Dear Readers,
This is a painful short blog to write because this is the first Fathers Day I have without my father. I found him passed away this year on February 2nd so it has been a couple of months since he has been out of my life. My father was never very loving, he abused me alot, and said horrible things to me but we try not to just love and respect our parents no matter what. I was saddened most and have nightmares about him dying alone without anyone around him. I being the one to find him has caused me great sadness and discomfort in my life.
This blog is to Rachel Myatt and her family especially her mother and father Jane and Howard Myatt today. You daughter did the cruelest thing ever to me she played with my want and need to be not only a husband but a father. It doesnt matter if Rachel and I had of had any other kids I loved her and Jonathan and I would have loved Jonathan and did love Jonathan with all my heart. That is why I never gave up on them even when she said horrible things. I saw a true potential and real love in Rachel if she had of been patient and kind as I was with her. She was too quick too judge, she let others cloud her mind, and most of all she is just plain selfish. Being a father is one of the greatest gifts in the world and because of Rachel I was turned off of ever wanting children again. Last night as I was working I told many of the men Happy Fathers Day and a lot of them said the same to me. I told them I was childless and tears almost streamed down my face each time when they would ask me why or that you would be such a good father. This I have known since I was a child. I was all I ever wanted to be and it was what I was born to be. I also told one family that I wanted to be married and for it to be in the Lord and I refused anything less. What Rachel and her family didnt understand is that I would have waited for Rachel and been paitent with Rachel for years. I enjoyed courting her and having her for a best friend but she didnt apprecaite that one bit. Very few men put the Lord before their lust and needs now. I had kept chaste for Rachel, I had twarted off temptation of the highest kind and I had truly loved Rachel and Jonathan for all that they were. Despite the name of this blog I still love them. Rachel, her family, and her church set an example each and everyday for not only the evil but excuse they make for evil in their life. Do not they know that only God's love and Goodness will conquer all. Its not some utopian dream or thoughts that Swedenborg had its what Christ and the Bible have to say. If you look at the New Church Perspective page now you see they basically are trying to defend the evil of adultery and common law verses true marraige. http://www.newchurchperspective.com/essays/2013/6/14/is-common-law-marriage-un-conjugial.html Rachel and some of her sisters have kids out of wedlock but did I judge them? No I opened my heart not only to love Rachel and her son but wanted her family to be my family. My family was so happy and so full of love for the Myatts. Rachel and the Myatts not only set a bad example for their Church but a bad moral example about judging people. I dont know who made Rachel feel like she should be with me but they were wrong. I loved Rachel and Jonathan like they were my own flesh. I want to end this blog today just saying in my heart their isnt hate for Rachel but love. She is showing the New Church and others worldwide a side of selfishness, self love, and evil by 1. Not making peace with me, 2. Being a hypocrite to all that they supposedly believe in. 3. I have loved and always will love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt and everyday she shuns that she shuns God's true ministry of reconciliation and if that is what she want to do and be coward then I am happy to continue writing this blog. I will note if the people who keep trying to redirect this blog so that it can be seen do not stop I will put its entire contents up on facebook and some undisclosed things so if you have spammed this site or know how then it needs to stop. I am sorry Rachel and her family were so ashamed of the color of my skin, my Protestant upbringing , the fact that I really had been abused alot and just wanted to be love. Most of all I am sad they couldnt see that I was grieving and hurting. I loved each and every one of you Especially you Rachel, Jonathan, Jane, and Amanda. So just remember when you are celebrating Fathers Day today with Howard Myatt , remember the pain and trauma you caused and could help heal with a couple of words.
I dedicate the song "One More Day" by Chicago when I was a child I dreamed of parents and a better world for all the hurting children. I was 11yrs old when this song came out and it still has so much meaning to me today.Happy Fathers Day !!!
God Bless
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