Dear Readers,
After having the time to listen to and watch the video above you see that God gives us free will and we choose how to use the path that has set for us. Pastor Glenn tried to tell me both my love for Rachel and my path were not of God. Why it was because of his title he thought that he as a so called Servant of God had some insight. Secretly he was carrying on the same kind of relationship (with his now wife) I was with Rachel, not only being a hypocrite but showing no regard for his place as a Pastor. He never once wished me any condolences or graces for my mom being dead when I first contacted him all he did was try to defend Swedenborg and Rachel's Actions. So lets put this into perspective.
Rachel I do not know what she is now but she was a foster mom. She did not show loving kindness or compassion toward me her boyfriend in grief but instead judged me, made me out into some kind of psychopath to people as she had done other men may I point out. She did this to justify her own self motives. Being a foster mother you think she would be more sensitive to peoples feelings and realize that kids who are abused grow up to be adults and I had shared all my secrets with Rachel and in the end she threw them back in my face, destroyed a beautiful courtship, pissed on a friendship, and betrayed a trust rooted in the Lord. See regardless of what Rev Glenn nor Rachel Myatt know I was put on a path by God and it is was not known to them nor will it ever be. Rachel choose evil over what could have been a lifetime of love so what God has for me to show here the ills of her ways was to not only expose her but expose the evils in the New Church. For all the people she kept hurting it was a mirror to be held up to her until she learned Repentance, Reconciliation, and Christ true love of Forgiveness. She hasn't and everyday she ignores me the more I do to show here that. I am not somebody who wishes evil on people for the fun of it and God is not a god of vengeance or retaliation but He does want us to learn from our mistakes. Rachel will continue to hurt others around her with this behavior. She could have made amends with me and I would be done but I have God's work to do. The Curse, the story, and my persistence its all God's love working in mysterious ways. 3 years this blog has been going. 3 years I have been passing out material and letting people know of my pain and how the New Church not only put down and view other Christians but how they are not humble and loving and fall short of loving their neighbor. God wont punish them but the New Church will be the downfall of themselves. I am not perfect but to the Myatt Family, Rachel Myatt, and Pastor Coleman Glenn and other people within the organization who didn't get to know me they were mistaken. God lives within me. You know how I know because people tell me everyday. I just open my mouth and be kind and love people and His Spirit and Kindness comes out of me. Im not some foul mouth, hate mongering, curse you go to hell person thought it may seem like I am but I am a carrying loving, giving individual. So I am the master of my free will and God has lead me on this path. White people love to live in this fairy tale reality like everything is good and nothing could be bad as it seems but try being a person of color for one day and your eyes could be opened up to new worlds and God's love would take on a new meaning. Rachel and Her Mother Jane could have instead of Judging me when I was grieving could have understood instead of me being damaged that seeing Grandmother, mother, and son together it made me sad and made me think of my own mother who had just passed away. Instead they made up some blasphemous shit that I was damaged, mentally ill, and unfit to date Rachel because I was quiet and reserved and just wanted to spend more time sitting learning about Rachel and Jonathan than Geocaching which in a couple of days I will have to comment on in a couple of days. You see one of the good things that came out of this situation is Rachel Myatt can never go around and blame her religion for her not finding a suitable partner which she did when I was with her. I loved her. I put proof in this blog that I was ready to accept and worship with her in her own words. She and her family turned me away when I needed that love the most. I do not take back my curse because that is part of God's work and it will be up to Rachel Myatt to turn that evil around into good. I am not sorry for anything I have said in the past couple of months nor will I apologize for anything I have to say in the future. Im not sorry Pastor Glenn got pulled into this and that is his fault and Rachel's fault. She would rather pull others down with her than to be a woman and attend to her own business. If you don't want to be judged do not do the same to others. Look what happened in this case. Last of all I want to reply to the New Church Perspective Article yesterday about being NEW IN THE NEW CHURCH and it being all love, a new way of finding god, and all that jazz. I am sorry but you treat certain people a certain way and it seems like its a certain degree of Anglo Saxon Middle Class white people. I hear stories about people who are priviledged and go to college and leave church and come to the New Church but never of people who have truly suffered and hurt to get there. http://www.newchurchperspective.com/essays/2013/7/12/new-to-the-new-church.html
So I am going to end there today. You can think whatever you want of me but a true Christian would evalute what I said and take me at face value. I have nothing more to say today
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