Dear Readers,
First of all my mother was one of the most selfless people I ever knew. On her deathbed all she thought about was other peoples happiness. She didn't want me to stay and watch her die. She gave me permission to go see Rachel in Canada but I told her until I knew she was alright I couldn't go anywhere. All she wanted me to do was love and live life. We didn't always see eye to eye on things like religion or the state of the world but I loved my mother and if it wasn't for her, I probably would have given up that fateful day when Rachel abandoned me. She loved you Rachel Myatt and she never even met you but she wanted you to be loved by me because she knew I was a special man and that I deserved the best. I hope she is looking down on you everyday because of the pain you have caused me and my family. You are the most selfish, introverted, spoiled woman I have ever met. All you do is think about yourself and how things will work to your benefit and not how others fit into the picture. Even if you have a boyfriend or husband now I don't know how he stands you and will probably use you and abandon you because of how evil and masochistic you are toward men. You are not a good example for Jonathan by your dealings with men. You shame your religion by using it as a crutch to hurt other people. When your mother dies I hope you know what pain I felt and that your insult and injury was uncalled for. As for your mother Jane Myatt I hope when your mother passes away you feel a sense of what you & and your daughter did by judging me in the state I was in. In the past 5 years I have lost both parents, I endured my fathers hatred and evil in his final months to help take care of him, and all I did was love and press on. I have had two selfish unworthy girlfriends who stole from me lied and all I did was love them. One of them fell in love with me after the fact but I told her it was too late and that I was happy without her but I was glad that she realized I had changed her life from doing drugs and living off of other people to becoming a person with direction and meaning in life. My mother did the greatest thing in the world for me. She taught me how to love and to not judge people for their flaws and differences but to see within their heart and love them for all that was good about them. Rachel you showed nothing but judgment, racism, bigotry, and selfishness and I do blame part of that on the New Church Theology after seeing how arrogant and headstrong some of the Clergy and people in the New Church are. The rest lies with your parents and your upbringing because only that kind of disrespect and ignorance can be taught. I am not sorry for anything I say anymore and I only come at you with truth from my heart. I never started this blog to hurt you it was to show you that someone was willing to go the extra mile to show you that you were worth being loved at any cost. It was my way of reaching out trying to say I still love you and I was truly in love with you and was willing to fight for you. You ignored me and let others fight your battle for you so now I do hate you. My mother wouldn't be proud that I hate you but she would at least respect the fact that I stood up to you and didn't let you win by walking over me. So to my readers and to Rachel Myatt, the Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families. I want you to know this is how I feel. Rachel ruined the good memories of my mother because in her last days all she did was give me strength and confirm and accept my love for Rachel and Jonathan and for that I will never forgive her and I hate her and only want the world to know of how my heart was torn apart. It will happen when it is supposed to happen and it will be big. Rachel still has time to turn the tide but she is not the Christian woman she said she is she is a fake, puts evil over love, and she doesn't care about anyone but herself so she will get what she deserves and I don't care how her story turns out because when I extended the olive branch she was nowhere to be found.
Happy Mothers Day
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