love that is deep and true for you.  Blessed be your day Rachel and to all my readers please be blessed and pray for Rachel and I to make peace. You may think your prayers don't matter to someone you don't know but I pray all the time for people I don't know because the Lord is always ready to listen and to help those who need help.  He knows how much I love Rachel and has never let me falter on that road.  Thank you for your time.


This is for you Rachel Myatt.    This is how much I love you.  I will not stop caring about you even if you continue to ignore me. I still ask you forgive me for anything I did to hurt you because I have forgiven you 1000 times over and in that I am free.   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3kLAQMzrvM&feature=fvst